I moved to a new city about a month ago and had to leave my therapist. So instead of trying to find someone here who specializes in EDs on my own, I made an appointment at a nearby ED center. I've waited about six weeks for the appointment and here we are.. it's tomorrow. I'm really nervous about it. I guess I will be talking to the director of the center, who may or may not have my blood work done, and who will recommend a treatment program for me. They have a lot of options there.. inpatient, partial hospitalization, intensive outpatient, regular outpatient therapy. It sounds messed up, but I am worried that he'll say that I'm sick and need an intense treatment and at the same time I'm worried that he'll say that I'm not too bad, recommend a therapist, and send me on my merry way. Like I know that if he thinks I'm sort of bad, then I'll be scared about my health.. but if he thinks I'm not that bad I'll be really angry with myself for sucking at my ED. So screwed up. Anyways, I'm just scared.

oh honey, you'll do okay. i know it's totally nerve wracking, but once you actually get in there and start talking, everything will be easier. try not to worry too much about what treatment you'll receive. the director will be able to assess what's the best fit for you, so you don't have to feel like you SHOULD end up in something or another. just try to think of it as what you need to get better. maybe a little, maybe a lot, but most likely somewhere in between. try to think of it as the first step in your new life! (cheesy, i know, but that's how i feel sometimes) Good Luck and we'll be here when you need to talk about it!

hun thats a strong thing to do!! that means u are ready and willing to beat this horrible disorder!! and dont be nervous, u'll do AWESOME!! its may be different talking to someone else, but i bet they'll be just as good. :)