Does anyone ever do this? My shrink and dietician tell me "Maggie you must try a 4 new foods this week" yeah sure. No way I am going to vary my 8-10 specific foods I let myself eat. Is he insane? - so in order to make them happy because if I don't follow the rules I can't go to treatment I do something ridiculous like: eat 1 single grape ( desperately try to figure out the calories of whatever it is) or 1 chunk of pineapple, or 1 raisin, or one orange section. I feel so abnormal sometimes. I get insanely jealous when I watch someone at work sit down with a burger and fries and just stuff them down with nary a thought. I sit there with my plain salad, a boiled egg and some nonfat yogurt and have to think about every single bite, every single calories, etc. It takes them 10 minutes to eat it takes me my lunch hour and both breaks to choke it down. GRRRRR

I do the same things. I am constantly measuring my food to make sure I have the exact serving size. Like say 15 chips = 1 oz, I will absolutely NOT allow myself 16. Sometimes if I eat like 14, I feel so accomplished. Dont ask why, it's a way to make myself feel as if I still 'good at my e/d'. Sick I know. I just wanted to say that I think you are great, Maggie and am so glad you came back. You say such positive things in response to others and I only wish you read what you post back to yourself, but actually BELIEVE it because you so desperately deserve it.

:) Morgan

thanks Morgan you are very kind - I wish that too for myself I mean. I get so upset with myself for not treating myself like I treat others, I get so mad when I know just what to do or say for everyone else (like my patients) but I can't do the same for myself. I know what you mean about the I ate less therefore I am accomplished. I've done that so many times left just a little of my nearly nothing calorie yogurt just so i could reassure myself that I wasn't hungry, see the treatment doesn't know what they are talking about, holy cow :)