ok i need to no if i have depression and a eating disorder i cannot make myself eat it is because i belive i am fat yet i only weigh 80 pnds at age 14 at all i am losing weight drastically and my parents have not noticed i am concered for my sake i also have think that no one cares about me i have lost interest in my friends and family and things i used to enjoy i am rebeling serverly againt my parents also i have ran out of the house several times not caring or noing if i can return i hav also cut myself many times and have acutlly attemted suicide on sevral occasions without friends or famiy knowing plz i need anwsers to my questons it would mean alot this is sorta my final cry for help but i am not sure i think i have made my decision to live but i do not know how to cope with my problems plz help thank you

wow- sounds like you are really struggling. I am really glad you felt like you could post here with us :) It sounds like things have gotten out of control. I sorry that you are hurting yourself and feeling so alone. If you were willing to post maybe you would like to get some help? If you are only 14 you probably won't be able to seek help by yourself. Do your parents know anything that you have shared here? Do you have any other family members you can trust? Family doctor, church leaders anyone? thinking of you

yeah its hard for me to tell anyone wat has happened to me u c i grew up in a very broken home so i can literlaly trust no 1 i hope u understand

I am so happy you have come here for help. I too feel like i have reached rock bottom. You just have to remember that you are not alone. Are you a Christian? Just sitting in my room soemtimes alone and praying really helps me sometimes escape from everything. I definetly agree with maggie about getting help because this is a huge struggle to be dealing with by yourself. I wish i could give you more advise but i have not gone and got professional help myself yet, but i am looking for someone because i belive thats the only way to get through this. You always have freinds here though if you ever need to talk.
liza

Please sweetie, you need to get some help and soon before you hurt yourself. Only 80 pounds, how tall are you? You said it's hard for you to trust people because you come from a broken home but you have to understand there are good people out there that are willing to help you and that do care about you. Please check out some organizations/services in your area that offer counselling. I'm glad that you came here because we DO care and want you to get help and get better. Please take my advice....you ARE worth it! You deserve to be happy! I know things may seem like they've hit rock bottom and there is no way out but you have to believe that things can and will get better. I know....I've been there too... many times. Just believe...believe in yourself...believe in others that can help you. Take care hun and hang in there ok?

Awww, hun, please, I know its hard, and with a difficult past, its hard to think positive sometimes, you need to keep your chin up high! Get some help - please dont go to suicide - think of the future - what you could miss out on - I know the present is hard but think what would you do if your dream cood come true (what ever it is) you may say - its never going to come true - but think positivly - nothing is impossible - honestly bebe, I dont really know what to say - I can only imagine how you feel -
Please - seek help -

X Hannie X

I too came from a broken home - horrible child abuse and worse other things but you can learn to trust someone - you have to if you want to survive. It will be very hard - choose to live and start somewhere honey - you can do this I promise you can....

Wow, you sound like me a few months ago.. That's exactly what I did, and that's exactly how I felt. I started off weighing almost 140 lbs being 5'5" and 16 years old, cutting, starving myself, trying to make myself throw up, losing interest in my friend, family and the things i used to love, not caring if I died, running away, you name it I tried it or have done it...and now I don't have many friends, I weigh 105 lbs and I'm practically the same as I was before.. except for I haven't cut myself in 5 weeks.

Just try not to get yourself down... things WILL get better. Just keep telling yourself that. Try to confide in someone that you trust about your problems, what you've done, how you feel, and all that stuff. Trust me, it really helps to have someone listen to you about your problems.. Or, maybe try writing them down in a journal. I also did that. Its a good way to relieve stress, and its better then cutting your problems away.... the things that you're doing can be very dangerous.. just remember that so many people love you, and things will get better! I hope that things get better for you soon.