hey everyone.. I guess I'm just posting because I feel depressed and don't have anyone to talk to about it. I wish I could say why I feel this way, but I don't. I quit grad school and moved closer to my boyfriend and hoped that it would make this feeling go away and it did for a while, but now stuff just feels sort of the same. I still don't know what to do with my life.. life still just seems meaningless and I don't know what can make me happy. I don't have any friends here and I hardly ever talk to my friends from college any more. And when we do talk, it's just all superficial stuff. Every day is the same and there is still no one that I interact with on a daily or even weekly basis (aside from my boyfriend) who I can even call a friend. And I'm just constantly tired, I never feel like I'm getting enough sleep. Even if I sleep nine or ten hours at night I'm still exhausted all day. I wish I didn't eat so much. I've been trying to cut back calories the last week or so for no good reason. But some days I still suck and eat "normal" amounts. And my weight hasn't budged in like four days. Gr, I just feel so *frustrated* with everything.

Sorry for all this.

Please don't be so down. When I moved to this country my boyfriend (husband now) was the only person I knew and I had only known him for 6 months. It's not easy and it's not fun!
Grad school is tough and sometimes you need some time to think about what you really want. This is a good time for you to find yourself. First of all you have to look at whether you are sleeping all the time because you have no motivation and you feel depressed or because your iron levels are low and draining you. Once you know why you can then take action.
Sadly sometimes what they say "out of site out of mind is true " so try not to dwell on the old friends and try to make new ones. How about going to a new gym? That's where I met all my current friends. Or go to the local coffee shops and see if they have any social events coming up. Pick up the paper and see if there are any festivals in town.
Do you work? Work is a place to meet people too.
I am sorry you are having a hard time and the fact that you feel isolated is totally understandable. But you are with the person you love so try to make the most of it.
Finally becareful if restricting calories, I know that when we feel like we can't control a situation we immediately turn to our ED's and calorie counting as a way to counter that feeling. It won't solve anything though you know that don't you?
Keep us posted and come to the boards as much as possible this can be a great place to get your mind off things.

Aw hunny, (((hugs)))) ur just goin thru the "down" time of all this...ur sliding down ur pole to recovery, but dont worry, ull catch ur grip and climb back up to the top again..its just takes time. deep breathes and think positive about urself....and everything sumi sed...she is so rite...be careful when restricting cals...dont overdo it...honestly hun u prolyl shouldnt even be restricting...

take care and keep us posted

The best thing you can do, if you can, is get involved in work or an activity with others. I moved far away to be with a boyfriend years ago and I had no friends there and I was horribly, sickly depressed and lonely. Of course now I don't really have any friends back at home either since I lost contact with them. You have to find others to be around. I know it is hard.

Yepp...its no help sitting around doin nothin..its best to keep busy :)