Rockon78
09-02-2005, 04:07 PM
Me:
27 yrs. old
Obsessive thoughts
Worry a lot
Catch myself talking to myself (in my mind) and than I don't even remember what I was saying
Count numbers in my head or say the alphabet and than wonder why I am doing it
Repeat things in my mind over and over until I realise I am doing it and than I dont even remember what I was repeating
Can't consentrate
In dazes alot
I panic and get worked up about timeing and schedule
Need to do certain things in a certain order and if someone messes it up I get worked up
Plan everything out and get worked up if it gets ruined
Need to be told things step by step
etc.
What is wrong with me? This was hard for me to do, I know it sounds stupid. Someone I know thinks that I have OCD because they notice how I get all worked up if my schedule is off and because I like to know things step by step. I hope this is making sence, I think I am repeating myself, but I am nervous. Sorry. I would appreciate any advice. Thanks.
~Peace~
27 yrs. old
Obsessive thoughts
Worry a lot
Catch myself talking to myself (in my mind) and than I don't even remember what I was saying
Count numbers in my head or say the alphabet and than wonder why I am doing it
Repeat things in my mind over and over until I realise I am doing it and than I dont even remember what I was repeating
Can't consentrate
In dazes alot
I panic and get worked up about timeing and schedule
Need to do certain things in a certain order and if someone messes it up I get worked up
Plan everything out and get worked up if it gets ruined
Need to be told things step by step
etc.
What is wrong with me? This was hard for me to do, I know it sounds stupid. Someone I know thinks that I have OCD because they notice how I get all worked up if my schedule is off and because I like to know things step by step. I hope this is making sence, I think I am repeating myself, but I am nervous. Sorry. I would appreciate any advice. Thanks.
~Peace~
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bkm4673
09-02-2005, 04:52 PM
wow that sucks you def could be ocd............i am and i argue in my mind on occasions over and over it sucks.. i was prescr lexapro starting it next week ill let u know.....good luck
Rockon78
09-02-2005, 04:58 PM
wow that sucks you def could be ocd............i am and i argue in my mind on occasions over and over it sucks.. i was prescr lexapro starting it next week ill let u know.....good luck
Thanks so much for replying:) I really appreciate it.
Can I ask what some of your symptoms are?
Good luck.
Anyone else have any suggestions for me?
~Peace~
Thanks so much for replying:) I really appreciate it.
Can I ask what some of your symptoms are?
Good luck.
Anyone else have any suggestions for me?
~Peace~
GatsbyLuvr1920
09-02-2005, 06:26 PM
Oh- the thing about talking to yourself and not realizing it- do it all the time! I'll begin to make up conversations/scenarios between my cartoon characters, acting out the different lines in my head, but then I catch myself doing it, and I couldn't even tell you when I started. I'm also in a daze a lot b/c I'm usually lost in my own mind, unaware of what's going on around me. I also will randomly start making patterns or rhythms with my pen or feet, and I don't realize that, either. I also will get songs in my head- don't know why my brain will select a certain song- and before long, I'll realize that it's playing in the back of my head. And, of course, it's always songs that repeat and loop back to the beginning over and over... :rolleyes:
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Rockon78
09-02-2005, 06:52 PM
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Thanks so much. That sounds a lot like me. I do the pattern thing too but mostly in my mind. And what you said about the songs, that's the exact same thing I do. So, do you have OCD and do you think I do?
~Peace~
Thanks so much. That sounds a lot like me. I do the pattern thing too but mostly in my mind. And what you said about the songs, that's the exact same thing I do. So, do you have OCD and do you think I do?
~Peace~
GatsbyLuvr1920
09-02-2005, 11:08 PM
Do I have OCD- oh, God, yes! Didn't suspect it until I was 15, and I wasn't officially diagnosed until I was 17. (I just turned 18.) I'm a pure obsessional, so I don't have many compulsions- mostly obsessions and mental compulsions. It sounds like you might have OCD- what are your worries and "obsessive thoughts"? God bless! :angel:
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Rockon78
09-03-2005, 05:56 PM
Do I have OCD- oh, God, yes! Didn't suspect it until I was 15, and I wasn't officially diagnosed until I was 17. (I just turned 18.) I'm a pure obsessional, so I don't have many compulsions- mostly obsessions and mental compulsions. It sounds like you might have OCD- what are your worries and "obsessive thoughts"? God bless! :angel:
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Thanks GatsbyLuvr1920. An example of some of my worries and obsessive thoughts would be...if someone upsets me, I think about it non-stop and replay everything that happened in my mind over and over. I go over the conversation in my head. I lose sleep. In my mind, I will add things I would have liked to said and what their reply would be and so on..I can't explain, it's hard for me to explain. Another example would be, if I learned about something and found it interesting, I will research on the internet every little thing I can about it until I can't find anything else. Then I'm usually satisfied. For example, there was a certain kind of herbal medicine I wanted to try, but I would not take it until I researched every single little thing about it. I hope I am making sence. Thanks again!!
~Peace~
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Thanks GatsbyLuvr1920. An example of some of my worries and obsessive thoughts would be...if someone upsets me, I think about it non-stop and replay everything that happened in my mind over and over. I go over the conversation in my head. I lose sleep. In my mind, I will add things I would have liked to said and what their reply would be and so on..I can't explain, it's hard for me to explain. Another example would be, if I learned about something and found it interesting, I will research on the internet every little thing I can about it until I can't find anything else. Then I'm usually satisfied. For example, there was a certain kind of herbal medicine I wanted to try, but I would not take it until I researched every single little thing about it. I hope I am making sence. Thanks again!!
~Peace~
GatsbyLuvr1920
09-03-2005, 11:37 PM
OMG- you do the obsessive Internet research, too?! Not only do I do this, but sometimes, I will LITERALLY become obsessed with a TV show or movie, and I just can't stop thinking about it until I watch it- it's the only way to make the quotes and replay of scenarios in my mind subside slightly... :rolleyes: Today was a pretty bad day as far as this goes. For some reason, I had an obsessive day with my fav episode of Degrassi, which has Sean, who is super hott ;) , and I seriously couldn't take my head spinning anymore, so I had to cave in about an hour and a half ago and watch the episodes. It is like a compulsion of some sorts, and it's not even really enjoyable- you've seen it a hundred times already, know every line by heart, know every action that the characters do by heart, and even know the inflection in their tone of voice when they speak, but you still have to watch it one more time... :mad: Now, I'll have the quotes and such stuck in my head the whole night long, but at least, the giddy, anxiety feeling I get beforehand is gone! :D If I don't watch it, I do get physical symptoms, like I nervously laugh when I think of the show/movie and my stomach and breathing act like they do during a panic attack; I also get hot flashes like I do during a panic attack, as well as this squirmy feeling- I can't sit still. But, once I do the compulsion of sorts, then these go away. Isn't that freaky?! But, yeah, the Internet thing is a bad one, too. Believe me, I spent many, many hours online searching and checking to see if I really did have OCD. The irony of the whole situation is that I was obsessing over whether I really did have OCD, or if it was just my imagination, and then when I finally was diagnosed a few years later, I still compulsively researched to see if I had it- "I didn't obsess a lot today, so maybe I don't have OCD... Maybe I'm just faking it, and making the doctors believe that I have it..." The irony, of course, is that only a true obsessive-compulsive would doubt if they had Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder! ;) And, if I become interested in a TV show, subject, movie star, etc., I will scour Google for hours and hours for every drop of information that I can squeeze out of them, and search for pictures. The sad thing about the picture hunting is that I have to find pictures where the person looks "perfect," and if they look less than "perfect," I'll keep searching. Then, once I get the "perfect" pictures of Degrassi's Sean and Leo DiCaprio and others, and put them on my wall, I'll ocassionally stare at them to see if I still think they're hott. One different angle will make me question if I'm losing interest, so I'll keep checking back until I see the hottness... Isn't that just plain sick?! Write back soon! We seem to have a lot of similarities in the realm of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder! :angel:
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Rockon78
09-05-2005, 10:13 PM
Thanks -GatsbyLuvr1920-:):)
Now, I am starting to think that I don't have OCD and that I was getting worked up over nothing. Do you do that? Or maybe I don't have it??? thoughts thoughts thoughts...lol. I NEVER stop thinking. My mind is alwayssss running. lol
I would love to hear back from ya....about anything:) Thanks again.
~Peace~
Now, I am starting to think that I don't have OCD and that I was getting worked up over nothing. Do you do that? Or maybe I don't have it??? thoughts thoughts thoughts...lol. I NEVER stop thinking. My mind is alwayssss running. lol
I would love to hear back from ya....about anything:) Thanks again.
~Peace~
curiouslearner
09-06-2005, 01:35 AM
Hi Rockon,
I sometimes catch myself repeating what I've heard another person say. For instance, if some one says, "I went to the movies," then in my head I will repeat "went to the movies." This form of thought impairment is called "echolalia," and it is a symtom of several disorders including schizphrenia, autism, and OCD. I don't have schizophrenia or autism, but I do have OCD, so I attribute the echolalia to that.
Another problem I have is talking to myself in my mind. I don't really know how to describe it except to say that I have conversations with people that aren't really there. It's not like I see or hear these other people, I don't hallucinate. All of a sudden I just find myself in a mental "Fantasy" and I'm lipping the words that are going on in my head. I usually stop doing it as soon as I catch myself. Is that what you mean when you say you are talking to yourself all the time? I have searched and searched the itnernet for for mental disorders for which this is a symptom, and for the life of me, I have not found ANY THING!
I have OCD and depression and I sometimes think it is all caused by that. Afterall, it seems that "depression" is used to explain a variety of weird behaviours.
I sometimes catch myself repeating what I've heard another person say. For instance, if some one says, "I went to the movies," then in my head I will repeat "went to the movies." This form of thought impairment is called "echolalia," and it is a symtom of several disorders including schizphrenia, autism, and OCD. I don't have schizophrenia or autism, but I do have OCD, so I attribute the echolalia to that.
Another problem I have is talking to myself in my mind. I don't really know how to describe it except to say that I have conversations with people that aren't really there. It's not like I see or hear these other people, I don't hallucinate. All of a sudden I just find myself in a mental "Fantasy" and I'm lipping the words that are going on in my head. I usually stop doing it as soon as I catch myself. Is that what you mean when you say you are talking to yourself all the time? I have searched and searched the itnernet for for mental disorders for which this is a symptom, and for the life of me, I have not found ANY THING!
I have OCD and depression and I sometimes think it is all caused by that. Afterall, it seems that "depression" is used to explain a variety of weird behaviours.
Rockon78
09-06-2005, 08:07 PM
Hi Rockon,I sometimes catch myself repeating what I've heard another person say. For instance, if some one says, "I went to the movies," then in my head I will repeat "went to the movies."
Hello:) Omg, I totally do that too Curiouslearner!! Or if I say something, I'll catch myself repeating it in my mind, and sometimes I'm confused if I said it the first time out loud. Like, say if I catch myself saying "What show are you watching" "show are you watching" "show are you watching" (lol) I'll ask my boyfriend "did I ask you what show you were watching". lol
Another problem I have is talking to myself in my mind. I don't really know how to describe it except to say that I have conversations with people that aren't really there. It's not like I see or hear these other people, I don't hallucinate. All of a sudden I just find myself in a mental "Fantasy" and I'm lipping the words that are going on in my head. I usually stop doing it as soon as I catch myself. Is that what you mean when you say you are talking to yourself all the time?
Yes, but it's not really a conversation with someone that's not there...it's kinda like roll play???, I don't know how to explain it. I definetley do not hear any other voices or anything. "voices or anything" "voices or anything" LOL I just caught myself doing that.
If so, tell me, do you have any friends in real life?
Yes.
Thanks so much for replying, I hope to hear more from you. Take care:)
~Peace~
Hello:) Omg, I totally do that too Curiouslearner!! Or if I say something, I'll catch myself repeating it in my mind, and sometimes I'm confused if I said it the first time out loud. Like, say if I catch myself saying "What show are you watching" "show are you watching" "show are you watching" (lol) I'll ask my boyfriend "did I ask you what show you were watching". lol
Another problem I have is talking to myself in my mind. I don't really know how to describe it except to say that I have conversations with people that aren't really there. It's not like I see or hear these other people, I don't hallucinate. All of a sudden I just find myself in a mental "Fantasy" and I'm lipping the words that are going on in my head. I usually stop doing it as soon as I catch myself. Is that what you mean when you say you are talking to yourself all the time?
Yes, but it's not really a conversation with someone that's not there...it's kinda like roll play???, I don't know how to explain it. I definetley do not hear any other voices or anything. "voices or anything" "voices or anything" LOL I just caught myself doing that.
If so, tell me, do you have any friends in real life?
Yes.
Thanks so much for replying, I hope to hear more from you. Take care:)
~Peace~
GatsbyLuvr1920
09-06-2005, 11:58 PM
CuriousLearner- We've found another person who does the "imaginary characters"! So sweet! Mine is sooo OCD-related, especially when it comes to movie/TV quotes- I'll have to say them out loud until I get the intonation exactly right or I feel satisfied. Then, it's on to some other quote! :D And, don't even get me started on how annoying it is when I randomly will begin to create scenarios in my head with the cartoon characters I created, and of course, I have to do the voices... :rolleyes: This is sooo cool! I never thought I would have met another person who did this, and I certainly didn't think I'd find someone after CuriousLearner! Now, we definitely know we're not schizophrenic! ;) Wanna hear how sick my OCD is- okay, now that I'm in college, I have very little actual homework- it's all reading, and it doesn't have to be done for the next day. So, I'm on the computer all day long b/c I don't have any work, and then I feel guilty b/c I think I should be doing my work ahead of time, and then I worry that I'm forgetting some assignment that I had to do, but then, when I mentally check my classes for assignments, and find none, I go back to feeling guilty, but I can't start the assignments ahead of time due to compulsive avoidance procrastination, so I sit and have panic attacks, worried to start and worried to not start... Sickness! :angel:
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seriousperson
09-07-2005, 12:35 AM
Rockon, It sounds like you have some amount of OCD. Actually, OCD is "Obsessive Compulsive Disorder." There's also "Obesessive Compulsive Personality," which, I've been told by a therapist, is milder.
OC-ness often occurs with other issues (not surprisingly). I have ADD too, which makes my behavior seem uncomprehensible to my family. Reading your post, it's possible you have some degree of this too. In fact, sometimes the OCD develops as a compensating mechanism for ADD.
On the other hand, I'm not quite as OC as my family is, so they think I'm a slob -- although they do notice when I've cleaned something to within an inch of its life.
A lot of it is "in the eye of the beholder."
Some cultures reward and esteem OCness, which might explain my own gene pool.
What it generally boils down to is: Are your compulsions making you miserable and/or can you not stop doing something no matter how hard you want to stop, and no matter how hard you try? If yes, at some point you will seek help with this problem. Unfortunately (or fortunately for OC-types?), finding help may require a large amount of persistance and stick-to-itiveness.
OC-ness often occurs with other issues (not surprisingly). I have ADD too, which makes my behavior seem uncomprehensible to my family. Reading your post, it's possible you have some degree of this too. In fact, sometimes the OCD develops as a compensating mechanism for ADD.
On the other hand, I'm not quite as OC as my family is, so they think I'm a slob -- although they do notice when I've cleaned something to within an inch of its life.
A lot of it is "in the eye of the beholder."
Some cultures reward and esteem OCness, which might explain my own gene pool.
What it generally boils down to is: Are your compulsions making you miserable and/or can you not stop doing something no matter how hard you want to stop, and no matter how hard you try? If yes, at some point you will seek help with this problem. Unfortunately (or fortunately for OC-types?), finding help may require a large amount of persistance and stick-to-itiveness.
queenu
09-23-2005, 01:31 AM
I'll begin to make up conversations/scenarios between my cartoon characters, acting out the different lines in my head, but then I catch myself doing it, and I couldn't even tell you when I started. I'm also in a daze a lot b/c I'm usually lost in my own mind, unaware of what's going on around me. I also will randomly start making patterns or rhythms with my pen or feet, and I don't realize that, either.-GatsbyLuvr1920-
first time poster here. 28/f. reading that just gave me a lightbulb moment. similar to your making up scenarios with cartoon characters, I find myself making up scenarios involving people I know--but never those I know well, usually just acquaintances. Entire conversations between them will be played out in my head. and just like you, I have to catch myself at it, because a lot of times I don't even realize when it started-but when i'm making these scenarios up, i'm also in kind of a daze. I sometimes find i can loose hours of productive time when this happens, because i can't focus on anything. interestingly enough, it usually only happens when i'm alone. so sometimes i feel i'm putting up a facad. like my friends and family don't really know the real me. It's embarrasing. How can i possibly explain it without sounding crazy? It's like i'm sane and normal when i'm around them, but completely nuts when i'm by myself.
I'm curious. is there a form of OCD that involves just these types of obsessive thoughts and 'fantasies'?
first time poster here. 28/f. reading that just gave me a lightbulb moment. similar to your making up scenarios with cartoon characters, I find myself making up scenarios involving people I know--but never those I know well, usually just acquaintances. Entire conversations between them will be played out in my head. and just like you, I have to catch myself at it, because a lot of times I don't even realize when it started-but when i'm making these scenarios up, i'm also in kind of a daze. I sometimes find i can loose hours of productive time when this happens, because i can't focus on anything. interestingly enough, it usually only happens when i'm alone. so sometimes i feel i'm putting up a facad. like my friends and family don't really know the real me. It's embarrasing. How can i possibly explain it without sounding crazy? It's like i'm sane and normal when i'm around them, but completely nuts when i'm by myself.
I'm curious. is there a form of OCD that involves just these types of obsessive thoughts and 'fantasies'?
GatsbyLuvr1920
09-23-2005, 02:25 AM
Yes, there is- it's called being a "pure obsessional", meaning that you have very few visible compulsions, and that your main symptom is intrusive thoughts. I'm a "pure O", so I'm not surprised that our symptoms are so much alike. And, yes, I only do the conversations when I'm by myself, although the obsessions occur at any time, anywhere... :rolleyes: If you have any more questions, feel free to ask! Good luck and God bless! :angel:
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