It has been nearly a month since my precious father (age 58) died of lung cancer (7-11-05). The first two weeks after he went on to be with the Lord were so busy that I barely had time to grieve. Even though I've heard that time helps, it really feels like I am grieving more rather than less. This morning, I woke up with his last few agonizing seconds of life vividly pictured in my mind's eye and even though I know that God orchestrated my daddy's death with great love towards both him and us (wife, three children, three children-in-laws whom he treated like his children, five grandchildren), it still hurts to remember his painful gasping for breath. I am going to pick up the death certificate from the funeral home in a few minutes and I just hoped that someone would read this and pray for me and my family.

I have been through the exact thing as you...my dad was 61 and died on 4-23-05. I can still remember his struggling to stay alive and it kills me. I grieved while he was sick and could not understand why not as much after he passed away. Well 3 months later it hit me like a ton of ton bricks and I have been crying non stop. my mom passed away 5 years ago at 57. She was my best friend. I did not think I would ever feel better...the pain does ease in time.....

I am so sorry for your loss. I still have my mother and I cannot imagine what it would be like to lose both parents. My prayers are with you!