My name is Crystal and im 17. i have been suffering from depression for almost 2 years now. i do cut. i tried to stop but its a hard habbit to break. what do u do when theres no one u can talk to. i have had people say i was doin this for attention or it was all an act or i was just tryin to be like my sister they have even said i was crazy/ mental. i dont know what to do. i tried talkin to my mom and she just yells. i guess bec she dont want me to go down the same road my older sister went through. i have no help at all and thats how its been. i have tried to o.d. on sleeping pills and i cut my wrist but didnt have to go to the hospital. i feel so lost and alone. i feel no one cares bout me. i keep wishing this would all go away but its not. i have talked to a counselor and she said i do need help but how when no one listens to me. know one seems to care. i just wanna be happy and not have low self-esteem.
crystal

hiya Crystal!!:)

hang in there, I know what you're going thru. There's always gonna be people who're unsympathetic and unwilling to see you're pain. My mother was never there for me. I didn't really know her and I didn't shed a tear for her when she died. Just sad I didn't get to know her better. As I got older and matured, I realized perhaps her own mother had treated her the same way. Perhaps she was just like me. She's got her own problems to deal with. Perhaps I was among many of her problems.

I often feel alone, hopeless, full of sorrow and misery. Times like that I'll go for a walk, exercise or run till I puke. Come to boards like this, and see I'm not really alone; we're all the same. We've all got our own problems, don't we? :)

take care, hope your counselor comes through for ya; hope you feel better soon:)

d

Hi, what happened with your sister? When you're trapped by a sibling it's even harder to get noticed, is she still living with you?
No mother should yell at their children when they need help, especially not somone so near to being a legal adult. My parents often cause me to panic and cry and shake and they tell me I'm being dramatic or "using mental warfare" to make them feel bad.
Next time you feel like self harming call a help line, or your councillor or someone, or just come here and talk. I know what it's like to feel alone, but people here do listen.
Hugs
xxx