does anyones ocd get so bad they dont want to be here anymore? [Archive]

bkm4673

09-14-2005, 01:39 PM

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moodymom25

09-14-2005, 02:20 PM

I can relate. It is very tough, and you are not alone. This is so difficult at times that your question seems an obvious one to ask. Just know that you are not alone. I think what people need to understand, is that OCD is debilitating in many ways. It takes away your joy, and you feel that while you could be making a difference you are living in fear and doubt instead. To me it feels like it's own hell. Just stay positive and know that you can only take things one day at a time.

bkm4673

09-14-2005, 03:22 PM

thxs moody mom im going to the nuerologist today i was able to change my appt. ocd is horrible at times and im a pretty head strong 32yr old male..do you take any meds that help you at all?i appreciate your comments.

ckjk5

09-14-2005, 04:20 PM

Just wanted to give alittle support. Always remember that you are not alone. There are so many of us that understand what you are going through. I also wanted to comment on the meds question. I have been taking Luvox for about a year. It helped a bit, but still had tons of anxiety. Didn't like taking xanax much because it makes me real tired and I have three little ones to run after. Anyway, about two months ago, I went to the doctor and instead of increasing my dose of Luvox, the doctor decided to suppliment it with another medication. So, I started taking Effexor, and it has made a world of difference. Not only does it help to release from the thoughts, it also helps level out my anxiety. And, I didn't realize it before, but once starting the combination of the two meds, I must have been mildy depressed. I feel alot better. Not that I don't have rough days, but nothing like it was before. I can go a week without much more than an hour or two of obsessing rather than two or more hours a day. Just thought I would share that. Both of the meds made me quite tired when I first started them. But, I stuck it out for a couple weeks, and don't feel it much now. Take care...
Carla

bkm4673

09-14-2005, 06:20 PM

thxs alot carla your words are very comforting i mean that.......Brandon

sinnister81

09-15-2005, 01:12 PM

hi and thxs, my ocd lately has cause so much stress and a very odd anxiety(because usually i dont get anxiety) and some depression to where i am only feeling descent when i goto sleep and then i even feel it a bit. i am starting to feel like im constantly delirious and im even getting odd facial expressions where it seems as though im just irritated and lost its almost to the point in where i dont want to be around anymore(even though i would never do that to myself, ever) but i really cant take it. even my body and mind are starting to be seriously affected , does anyone think that its from my ocd? im going to the nuerologist on tuesday and i immediately start lexapro that day also. thxs for your comments

YO BKM!! I was gonna come here to see if you started your lexapro or not. I see you are gonna wait until you see your neurologist on tuesday. 1, why are u going to neurologist??? If its for the ocd the main theory they have on ocd is the serotonin theory so theyd recommend going with meds to start with anyway. NO matter what my man try and stay positive and do what you can to get over your fear of medication as as I said in another post it can really be a miracle. Once your learn how much chemisty can affect behavior ie: how much meds can help, even if meds stop working ull have a surge of new hope to last much longer. I'm pullin for you man keep your head up and Im sure everyone else here feels the same. We gotta keep eachother strong.

Good luck.

P.S. DONT DELAY PAST TUESDAY!

bkm4673

09-15-2005, 07:02 PM

thanks sinnister i actually got into nuero yesterday the reason i wanted to go was to get a complete nuero eval and he recommended not starting my lexapro till hes done with his test but i want to start them and im gonna. i went there because i have just been trippin inside my head u know. then once i was there my ocd got worse i saw a bottle of botox on the counter he said he uses it for major headaches and he put his hands all over me to check mne out and i was trippin thinkin oh my goodness why did i come here hes getting this botox crap all over me so i was in a pure ocd thing and i keep trippin on it thinkin im different because of the botox and i never touched it but he had just injected someone with it so i figured since that stuff leaks all over when they inject it i must have got some on me as you can see im still trippin on it. thx sinnister im gonna take your advice and im gonna try it the lexapro i dont even want to go back to nuero because of that botox isnt that crazy/?

seriousperson

09-17-2005, 04:57 PM

It makes me wonder if "intuitively" your mind/brain put together a wealth of stored, experiential knowledge and concluded that there was some reason for you not to go back there. But while this was (according to my theory) all happening in the back of your mind (i.e.: subconscious), your conscious mind made up the botox connection as a sort of block against going back, perhaps, in part, because the conscious mind wasn't getting access to all of your brain's Random Access Memory (as we say in computer-speak), because of the background analysis going on simultaneously in your crainium.
Or, maybe you have a habit of self-defeating behavior, and the botox story was fabricated in your mind because your subconscious thoughts were deciding you did belong there.

Just babbling, but the first paragraph means the botox thoughts served a positive purpose for you, and the second paragraph means the botox thoughts had a largely negative impact.

bkm4673

09-17-2005, 09:51 PM

yeah serious i agree w/you about my subconscious mind i dont know but it takes its toll me u know..thx for responding..

seriousperson

09-18-2005, 06:54 AM

If my description was accurate (who knows?), I'm guessing a dissociative state (or whatever it's called when you split into more than one reality, but only one at a time) occurs when you totally ignore the back-of-the-mind (aka "instincts") thoughts.

bkm4673

09-19-2005, 03:38 AM

hey man i appreciate your input give me more...............

jennyVee

11-19-2005, 05:07 PM

yes ocd isnt an easy thing to deal with, I had it since i wa 13 and i am now 31 and it still pretty bad.

bkm4673

11-22-2005, 11:13 PM

hey jenny ive chatted on here w/u about ocd before.....i know ocd suxs bad, im on lexapro but its not helping much my ocd may evenbe worse ive had it maybe 7 yrs im 32 now...........................

jennyVee

11-22-2005, 11:59 PM

Oh my BK so lexapro doesnt help much, I am only taking xanax on as needed basis, I noticed that my anxiety makes me depressed. so i think I need to be treated for my anxiety more than depression, you should try to find out what comes first the depression/anxiety the xanax makes me feel happy after an hour of feeling drowsy

bkm4673

11-23-2005, 07:08 PM

yea i tried a few xanax like 5 yrs ago and they gave me more anxiety then but im sure now they may help a bit...idk if my dr likes giving those out but i may ask...i was depressed because of my job closing down and my brother being murdered all in the same yr the end of 2004...jenny you have a great thanksgiving ok and stay sweet like u are.........bye

Brandon

jennyVee

11-23-2005, 07:25 PM

Hi sweety, I am so sorry about all you went through that year I understand why you would have such bad anxiety etc.. and yes your right about xanax I am feeling good on the xanax but then after a while its causing more anxiety, and then I have to take more, sometimes I wonder whether its a good idea to keep taking it but my anxiety is so out of control and it does help, I just hope i dt get addcited to them but then again i need soemthing to control my anxiety so i will have to keep taking it, what meds are you on now brandon?

anyway hope you also have a great turkey day Take care Brandon! :jester:

bkm4673

11-23-2005, 11:30 PM

hey jenny vee, im still taking the lexapro but ive only been taking a half a pill each day....the lexapro definitely helps me w/ the anxiety i would say but not the best so far for my ocd...my cousin gave me a few of his klonopin its for anxiety kind of like xanax but i dont think that it really helps me much i feel it just kind of mask the problem for a bit you know? well jenny u eat alot on turkey day cause im gonna i love to eat but i excersize alot too so its good...lol.....u take care and write back soon ok....bye jenny.....................oh yeah i would bet your married huh....? bye again jenny

Brandon

the_coke_man17

11-26-2005, 10:56 PM

Hi I Use To Have That Feeling Every Day I Told My Shrink He Changed My Meds I Still Think It But Its Not Every Min Of The Day

bkm4673

11-28-2005, 06:23 PM

what meds did he or she prescribe?