pipesnerves
08-25-2005, 01:00 PM
Ok heres my story.
July of last year I went on a trip with my company. One night I ended up getting into little bit of trouble. I went and hooked up with a women from my work. She performed oral sex on me. Now while she was performing oral I came to my senses and left the room. I am married by the way. Anyways about 10 days later I started getting swollen gums, marks on my penis (they werent sore), and cancors under my tongue...
So after about 6 months of worrying I finally got the courage to go see my doctor and got tested. Well after I got the blood and urine done the doctor told me he would call me if anything showed up or was wrong with me, and nothing came up and I didnt get a call, so I assumed I was ok..
In this time as well my wife got pregnant and gave birth to our child. My wife never experienced anything like I did, and she was also tested twice for STD's and HIV while she was pregnant and nothing showed up either.
Well the other day the lady at my work told me she was going to get tested because she wanted to make sure everything was fine with herself because she didnt know the past of the guys she has been with (she says 4 guys, 3 are married so she is worried about 1 of them.).
I am absolutly freaked that this lady is going to tell me that she has something and that I might have caught it, its going to ruin me. I have already ruined myself thinking that I have something there is no way I can live with myself if I have something and if I passed it on to my wife and child.
I have only had one sexual partner in my life (my wife) and then I go and screw up by getting oral from this women at work.
I already feel like a dead beep for doing what I did, is there anyway I can make myself happy again?? I want to stop all this but I am such a worry wart that its going to kill me literilly...
I wish I could move on with my life.
July of last year I went on a trip with my company. One night I ended up getting into little bit of trouble. I went and hooked up with a women from my work. She performed oral sex on me. Now while she was performing oral I came to my senses and left the room. I am married by the way. Anyways about 10 days later I started getting swollen gums, marks on my penis (they werent sore), and cancors under my tongue...
So after about 6 months of worrying I finally got the courage to go see my doctor and got tested. Well after I got the blood and urine done the doctor told me he would call me if anything showed up or was wrong with me, and nothing came up and I didnt get a call, so I assumed I was ok..
In this time as well my wife got pregnant and gave birth to our child. My wife never experienced anything like I did, and she was also tested twice for STD's and HIV while she was pregnant and nothing showed up either.
Well the other day the lady at my work told me she was going to get tested because she wanted to make sure everything was fine with herself because she didnt know the past of the guys she has been with (she says 4 guys, 3 are married so she is worried about 1 of them.).
I am absolutly freaked that this lady is going to tell me that she has something and that I might have caught it, its going to ruin me. I have already ruined myself thinking that I have something there is no way I can live with myself if I have something and if I passed it on to my wife and child.
I have only had one sexual partner in my life (my wife) and then I go and screw up by getting oral from this women at work.
I already feel like a dead beep for doing what I did, is there anyway I can make myself happy again?? I want to stop all this but I am such a worry wart that its going to kill me literilly...
I wish I could move on with my life.

