ibebean13
08-08-2005, 06:56 PM
I need help... I'm afraid of drinking coffee or any sort of stimulant to wake me up because i don;t like the jitters. I almost fell off the wagon last week and back into cutting but caught myself before I did. I'm at work and people are asking me questions that i know i should know but i can't for the life of me bring myself to answer them. i keep referring them to the other coworkers for help. I feel like i'm dreaming and none of this is real. I've been at work since 8:30 thins am and still haven't done any work. It's making me almost paranoid, as if to say, everyone else is asking what's up her?!?!?! I'm on the same meds i've been on for years... like since 96-97 so I don't think it's the meds but now i'm sitting here cutting again...at work...just to see if all this really is real? A co worker walked up behind me and i didn't hide it like I normally would. He asked me how i got the mark and i blamed it on a screw under my desk that's holding up an ergo arm rest for my key board. The good and bad thing about it all...Is now i'm starting to feel a little better and feel like the fog is lifting. In the back of my head it's like there' a voice telling me just a few more and you'll be back to normal. The bad thing...I just fell off the wagon again and am asking myself what the hell am I thinking/doing! What the heck is going on with me!!!!! :confused:
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babygrl1337
08-10-2005, 03:58 AM
Are you seeing a doc? Do you think your meds are STILL working or are you scared to know what will happen if you switch them?? I used to cut to and I still think about it but, I don't think ill ever go back to that. I have to hide my arm alot and the scares are pretty noticable. The only time i felt like i was dreaming i shouldv'e went to the hospital cause i don't think anyone is supposed to feel like that. I know those times really suck but stay strong and see a doc before something crazy happens......cause you never know...... Just wanted to let you know that ive been there to and I know how it is!!!!! STAY STRONG!! *JESSI*
lachesis
08-10-2005, 06:46 AM
that sounds a lot to me like something called derealization.. it's just like you described. you feel like you're in a dream, everything is foggy, nothing is real, you're disconnected, etc. it's a fairly common in anxiety and depression. if i were you i would talk to a psychologist about it. good luck
Wes1212
08-13-2005, 10:16 PM
i would start by talking to my family doctor about it. while he/she rules out or treats any physical problem you can discuss seeing a psychologist.