This is a BIG challenge for me, but I feel like I need to just take a break from it for awhile because I just get obssessive about it. The only exercise I'm going to do now is walking. I was also doing (fat-burning) yoga for 30-40 min about everyday but I just need to give that up for awhile. With the walking and cleaning my house and also taking care of my 1 year old daughter I should get plenty of exercise...all I need. I'm eating pretty good now but I'm still a few pounds underweight and my periods still haven't come back, even after taking Provera to jump start them again. So it's probably because I still don't have enough fat on my body for it to function properly. Giving up the exercise just feels so freeing. It's one less thing that I felt like I "had" to do everyday. I'm feeling more "normal" now than I've felt in a long time. I'm feeling more like my old self again and it's wonderful!!

Good for you! I just recently started going to the gym, but I'm consdering stopping for a bit. Im not really sure though. Part of me thinks I should, but part of me thinks that exercise is good and that I need to tone up, etc. It's realyl a battle...but I can tell that I will (and sort of am almost already) getting obsessive with it. I feel I need to go to the gym every other day, for an hour each time, and I skipped my workout yesterday and feel quite guilty. People around me argue that I dont need to at all, and that I shouldn't be feeling guilty (thus I shouldn't go..).

Hey good job! I'm really glad that you're able to make such a positive decision for yourself even if it may be hard at first. I've actually stopped exercizing too.. I was training for a half marathon, but it was too much trouble, the stress of figuring out how I was going to get through a run when I'm not eating enough and sometimes I would start eating more the night before a long run and it would trigger a binge. Too much to focus on. We've got to get our diets and bodies back to normal before we can start really worrying about exercise! I'm really impressed with how great you've been doing. It's very inspiring. :)

Im so proud of you! Taking care of a 1 year old is definetly exercise so don't be worried. You are truly an inspiration to me. Right now my eating is allll messed up. I feel like i have lost all control. Its either starving myself or bingeing HORRIBLY. Today i have actually done pretty good. I am now keeping a food journal and monitoring that,(step one from the book i am reading overcomming binge eating) and I am going to just go from there. I am about to go off to school and i know that i will not be able to exercise as much as i do now so im just going to have to get through that. Thanks so much for motivating me to get healthy and good luck on your journey to freedom, YOU DESERVE IT!
liza

Hey,

Liza - I am supposed to be starting step 1 of that book. Not sure when to though coz i probably wont move on to step to til i go to see the specialist which wont b til september. hmm. any ideas?? Anyway, yeah, the book is really good I think. Reading part one made a lot of things make more sense than they had before. It was like i could've written it myself!

Piscean- just wanna say i really admire u for taking that step and doing so well. I wish I could. It would take a big weight off my shoulders just having one less thing to have to do a day. I was just thinking today how much more uni work i could fit in before going to work if i just didt exercise so often but i cant do it! Anyway, well done!!!!

Suzanne
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Thanks so much for the replies! Today has been a little harder. I felt really guilty for not doing my yoga. I tried to push myself to do it but I just told myself "no"! But I did walk probably about 4 miles. So I got plenty of exercise. I walked 3 miles with my mom and then when I walked home from my mom's house I took the long way home and walked a little more and faster. I felt kind of bad after that though because I know my only reason for that was to "burn calories". I just hate feeling lazy, ya know? But the thing is I'm not lazy and I don't just lay around all day. I usually relax in the mornings and watch TV and get on the computer but afternoons I'm more active (walking, cleaning, going to the store) and also early evenings I'm more active (fixing supper, cleaning up, picking up the house). Then I relax in later in the evenings and we watch a movie or something. That's what my day is like. I start a knew job here really soon as a phlebotomist and I go back to school part-time in august also. So I'm going to be very busy here soon and I'm just not going to have the time to stick with a rigid exercise routine. I have to walk around campus at my college because all my classes are in different buildings and I'm going to be working in a hospital and there I'll be on my feet most of the time. I shouldn't have anything to worry about. It's just hard for me right now. These stupid thoughts in my head keep telling me "I'm going to get fat if I don't exercise" and "I'm lazy and worthless if I don't exercise". I know they're just my ED talking and I need to ignore them but as you all know that's hard sometimes. Anyway, thanks again for the replies!