Well here I am again. Yesterday when I had a bowel movement it was VERY large and hard so naturally it was very painful. I was even trying to remove it myself (wearing gloves of course) because I dreaded enduring the pain and worrying I'd see blood and start to panic as I always do when I see blood. As I had expected there was some blood on the stool! It was like mucous but it was red. I guess this means I definitely have colo-rectal cancer and I'm going to die, I just know it! What else could it be? Doesn't this sound like late stage colo-rectal cancer? I have an appointment to see a GI doc August 18th(more weeks of worrying I might add) and I'm so worried he's going to tell me I have cancer which has spread to every organ in my body and there's nothing they can do and I only have less than 6 months to live! I just hope people who've been treated by hospice aren't lying when they say they can make dying much easier! I don't want a miserable death, I want it to be happy and exciting! I'm ready to give up because I'm sure my prognosis is going to be bad!

Kewpie

Kewpie.. take a chill pill!!
Those of us with bowel cancer ARE NOT THINKING OF DYING!!!

Sorry if I sounded insensitive, but I have to prepare for the worst. I understand you found your cancer at stage II so you have a better chance at beating this than I probably do. The fact is most people with stage IV will eventually succumb to the disease. Even if it is "cured" there's still a 100% chance it will return in the future. I was ignorant enough to ignore my symptoms for 3 years because I was told I was too young. It's my own fault if something is wrong. I might as well prepare for it now so it won't come as a shock when I'm told the devastating news. Again I apologize. I've been in denial long enough.

Kewpie

Kewpie, you have just a week or two until your appointment...
He may not be able to diagnose ANYthing at that point. Are you willing to pay for a colonoscopy on your own if your insurance won't pick it up?
If so, insist on it - to ease your mind if nothing else.
If your colon is clear at least you can stop worrying about that part of you having cancer and try to concentrate on focusing on something other than your health. And I mean that as a friend who has been here awhile and care about you.
It concerns me that so much of your time is spent worrying about dying when there is so much life out there to live.

I agree that a colonoscopy would be a good thing to do - but start thinking about how you want to live life afterwards!!!
:angel:

Kewpie:
Maz actually found her cancer at stage 2+... meaning there was a perforation, meaning it could have spread anywhere. Hence the "+". I'm stage 3C (worst before 4) and I don't think I am going to die. I understand your anxiety. Anyone who has had cancer before gets anxious with a sneeze. But PLEASE, as I have said before, for your sake, try to stay calm.

Good Luck, and keep us posted.

Regards,
CancerDad

Kewpie Im sorry if I sounded harsh.. I didnt mean too, but please try and take time to smell the roses. LiFE is good!!!
(Thanks CD for explaining my diagnosis) :)
Get the colonoscopy and then see what to do,, why panic before hand if you dont even know if its cancer or not???
Please take care and try not to worry so much...
Maz

Kewpie~ Please call your GP and ask for an anti anxiety pill.. Ativan works GREAT... You keep focusing on everytime you use the restroom, I understand the anxiousness, but not everyone has colon cancer, remember back when I was freaking out?? It turned out to be internal hemmroids that were making me bleed because I was not eating enough fiber... my gerd medication makes me extreamly constipated there for makes the hemmroids bleed... so I increased my fiber and I take a stool softener and all gone... I too have seen mucous, getting the test was the best thing, BUT you HAVE to quit worrying about it for now...all you are doing is upsetting your body more.. get some Ativan, it will help you A LOT...

Take care, be sure to let us know how it goes on the 18th.. I am marking my calendar.

Bella

No kewpie it does not sound like late stage. I was about stage II and I had blood and mucus with every bowel movement.

That said it also does not necessarily even mean you have cancer. As you may well have been told, there are other reasons for blood and mucous in feces.

Even IF it is cancerous , normally colon cancer advances slowly and two more weeks will make little difference.

Preparing for the worst is not that bad an idea. Panicing about the worst is not a good idea. The two are different things.

Before going into surgery I made sure my will was up to date and that someone (other than my family) knew who to contact to obtain my will. That sort of thing is preparing for the worst. Panicing and giving up is not doing you or any loved one any good.

Are you for real? I'm wondering if you really have this problem or if for some sick reason known only to you, you've made all this up. I've read your posts and belive me if I was in your place I'd be at ANY hospital having the colonoscopy done!
My husband has Bile Duct Cancer and Colon Cancer!
Right now he's going into hospital to try and replace his liver stents because he's turning yellow again and in a lot of pain. He may not make it. The Drs. don't know why his stents are blocked.
If what you say is real you only have a few days until your colonoscopy right?
YOU WILL NOT DIE BETWEEN NOW AND THEN!! Colon cancer is the easiest cancer to cure. Do your research. You know it could be something as simple as hemorroids.

I want to thank everyone for their kind words and support. It has made me feel a lot better these last few days! I appreciate each and every one of you!

Also to jcraz, I'm sorry to hear about your husband, but I'm also very offended that you would ask if I made this up! Why would you even ask that? I've had cancer before, I realize what I may have to go through again. I'm a testicular cancer survivor, I've endured the gruesome lymp node dissection surgery where they make a 12" vertical incision along your abdomen and remove lymph nodes by moving around vital organs to find them. And not to mention the chemo. It isn't something I'd want to do ever again. So naturally I'm frightened if I have colon cancer because it may be in a later stage if I do. If I would have known I could still get colon cancer in my 20's, I would have had the colonoscopy done 3 years ago when I first noticed the bleeding!

But I've been keeping myself busy and staying positive so I have less time to worry and I'm very proud of myself thus far. Usually I'm a basket case!

Kewpie

Kewpie, I wish you the best and that your appointment on the 18th will provide the answers you need to hear in order to avoid any further anxiety.

Tonia

Kewpie I am sorry for my message before.
I am in a real bad place emotionally right now and I guess that when I read your post it just set me off.
My John is terminal and I almost lost him this last week due to infection in his liver.
I guess I was so angry that you are freaking out about something that is only a possibility instead of being more calm and waiting for the results.
By the way a stool softener that is sold over the counter at any pharmacy will help your problem. Johns Dr. said 100 mil. is what to take once a day.
Again I'm sorry and good luck :angel:

Kewpie,
I believe j craz is speaking about docusate sodium 100mg... sold at ANY pharmacy-- CVS/Walgreens/Rite Aid, etc. It's JUST a stool softner, not a laxative, so it's safe to take daily.

Regards,
CDad

J craz... I hope you saw my messages for you.~CD

you're kidding right? you think because you're number 2 was large one day that you have cancer?

Kewpie, I have read your posts and everyone else's and your story sounded all too familiar to me. I had 2 kids that have the same problems as you. I have a son that I took to the hospital at least 5 times for the same problem. They did x-rays and it showed "impacted bowel". There were so, sooo many times he had to "poop" and couldn't and then when he finally was able to get a "start" on it it was so huge and stuck that I had to run upstairs, donned with gloves and literally pull this HUGE thing out! He screamed in pain and yes there was blood because the bowel movement was so big that it tore the rectal muscles. When something that big comes out of a smaller area and it is sooo hard, something has to give and it will be that tender tissue back there.
So there was blood and yes mucous too because he would take exlax, and when the drain pipe is clogged like that and you put all that medicine on top of it to relieve it you are going to have the mucous after the blockage or roughage comes out. It was tramatizing for my son to go thru this. The Doctor told him he was eating too many "pre-packaged" foods meaning starches like mac and cheese, and to start by adding more roughage and fiber. He loves shredded wheat and raisin bran cereal which helped alot. He now eats more veggies and fruits and his bowels are not so compacted hard and large and is doing well. The other child here had a colonoscopy and there was a small tear in the colon which healed because of such large bowel movements. If you eat a lot of starches, pastas and white bread that might be something that you want to cut down on, and increased activity helps too. Fiber pills help a lot and make things a little more gentler. I know it's scary to see what happened and to think the worst.
As far as what jcraz, she is going thru a tremendous amount of worry and stress right now and her husband is going thru the "real deal". You must be understanding of her as I am being understanding of your worries with this. I am no dr. by any means and I have stood by many very close relatives that have terminal cancer and I know how emotional it can be for them. And sometimes the caretakers of these patients are just at an emotional breaking point and need to vent and are just totally exhausted emotionally as well as physically.
I hope by now that you have had your appt. with your Dr. and he has helped ease your mind a bit, and that you follow his advice. You'll be getting answers soon. Take care and care of yourself.

So Kewpie.. waht were the results????


Maz

giddyup,

Thank you for your post! You're probably right, the reason why there was some blood was because it was too big and it probably tore the mucles. The rectal area can tear easily.

Also, YES I do tend too eat lots of pasta, almost 3-4 times a week! I've been TRYING to eat raisin bran and shredded wheat cerials. Usually when I do my stools are relatively normal. But then I get sick of eating the same cerial everyday. Plus I've been taking metamucil up to 3 times a day! I heard it was safe to take daily. Usually if I've hadn't had a BM in 4 days, then that means I'm in trouble! Walking seems to help to. I've become so obsessed with my bowels lately so I would like to have the colonoscopy done anyway so I'll know everything is ok! I've always suffered from chronic constipation most of my life, having only 1 or 2 BM's a week! It was never really an issue because my stools were always soft
Well all I can do now is wait, relax, and pray nothing is seriously wrong!

Also, jcraz, it's ok. Again I'm very sorry to hear about your husband and I'll keep you BOTH in my prayers. :angel:

And Mazrose, I haven't had the colonoscopy yet, it's scheduled for Sept 15th! However, my GI doc asked me several questions and says it sounds hemorrhoidal, but would like me to have the colonoscopy anyway since my oncologist knows I have serious health anxiety! I'm hoping this GI doctor is right!

Kewpie

Sorry Kewpie.. i thought you said the 15th August... Let us know how you go with it and glad to hear your still going to have the colonoscopy.. not that it sounds like bowel cancer, but more to ease your own anxiety over it...
Take care
Maz