Hey everybody.

I have been taking a back seat for a couple of weeks because I have been awaiting the results of a girll I was seeing, after i broke up with my ex again, whos recent test was not so recent, and who said that she had been safe with everybody, except for the married man she considered safe. I have not mentioned any of this because I wanted to keep a lid and on it and control it. I did not put myself at any risk but with the way i have been feeling with my glands and stuff, it started the what-ifs again. Despite her several reaasurances that he had been tested when he rejoined the army. I started panicking again. However, those results returned safely negative yesterday :)

Safe to say Im obviously happy.

But more importantly I wanted to address the issue of my lack of input, and I hope that helps as an explanation.

So If you will have me back, may I sign up for a bit longer team?

Chris,Sarah,Spec,LS,Carat and Barb?

Everybody else?

Jon x

Welcome back Jon :D
Jon with the chronic gland problems you are having have you been checked out for other things .
With the 6 month negative test that does rule out hiv but if you're still having problems you should get checked out for all the other std as well .

Hey LS :)

I have had another Full STD panel done two weeks ago. Im wondering that after all the prodding I have been doing, that whenever I pick something up they are swelling slightly larger than normal. However there is something doing the rounds here, and I know several people who are complaining of the same problem. My hormones are trashed and messed up cos of all the stress.

But I am here to help others, the way I have been. And thankyou LS. You rule.

Thats one down, how bout the rest of the guys.

Hey, MJ! I was just drafting my letter to the UK..... ;)


Glad to see you here, buddy. I've missed you. I pray things continue to go well for you. I can't imagine what's causing your glads to swell, though.

LOTS OF LOVE FROM ME!

Jon~
What would ever make you think anybody would say no to request like that?? I think those what ifs and swollen glands are carrying some kind of crazy hormone to your brain :-) just kidding.
Glad to have you back, really. If anything, I was terrified that we would never see you again. I'm relieved that Chris and I dont have to fly out to the UK and scour the country looking for you...totally relieved(because i meant that)
I hope everything is working out with the girl. Im having problems with mine right now. He cheated on me 7 mos ago with a girl who works in the pharmacy next door, and one pf his conditions was to never talk to her again(i stayed bc IM CRAZY i know). Now he's going to work in the pharmacy...i dont even know what to do.....me and my damn insecurity...grrr
sorry, had to vent
WELCOME BACK MAN!!!
xoxo Sarah xoxo

Jon~
He cheated on me 7 mos ago with a girl who works in the pharmacy next door, and one pf his conditions was to never talk to her again(i stayed bc IM CRAZY i know). Now he's going to work in the pharmacy...

He doesn't know your value, Sarah. Is he worth it?

Thank you ladies :)

I had no intention of leaving this place, I am signed up for life. I have no intention of not repaying the kindness I have been shown, the courage that I now know exists has prompted me to get on with my life, my university acceptance came through and I have been shredding on my guitar non stop.

And Sarah, if he cant see the value of somebody like you, then he is an idiot. In fact, tell him Im your secret lover. Plenty of MrJon to go around ;)

Oh Spectacular, I been working on some new moves, I will show you one day real soon :)

Three down, three to go...

aw thanks guys...it's a real mess right now...but im going back to school soon and doing some volunteer work, plus an internship and work full time..that should keep me busy :)~
aw, we're all complete again..well halfway there..barb,pull through so you can enjoy the family reunion!
-Sarah

Oh Spectacular, I been working on some new moves, I will show you one day real soon :)



Awesome! I bet you're fabu!

*thinking* How much is a flight to the UK gonna cost me? ;)

Hey everybody.

I have been taking a back seat for a couple of weeks because I have been awaiting the results of a girll I was seeing, after i broke up with my ex again, whos recent test was not so recent, and who said that she had been safe with everybody, except for the married man she considered safe. I have not mentioned any of this because I wanted to keep a lid and on it and control it. I did not put myself at any risk but with the way i have been feeling with my glands and stuff, it started the what-ifs again. Despite her several reaasurances that he had been tested when he rejoined the army. I started panicking again. However, those results returned safely negative yesterday :)

Safe to say Im obviously happy.

But more importantly I wanted to address the issue of my lack of input, and I hope that helps as an explanation.

So If you will have me back, may I sign up for a bit longer team?

Chris,Sarah,Spec,LS,Carat and Barb?

Everybody else?

Jon x
Dear MrJon,
I'm certain Barb would want you to stay here and help others.

I hope so. If she wants me here then I will continue to be here forever.

Sarah, do what you think is right.

Spectacular, you find out the cost of a flight and I will put you up free of charge.

Chris, you there?

I have been thinking.

Whilst on a physical level I am ok, this whole experience has taken its toll on me. Earlier on I had safe, protected sex with the girl I have been seeing. Something that I should have enjoyed. Yet the moment after it was all over I started panicking about my sexual health. With no reason at all to be concerned. This whole experience has soured me on sex, and I think its gonna be such a long time before i can do it without fear.

this whole experience has soured me on sex, and I think its gonna be such a long time before i can do it without fear.

Oh wow, MJ...I feel the same way. I cannot even think of being intimate with someone (even safely) without him having a whole battery of tests.

The risk, in my head, is too great. I don't want to feel that fear that I felt before...NOTHING is worth that.

hey jon
random question
my boss is from wooster (worschester..dont know how its spelled) eng...are you close there? she just moved to the states a few years ago..she told me to ask you where you're from

Spectacular I know your right. It sucks. I am gonna wait a long time again before I do that again. Plus I think Im not over my ex when I think about it. I miss her but we are finished with. This whole thing sucks.

Sarah I live in Lincolnshire, its not far from where your boss used to live I don't think :)

Yea, she's the most lovely lady i know...sometimes she uses different words and it's soo cute..i guess there you say "coppers" instead of "police" and she says the difference between "chalk and cheese" instead of "night and day"....:)

Sounds like it :) Lol its funny even seeing you type that, it just seems normal to me :)

New development and a new thought. The ex came round yesterday out of the blue and one thing led to another and we ended spending the day togetehr and even ended up in bed. My point here was their was no feeling of being uncomfortable. No health worries or anything. I think guilt plays such a card in this, and even though I did nothing wrong on Sunday, the fact is i love her, and nothing else will change that. I want her back, but i think that we only work in this fashion, as in the idea or conception of our dating works better than the actual event. Damnit.

Mr Jon, sorry I haven't answered before this. Been a little preoccupied myself. Oh and every single person should be here. We are all human, and require love and attention, and undertanding to help guide us.

Have you ever thought that maybe you are afraid of the commitment of a full relationship, and stress your self out until you destroy it??? You can love someone with every fiber in your being but if you are not ready to devote your whole life to that person your mind will fight you. Could be the stress issue that is helping in your symptoms.
Try to keep things on a level basis with the ex(current) what ever her status is right now. Then see if you begin to feel better. (stop probing the lymphs,your pissing them off, they are not touchy feely kind of things) Have you been tested for strep and viral infections with a culture of your throat???? It could be something other then a STD.
Rest easy, life is hard enough with out giving you creating more issues to dwell on. Enjoy being you, and be happy that your tests are negative. And as long as you dont go placing your self at risk they will stay that way.

Take this as it is meant with a firm hand but a very loving heart.
Love, Casey

Hey casey, thank you for your opinion, and to be honest you are pretty much right about all of it. In fact your just plain right. I love her 100%, but I dont know why we keep messing up. Time will tell. And as for my negatives, I am returning to myself as I was before all this. I wake up early smiling until I go to bed. And thats because of all of you.

Thanks, now where has Chris gotten to?

I think he went sky diving???? Took the day off to go swimming with dolphins????? Umm, decided that the sun was to bright and tucked his head back under the covers??? He will be here soon, I am sure.

I guess so :) Hope so :)

Jon~
Relationships are very very hard. I say "let it be"...que sera,sera...as long as you have faith in fate, anything can happen.
In reality though, you have to do what's best for both you and your partner, even if that means one person is going to be left in the dust....you can love a person with all your heart, but when it comes down to it, you need understanding, commitment,trust,and common ground to make it work...I think the worst feeling in the world is being in love with someone, but knowing that you can't be with them because of either timing being offf, or just plain incompatibility that doesnt surface until later down the road. There's someone out there who you can love, who will love you just the same, and when the timings right, it'll feel better then finding gold. We're young..we have time (i hope)
-Sarah

You are an angel you know. If that fool of a boyfriend of yours cant see that then Im hopping on a plane to come and challenge him to a duel for your fair hand. Well, when I say duel i will kick him in the shins or something ;)

Hey MJ - thought I responded to you post...sorry, if I missed it. No, not swimming with the dolphins (or the fishes). PC problems have been resolved! Thank God!. I am so happy to hear from you...you sound so great. much love, chris

hey, i don't think there'd be much of a fight...i'd pick you over him anyday:) anyway, how's things w/ the lady? are you feeling better
Chris, glad to hear Katrina isn't going to do too much damage...I'll find her too before she gets to you...my godness, you must be tired of all that rain...i know i would be:)
-Sarah

Wow, Chris from the amount of rain you all are getting there are you sure your not swimming with the dolphins????

Yeah Mr. Jon whats the news with the lady?????

Casey

Hey :)

Im ready and waiting for you Sarah ;)

As for the lady, she has been round here pretty much every day this week, and its just been so much fun. Cant remember the last time I felt so happy, no worries or anything. Things are going great, but we are both going university at opposite ends of the country, and it wont work. I dont know, for now im just gonna have fun with her. I deserve some x