i hope this doesnt get too long. there just arent many people i can vent this too and everyone here seems really understanding. i am hoping you will humor my ill atempt at getting some peace from this whole thing.

so last december i had my annual pap and is came back showing that i had cervical dysplasia/hpv effect. that made me paranoid that maybe i had somehtign else since the clinic made hpv sound so terrible. they had tested for the usuals (gonorhea, chlamidyia, etc (sp?)) but you have to get an hiv test seperately. so after freaking out and basically convincing myself that i had it (i have had 4 partners and 2 unprotected, the most recently was april of 03) i got an orasure test at the planned parenthood that did my pap. this was dec 04. since they told me the results could take 2 weeks - a month, i decided to go through one of those 2 day result things where you call them up and they send you to a testing center, like a Quest diagnostics, and then you call for your results. Both tests came back negative, but to this day i am still paranoid that the tests were wrong. that somehow they got the numbers mixed up or somehthing.

i guess what i want to know is, is this paranoia normal? why am i having so much anxiety when 2 seperate tests, blood and oral, came back negative over a year after my last "risky" encounted?

and imput is very much appreciated! thanks so much in advance =)

Since the time period between a risky encounter and the tests was way beyond the window period I would expect that you should believe the tests. But I know that its easier for me to say and type then it is for you to believe. So if you can't seem to accept the results go to the health department have another test done and when it comes back negative also, get on with your life and enjoy it.

Good Luck,
Casey

Casey is right...I think that the only way to be absolutely sure, especially if your not convinced about the negative results, is to be tested again. However, once you get those tests, and there are no other risky encounters, then you'll just have to let it go.
Paranoia!!!???? Oh my God, if HealthBoards was paid a nickel for everyone who didn't believe their results, were freaked out by the "what ifs...?", were absolutely certain, without a doubt that, based upon their internet searches, they were HIV +, then they would make a million bucks (and that's just on this site alone). Sometimes, it's just too hard to believe that you've escape the battle with nary a scratch. But, it just could be true, you know, it just could be true...chris