manically yours
09-09-2005, 06:14 PM
It's sad that I sat here for 20 minutes trying to figure out how to start this b/c I have such a problem with things looking "perfect".
Some examples of my obsession:
-Every few weeks or so I rearrange my apartment.. various items, my bed, etc.
-Whenever I go anywhere I always want to buy something to add to my apartment, mostly things that are artsy or anything that really stands out and says "buy me".
-My desk is messy but organized when something is moved or missing, I find myself consumed with the though of fixing it and until the situation is resolved. Until that time, I can't concentrate on anything else.
-Often anything that I write or type gets checked over a few times. Revised, rewritten, and often totally deleted when the frustration of my work takes over.
-If someone had a necklace that has become backwards or whatever, it bothers me enough to tell them to hold their thought while I fix their necklace or do it while they are talking to me not even realizing it.
-I think white-out and the backspace button are the best inventions ever.
-Alot of times I make "to do" lists that I rarely follow through with after spending 20 minutes thinking of what should be on the stupid list.
There are many others but I'm already frustrated with how this looks so I'll leave it at that. I'd really just like to know if anyone else does any of the same things so I don't feel like such a weirdo.
Some examples of my obsession:
-Every few weeks or so I rearrange my apartment.. various items, my bed, etc.
-Whenever I go anywhere I always want to buy something to add to my apartment, mostly things that are artsy or anything that really stands out and says "buy me".
-My desk is messy but organized when something is moved or missing, I find myself consumed with the though of fixing it and until the situation is resolved. Until that time, I can't concentrate on anything else.
-Often anything that I write or type gets checked over a few times. Revised, rewritten, and often totally deleted when the frustration of my work takes over.
-If someone had a necklace that has become backwards or whatever, it bothers me enough to tell them to hold their thought while I fix their necklace or do it while they are talking to me not even realizing it.
-I think white-out and the backspace button are the best inventions ever.
-Alot of times I make "to do" lists that I rarely follow through with after spending 20 minutes thinking of what should be on the stupid list.
There are many others but I'm already frustrated with how this looks so I'll leave it at that. I'd really just like to know if anyone else does any of the same things so I don't feel like such a weirdo.
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hry33
09-09-2005, 09:24 PM
I think all anxiety and OCD sufferers are too perfectionist
manically yours
09-13-2005, 01:26 PM
That's hilarious with the rough draft thing!! It's great that you can make light of the situation. Been there and done that with the planners. Try being in labor and on your way out the door all you can think about is how your dishes were put in the wrong cabinets!!
I'm glad there's someone else out there who's like this since I was beginning to think the world was full of un-organized people against me :)
I'm glad there's someone else out there who's like this since I was beginning to think the world was full of un-organized people against me :)
sinnister81
09-13-2005, 07:48 PM
I think all anxiety and OCD sufferers are too perfectionist
Im not a perfectionist. I have real bad form of ocd with unwanted intrusive ugly thoughst that i wont go into, but here my theory. Some people's mental illnesses are brought to the surface by some extreme stress and the ocd sometimes attatches itself to that stressful situation somehow. example, a new mother has a baby stresses her so much it brings out her ocd and she has thoughts of strangling her child. I also think that some peoples ocd ends up brought up to the surface if it hasnt been forced out by stress or trauma, therefore someone who might not have had any kind of trauma might obsess about arranging things etc. I beleive the mind needs something to associate the ocd with and to those of you who have it with rearranging things germs etc be glad because at least your type of ocd is beginning to be understood and hopefully you talk about it with people. Thats my theory at least on trauma ocd vs natural occuring ocd. Heh, all i wanted to do was show that not all ocders are perfectionists, look what it turned into.
Im not a perfectionist. I have real bad form of ocd with unwanted intrusive ugly thoughst that i wont go into, but here my theory. Some people's mental illnesses are brought to the surface by some extreme stress and the ocd sometimes attatches itself to that stressful situation somehow. example, a new mother has a baby stresses her so much it brings out her ocd and she has thoughts of strangling her child. I also think that some peoples ocd ends up brought up to the surface if it hasnt been forced out by stress or trauma, therefore someone who might not have had any kind of trauma might obsess about arranging things etc. I beleive the mind needs something to associate the ocd with and to those of you who have it with rearranging things germs etc be glad because at least your type of ocd is beginning to be understood and hopefully you talk about it with people. Thats my theory at least on trauma ocd vs natural occuring ocd. Heh, all i wanted to do was show that not all ocders are perfectionists, look what it turned into.
GatsbyLuvr1920
09-13-2005, 11:34 PM
If you mean that I spend over an hour drawing one person in a picture or that I literally cannot go on in a book until I fully understand every single word in the sentence before I can continue or that I organize my CD's and DVD's by favorite/arrange my books by size and author, then yeah, I'd say I'm a perfectionist... ;)
-GatsbyLuvr1920-
-GatsbyLuvr1920-
manically yours
09-14-2005, 05:24 PM
Gats we should start a club!!
Wait. that might be dangerous!
hahah!
Wait. that might be dangerous!
hahah!
GatsbyLuvr1920
09-14-2005, 06:27 PM
Yeah, it would! Not much would get done in that club- too much precision and attention to detail, and in my case, procrastination due to compulsive avoidance! ;)
-GatsbyLuvr1920-
-GatsbyLuvr1920-
bbybyrd
09-15-2005, 02:08 AM
Unfortunately, I'm a perfectionist as well. I have all my cd's/dvd's/cassette's/books in alphabetical order. If one is missing, I know which one it is and won't stop til I find out where it is and who moved it. I'm the say way in the kitchen. I can't stand it when someone puts the cups in with the bowls...lol. I also have to reread stuff repeatedly and run the spell checker a few times before I actually print it out. If I print it out and the page is crinkled, well, I have to print it out again on GOOD paper. It's sickening and I know I drive people crazy.
WarriorPrncss
09-26-2005, 06:27 PM
Is it bad that I can relate to just about everything said here?
I am constantly re-arranging my room...in fact.. I get so uptight about it, I can never just pick up a few things.... I completely clean out my room and re-arrange it almost everytime.
I am the same way with schoolwork I write and write and then delete and re-write... I finally instagated the "***-N-Chair" method.
A lot of time this all gets me into trouble because I KNOW that whatever the task it's going to take me FOREVER to do because I can't just slap something together and it's done...therefore this has developed into big time procrastination and then stress follows because I put stuff off for so long I have little time to be "perfect"....as I type this my mind is wheeling with how awful and sloppy my notebook is...and I can't help but stress over how long it's gonna take me and not just do it...
Maybe this does spring off of OCD...maybe I do have ocd...or maybe I am just a hypocondriac that wants attention....but I really don't want attention...I just.... I think I better shut up before I run myself in circles and stress about it....
AD
I am constantly re-arranging my room...in fact.. I get so uptight about it, I can never just pick up a few things.... I completely clean out my room and re-arrange it almost everytime.
I am the same way with schoolwork I write and write and then delete and re-write... I finally instagated the "***-N-Chair" method.
A lot of time this all gets me into trouble because I KNOW that whatever the task it's going to take me FOREVER to do because I can't just slap something together and it's done...therefore this has developed into big time procrastination and then stress follows because I put stuff off for so long I have little time to be "perfect"....as I type this my mind is wheeling with how awful and sloppy my notebook is...and I can't help but stress over how long it's gonna take me and not just do it...
Maybe this does spring off of OCD...maybe I do have ocd...or maybe I am just a hypocondriac that wants attention....but I really don't want attention...I just.... I think I better shut up before I run myself in circles and stress about it....
AD