Hey all....

Tomorrow is going to be a very difficult day for me. It will be 91 days after my risky encounter and time for me to test one last time. I've been negative after 28, 42, and 61 days, but I'm still scared for this last one. Truthfully, I haven't been around much since my 61 day test came back negative, because it did convince me somewhat I was ok, but over the last few days now that I've realized I have to go again, I've had the anxiety and fear come back.

I'm not sure if I'll be posting much here while I'm waiting for the final results to come in because I'm just so emotionally drained by this experience, but I will be reading the kind words you people will hopefully be leaving for me.

This whole experience has made me think many things, and feel every emotion in the spectrum. In short it has made me grow as a person. But I do want to do one thing.....I want to thank all those here who have helped me through this; cflas, barb, spectacular, panasonique, flashvik, lost spirit, and especially MrJon, and others also. You people have given me a word of encouragement or a kick in the a$$ when i needed it, but most of all you have all lent your helping hands and regardless of my final result, I am grateful for that.

But for the next two weeks or less I'm all alone in my thoughts. I just ask you all keep me in yours also.

You've got it, friend. You are in my prayers. And, don't you worry too much because I know you are going to be just fine. ;)

..I can't wait to get the good news in a few weeks.

C, I have added you to my prayers. I know that you are going to be just fine. Relax, and try to think of something else during this time. It will help it pass more quickly.

Casey

Thank you both. I haven't cried in a few weeks, but just reading your responses now made me a little wet in the eyes! But errrr, just for a mental note, you both said you think I'll be fine.....would that happen to be due to my other negatives, or just personal hunches? Every little extra helps huh?! lol.....I'm just gonna try to stay upbeat through this.

be strong and believe that God will give you another chance if you have faith in him. Let this exeprience see the value you need to put on your health and your life.i'll pray for you

be strong and believe that God will give you another chance if you have faith in him.

I have and I will karina. Thanks for the encouragement :)

Yes, I think you will be fine because of the other negative test results.

thanks spectacular. I also believe it I guess, and I was actually quite confident that I would've shown something at 2 months, and that the one tomorrow is just a "safety net" I guess. But I'm still soooooooo nervous! Probably because this one is the one that's conclusive. Just something about knowing it's final, ya know?!

Hey buddy, I cant believe that your window has ended already! But to echo what has been said, you will be fine. Im sure of it. I promise even :) Remember what you have learnt, and keep it at hand :)

Jon

Hey MrJon! Yeah I can't believe my window has ended either. I remember being told by my doctor shortly after my encounter that I'd have to wait 3 months for a conclusive test and I thought to myself that I'd never make it that far, and sometimes I felt like I wouldn't, but it's here. And the reason why I made it is beacuse of all you wonderful people encouraging me, telling me to soldier on. I've recently read all the posts I've made here just to recall the roller coaster of emotions this has put me through, and now it's almost over. And you're damn right I'll remember what I've learned! Over the past few weeks I've been wearing the "Livestrong" bracelet, and although it's yellow, the colour for cancer support, just the word on it reminds me that from now on I must live strong; in mind, body, and spirit. Thank you all for your support!

Ooooh, a promise huh MrJon?! Well I guess with a guarantee like that, I can't go wrong! lol......Well it's about 11:30pm here now, time for bed. But tomorrow I can walk out of that clinic knowing that they won't take anymore blood from me, it's all in God's hands after that.

10:20 am, it's done......the lab thech told me it'd be back in a couple of days, but I think she was talking about standard blood tests done there, because every other one I've gone for took 1-2 weeks to come back. Oh well, at least the test is done.....I feel like half of the burden is already gone!

Half the burden IS gone. :) Good job!

thanks :)

You done well :)

You know what helped me to get through the wait? Family Guy. Man thats a funny show :)

You done well :)

You know what helped me to get through the wait? Family Guy. Man thats a funny show :)

I'm a King of the Hill girl, myself. Anyone else like this show? It's fabu!

Stay strong, c....I'm thinking of you. God bless.

King of the hill is good too, but Family Guy? Quagmire is the man. Giggity giggity go!

Thanks all! Well what's helping me is just spending time with family and friends. That always helps me take my mind off of things. But I'm not very worried about the result anyways, based on all my other tests I think this will be negative also, but I just want it to come back in so I know for sure and it'll be all over. I got a lot to do anyways over the next couple of weeks. I'm moving away from home for university so I've gotta get my apartment where I'll be living in order and get organized. I'm focusing on that right now. I just want this situation out of my head so I can move on for good. But I feel confident today :)

they made me wait a while for this one buuuuuuuut.......

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my 91 day conclusive test is negative......i'm speechless.....thank you so so so much to all who have helped me through this....it's more than words can explain anyways :) :) :)

awesome man..
enjoy. i only want to see you here answering other peoples questions, otherwise, you're uninvited ;) kidding kidding
stay healthy!
~sarah

AHAHAHAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!!!

I told you dude!!!!

Yes!

thanks sarah and MrJon......and you bet i'll be around sarah! I've just started university last week, but once that gets settled, I will be back. I guess I just need a lil while away to let it sink in after coming on here almost every day for the past 3 months. What will keep me coming back is knowing that i could possibly give someone the same encouragement I got from you all. I feel amazing today.....like I can take on the world.....but I'll never ever forget the lesson I've learned!

Excellent! God bless you. :)