Is there something that you think about that gets you down? Or you can hold back the tears until you think of this thing.

I think about relationships, mine and others...or how I percieve others. I feel like any relationship I will ever be in will be awful and my s/o's work & interests will always be more important that me & I'll be taken for granted. At the same time I feel like life is meaningless without a relationship. I really hate that part. It makes me bring all these boys close and then analyze everything they do & I just hurt myself but it's so hard to shut off.

I think about whether or not I will ever be really happy and what kind of mark I will make on the world. I think a lot about what kind of difference I can make in other people's lives.

Lush, I know exactly what you mean. I feel the exact same way. I do the same thing. :(

Lush, I know exactly what you mean. I feel the exact same way. I do the same thing. :(

Wow. I thought I was deffinitly alone on this one. How long has it been going?

it has been going on ever since i can remember having my first serious relationship. that was 11 years ago. i have had 3 serious relationships and have repeated similar patterns in all of them. i look at everything that is not exactly right,analyze it to death and blow it up so much. i just, infact, finished making my new husband feel like total crap and like he can just never do enough to make me happy. if i can not understand our differences, then there must be something wrong, is how i feel. but i don't know, this can't be true b/c i get these different guys and they all make me feel similar negative ways.... must be me.... i don't know if this is exactly what you do, but it's like i just won't allow myself to be happy. i don't do this with my friends or family so much (maybe on occasion and mostly secretly when i do), but i can not help myself with the s/o......