I'm not sure if it's just me or what but I seem to be having an intrusive obsessive tought about me throwing myself out of my 12th story apartment window. I have never had these thoughts before but my doctor just put me on celexa at 40mg from the 20 I was on for panic disorder and anxiety. I honestly don't think it's working for that and I can't seem to stop thinking and obsesing about this. Is this a side effect common or known to Celexa or am I just going more crazy? ;)

thanks,

A.

Does the thought of throwing yourself out of a window scare you? Do you try to stop thinking about it as much as you can because it causes you such anxiety? If so, this is most likely an obsession. However, if you find that you keep seeing yourself doing this over and over but it doesn't really bother you, this could be a suicidal thought. Some people experience suicidal thinking when they first start an anti-depressant, even if they've never had any thoughts of killing themself beforehand. If I may ask, are you taking the Celexa for depression? Have you been diagnosed with OCD? If you already had a pre-existing diagnosis of OCD, then it wouldn't be uncommon for you to begin having a different type of obsessional thinking. Many people can switch from a fear of contamination to "pure obsessions."
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hmmm...well, it does scare me because I'm afraid that I might do it, like I'll lose control of my rational self and in an instant just do it eventhough I really do not want to commit suicide. I have had first-hand experience with what that does to a family and I'm certainly not that desperate anymore.. I fight to get it out of my head by distracting myself with something else. I have had many thoughts of suicide in the past and I used to have depression that related to a traumatic experience I had when I was 13. I have never been diagnosed with OCD and I'm no longer depressed as I have delt with what was causing my depression. I do have panic disorder and anxiety....

thanks,

A.

That does sound like OCD because you mentioned that you're afraid that by thinking it, you could actually do it- that by thinking it, it must be your true feelings, which is false. Good luck and God bless! :angel:
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