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bkm4673
09-15-2005, 08:38 PM
ive read lexapro can cause you to lose your passion for things you enjoy or working etc..has this happened to quite a few people because thats one of my main worries on starting my lexapro. thxs again i really appreciate it.

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hry33
09-16-2005, 05:14 PM
lexapro often calms people by reducing anxiety and stress, but they are still basicly the same, loss of sexual enjoyment however is a frequent problem which many accept as a cost of the benefit

bkm4673
09-16-2005, 07:11 PM
but do u lose passion for even things regular besides sex that you enjoy?

Bell99
09-18-2005, 10:54 AM
I found passion on Lexapro! Now my sex drive stinks but it did before? I am in Perimenopause so that goes with the territory.
I have OCD Panic attacks and agoraphobia. I started Lexapro in April and feel like I finally have my life back! I want to go out and do things. I love being around people now. I use to not want to drive more than 3 miles from my house and now I take rode trips with my husband and kids. It has changed my life for the better :bouncing:

bkm4673
09-19-2005, 03:27 AM
bell n99nyou r a sweetheart thxs hun i am grateful for your honest response ............i am sorry your sex drive sucked before and it sucks now but im glad your doing well with your family..but i have a very strong sex drive i hope it doesnt change.....

Bell99
09-19-2005, 08:38 AM
I hope so too! You would think in this day and age they would come up with something that didn't do that!

BostonGirl44
09-20-2005, 07:30 PM
bell n99nyou r a sweetheart thxs hun i am grateful for your honest response ............i am sorry your sex drive sucked before and it sucks now but im glad your doing well with your family..but i have a very strong sex drive i hope it doesnt change.....

Just throwing in my two cents...my bf is on lexapro (has been for about 2 months now) and his sex drive is as strong as it was before. There's a few issues because of the lexapro when it comes to sex, but he still wants it as much as before the medication.

bkm4673
09-22-2005, 12:08 AM
thxs bostongrl for you 2 cents , appreciated................

BostonGirl44
09-22-2005, 10:11 AM
You're welcome, bkm. I've never taken this medication so I can't tell you from firsthand experience, but can only see how it affects my bf. Overall, it's worked wonders for him.

bkm4673
09-22-2005, 08:07 PM
thats very good to know because i hear so many complaints about medications u know. im not dating right now so its a good time to try it out but im having a eeg test which test your brain waves im excited for that to see if anything is wrong everyone thinks im fine but i dont feel i am. i am also a little depressed because my brother was murdered in a hospital last august 28 2004 in Massachusetts called bridgewater state hospital and my whole family lives here in arizona so hopefully the pills can alleviate some of my stresses,ocd and grief..thxs again bstngirl

BostonGirl44
09-23-2005, 12:07 PM
bkm,

There always seems to be complications with different medications so I hope this works out well for you. I know bf was nervous to take it because of the potential side effects but he said if it didn't help, he'd just have to try something else because he couldn't deal with the anxiety. I hope your eeg test goes well so keep us updated. :)

I'm sorry to hear about your brother. Bridgewater State Hospital is probably an hour or so away from where I live. I hope that the medication and everything else you're doing will help to alleviate the stress and grief for you. Good luck. :)

bkm4673
09-23-2005, 01:51 PM
thxs bostongrl i think u have a lucky boyfriend u seem very sincere. i will inform u on how the lexapro works and i appreciate your concerns..sorry i didnt write much but im going to the gym now its one of the only things that helps me stay sane.....

bkm4673
09-23-2005, 01:51 PM
thxs bostongrl i think u have a lucky boyfriend u seem very sincere. i will inform u on how the lexapro works and i appreciate your concerns..sorry i didnt write much but im going to the gym now its one of the only things that helps me stay sane.....

bkm4673
09-23-2005, 01:51 PM
thxs bostongrl i think u have a lucky boyfriend u seem very sincere. i will inform u on how the lexapro works and i appreciate your concerns..sorry i didnt write much but im going to the gym now its one of the only things that helps me stay sane.....

BostonGirl44
09-24-2005, 04:24 PM
thxs bostongrl i think u have a lucky boyfriend u seem very sincere. i will inform u on how the lexapro works and i appreciate your concerns..sorry i didnt write much but im going to the gym now its one of the only things that helps me stay sane.....

Definitely keep us updated on your progress. BF said last night that he wants to stop taking lexapro because he feels good but is afraid of backsliding. I don't think he should stop just yet though.

I can see how the gym can help keep you sane. On days that I feel blah, working out always gets me going again.

Good luck!

bkm4673
09-25-2005, 05:04 AM
bostongrl im glad i met u on here because i usually hate anybody from mass. because my brother billy was murdered there but i know that not everyone from there is even close to whom the person who murdered my brother if i shwed u a pic of me and my bro you would be amazed at how good looking my brother was sraight up im telling u...........thx 4 listening anyways

BostonGirl44
09-26-2005, 10:50 AM
bkm,
I've never gone through what you've gone through, but I'm definitely here for any support. :) My bf has gone though tough times (not like you, though) so I know how important it is to be there for someone. Good luck! :)

bkm4673
09-27-2005, 05:38 PM
thx again your a sweety.....................good luck on your relationship with the bf..

sinnister81
09-27-2005, 08:07 PM
BKM werent u suposed to start lexapro like 2 weeks ago, remember if the med affects you bad u can stop taking it. Prozac worked wonders for me, now stopped. Give it a try.

BostonGirl44
09-27-2005, 09:10 PM
thx again your a sweety.....................good luck on your relationship with the bf..

Thanks bkm. :) Good luck with everything and I hope it all works out!

bkm4673
09-28-2005, 12:46 AM
yeah i was suppose to start a bit ago but i waited because ive been just kind of blowing it off but not anymore im taking my first pill before i goto bed hopefully it doesnt keep me up.............thx everyone.........

BostonGirl44
09-28-2005, 01:14 PM
yeah i was suppose to start a bit ago but i waited because ive been just kind of blowing it off but not anymore im taking my first pill before i goto bed hopefully it doesnt keep me up.............thx everyone.........

I know medications affect everyone differently, but my bf was so tired on this med. He works the 3rd shift and the second he got home at 7 a.m., he'd sleep straight through til he woke up to get ready for work around 10 p.m. Things have improved greatly when it comes to that. He's not sleeping as much.

bkm4673
09-28-2005, 01:17 PM
damn that sucks , i actually feel asleep before i took it so im gonna start it at lunch. does lexapro make your bf moody or irritable or does he seem better on it?

BostonGirl44
09-28-2005, 01:26 PM
damn that sucks , i actually feel asleep before i took it so im gonna start it at lunch. does lexapro make your bf moody or irritable or does he seem better on it?

Let me tell you, he was extremely irritable and I didn't want to deal with him. A lot of his anxiety stemmed from when he was going through his divorce and he still has issues with his ex-wife. Plus, he's a cop which is stressful enough as it is. If he was angry about something, he'd often take it out on me because I'm always around (we met because I live on the first floor of my condo building and he lives right above me) so I was always there for him to talk to. This irritability mostly happened when he first started taking it although there are some days he still gets irritable. It hurts that he takes it out on me but I understand that it's not always because of me. Anyway, he usually takes the pill before he goes to sleep so he doesn't always necessarily have to deal with the side effects. I hope it works out for you and you don't have to deal with too many side effects. :)

bkm4673
09-28-2005, 01:57 PM
THX BOSTONGRL again u have a lucky man to have someone like u who is so understanding.............hope all is well with yourself as in u........

sinnister81
09-28-2005, 10:43 PM
BKM I Hope u tried the lexapro Im interested in following ur progress. The sooner you take it the sooner ull know how it affects you. If it makes u irritable you will know it and can discontinue. No med can change u as a person.... I think.

BostonGirl44
09-28-2005, 10:44 PM
THX BOSTONGRL again u have a lucky man to have someone like u who is so understanding.............hope all is well with yourself as in u........

Thanks for your kind words, bkm. :) I don't like to see anyone go through something so tough so even though he stresses me out at times, the days that he's doing really well make me happy.

I'll keep you in my thoughts that you're doing well. :)

bkm4673
09-28-2005, 11:42 PM
thx both of u..................sincerely, Brandon

BostonGirl44
09-30-2005, 05:36 PM
I know you just started taking lexapro, but how are you feeling, Brandon?

bkm4673
09-30-2005, 10:30 PM
i dont know bostongrl but i can tell theres a foreign substance in my body. thank u for asking i appreciate the concern honestly....i will be able to tell u more in the next few days guaranteed i feel a lil different though not sure if good or bad. how r u doing u know r u stressed from looking after your bf and what not? by the way how old r u just curious"?

BostonGirl44
10-01-2005, 12:53 PM
Hey Brandon,

My bf has been doing really well lately. I'm a little worried though because he's been working lots of overtime shifts and working details and when he works a lot, he gets very stressed which brings on much of his anxiety. This month is going to be very busy for him so I hope he gets through it without too many problems. Thanks for your concerns. :)

Oh, and to answer your question, I'm 26.

Keep us all updated on your progress. :) Have a great day!

bkm4673
10-01-2005, 09:30 PM
u seemed young with a good heart thats why i asked your age...im feeling a lil off from the lexapro but im gonna ride it out it a bit.......if your bf didnt take his lexapro would he probably be worse off?

BostonGirl44
10-02-2005, 05:31 PM
Hey bkm,
I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling a bit off because of the lexapro. I'm sure that once you've been taking it enough, you'll start to feel better on it. I really do think that if bf didn't take his lexapro, he'd be worse off. He's just got so many anxiety related things going on right now. When he tried going off of it a while back, he practically fell apart (he thought he could stop but realized it wasn't the time) and I've never seen anyone like that, constantly pacing, feeling sick to his stomach, stuff like that. Plus, he's quite a few years older than me and feels that his baggage is going to be too much for me but I can look past all that. :) Hope you're doing well!

bkm4673
10-02-2005, 11:24 PM
u seem way cool bostongrl im sure your bf knows that. i am taking lexapro because of ocd like washing my hands alot things like that and minor depression but im not the type of guy who walks around sad constantly its just not me. i did feel a lil gitty goofy today from the lex cause it was not me but funny at the same time...ill be gone for 2 days so hope u stay sweet till we talk again sometime take care of yourself too Bgrl..

BostonGirl44
10-04-2005, 01:25 PM
Thanks bkm. I hope bf knows it too haha. Hopefully by the time you get back to these boards, you're feeling a little bit better. :)

bkm4673
10-05-2005, 01:09 AM
hey there bostongrl i just got back and im not sure how the lexapro is affecting me yet maybe thats good idk..i was working when i was gone i am tired and stressed im going to bed but i hope to continue talking take care bgrl/

BostonGirl44
10-05-2005, 02:30 PM
Hey bkm, hopefully it doesn't adversely affect you. :) It sounds like things haven't been too bad for you, which is good!

bkm4673
10-05-2005, 04:00 PM
bostongrl i just called my nuerologist(in which it was my idea to go there not my reg dr. i just wanted to rule out problems)he told me to stop the lexapro until he is finished with all his test then if i need to to start them again. pretty odd huh so now im gonna start all over again. how is everything w/u?

BostonGirl44
10-05-2005, 05:15 PM
bkm, I'm sorry to hear that you have to stop lexapro. I hope everything goes well with your tests withthe neurologist, though. Everything is good here...bf is doing very well and this week has been very hectic for him so I'm glad it's all good.

bkm4673
10-05-2005, 06:42 PM
glad to hear everything is good 4 u there. im sure all my test will come back fine but i justed wanted to make sure. i think the lexapro may have had a slight calming effect on me. well i will write soon i just dont have much to say today, have a good one.

BostonGirl44
10-05-2005, 09:48 PM
bkm, I know how you feel. Better safe than sorry, right. :) I just realized that you mentioned you take lexapro for your ocd (unlike my bf, who doesn't have ocd). I suffered from really bad ocd for years (I was constantly checking windows, doors, items that were in my bag, in a closet, in my desk, etc). I couldn't make myself stop which caused me a great deal of anxiety. I never took medication, but I read books like "Brain Lock" and "Stop Obsessing!" I've been able to control my ocd better. I used to go from checking things 40-50 times a day, at least, to 2 or 3. I'm an extremely organized person and I don't like clutter or too many things around my condo because in my mind, I think the less I have, the less I need to check. Anyway, I just wanted to add that in just to let you know that I understand the feelings of ocd all too well!

bkm4673
10-05-2005, 11:42 PM
thx bostngrl i am gonna check out the brainlock book u mentioned im sure it can only help. my ocd is more of the hand washing or feeling as though things are contaminated it kind of sucks because it can takes its toll on a person. when people see me they think im this normal descent looking guy who seems just fine but i try to control my ocd at times but it can be hard but it does suck w/ocd...my cousin has your kind of ocd he makes sure everything is in order too a very crazy extent though..nice talking to u again thanks 4 sharing your story..

sinnister81
10-06-2005, 02:49 AM
You shouldnt fully feel the ffects of lexapro for 4 weeks or so, whyd u stop taking it, did u have side effects to make your doctor take u off it. The most u will feel right away is maybe a caffeine buzz or somethin like that. God luck

BostonGirl44
10-06-2005, 07:56 PM
I never really told anybody about my ocd. I thought I hid it well but then there are some days I feel like everyone knows. Even now, I feel like opening the drawers at my desk or checking something, anything. I'm definitely able to control these urges better, though. It's such a relief that I live alone so that if I just have to give in, nobody can see me! I can imagine that living with your kind of ocd is no picnic either. It makes me wonder what causes people to be so affected by something like this but I just don't understand!

bkm4673
10-06-2005, 08:07 PM
yeah bgrl im bot sure what causes it maybe low serotonin in the brain i do know it seemed to start a little when i was 20 during traumatic or stressful times so idk im not sure. yeah ocd can be embarassing i can hide it to an extent then when im with people i know well they notice little things here and there...take care its nice to know people arent the only ones lol...i guess lol

BostonGirl44
10-06-2005, 10:19 PM
The first time I really remember what seemed to be the beginning of my ocd was when I was around 11 or 12. It grew pretty bad as time went on but I've been doing really well since I moved out on my own (about a year ago). When I was living with one of my friends, she was a complete slob and while other people's disorganization doesn't bother me, I feel like it was starting to affect me. I just wish I could wake up one morning and all my stupid urges would go away. :) How old are you, if you don't mind my asking.

bkm4673
10-06-2005, 10:53 PM
hey there bgrl yeah i wish my stupid ocd things would go away also...i am 32 yrs old and i live in arizona, phoenix the weather here is getting nice now. i just went to my friends house and he was spraying this athletes foot spray and i walked into the spray mist so my mind was ocd trippin so when i got home i washed all my clothes and took a shower , what a odd thing huh. i had convinced myself that i felt awkward from the spray or a lil anxiety lame huh....yea so im 32 6'1 185lbs blonde hair cut very short blue eyes i dont have a problem meeting women i am a fairly attractive guy but i think my ocd could have added more stress to my last relationship but i wasnt too upset she wasnt for me anyways...i usually dont go walking around doing odd ocd things everywhere but when im alone uh oh i can get a lil ocd crazy....talk to u soon bgrl

BostonGirl44
10-08-2005, 06:26 PM
Hey bkm, It's so strange how when you do these things, you think it's weird but you can't help but do it. I constantly think how stupid it is for me to check a drawer or my purse when I know hardly anything is in it but I feel like if I don't, I'll lose something or something will be misplaced. This morning had been really good for me...I was at work and I didn't have any urges to look through my desk drawers or make sure everything was in place on the desk. But now that I'm home, I want to go through the closets! I'm trying to preoccupy myself with the computer, a newspaper, and putting together a cd for my friend's birthday but I want so badly to check stuff. Unfortunately, bf is working now so I can't be upstairs at his place, not having to look around my place! Usually, we'll go for a walk so we're both distracted from our problems, but it's so icky and rainy outside that I can't even do that myself.

You sound like you would have no problem meeting women but the ocd could be holding you back, which is something I completely understand. My bf actually doesn't know about my ocd. The only person I've ever told is my mom and she blew it off saying that there's no way I have it. If only she saw what I did! So I figure I wouldn't tell anyone because I feel like I've got it much more under control. I hope you're having a better day!

bkm4673
10-08-2005, 08:14 PM
hey bgrl, yea u must be doing very well hiding your ocd if people dont notice im good at hiding it in front of people at times...so the weather sucks there huh, my parents r going there on the 13th for court for the murderer who murdered my brother Billy but the murderer s trying to act crazy-insane so this can go on forever..my family is sueing Bridgewater state hospital for what happened, because it never should have happened.......my ocd is a lil bad today maybe because i hav a hangover i watched a fight at my cousins house.............take care bgrl

BostonGirl44
10-10-2005, 01:26 PM
Hey bkm,
I'd like to think I'm doing a good job of hiding my ocd but who knows if anyone notices it. When I'm at work, I sometimes open the drawers of my desk to check what's inside and make sure it's organized and if people are walking by, who knows if they think I'm being weird! I hope not! I caused some big anxiety problems for bf over the past couple of days. I thought I overheard someone in the hall mention some other girl, thought they were talking about him and some other girl, and I left him a message that wasn't so nice. I don't know what got into me because I never do stuff like that. So we got everything straightened out. Although, his anxiety was pretty bad over the past week because of work and school and a few other things. I certainly didn't help. Anyway, I'm sorry to hear about the issue your parents are having with Bridgewater State. Hopefully everything will get straightened out. I hope you're feeling better today. :)

bkm4673
10-10-2005, 08:48 PM
hey bgrl sorry to hear u had a lil issue w/bf but if its all good now then good 4 u....i just got back from work i think i washed my hands 20xs in the 8hrs i was there at least 20xs....LAME.....i think im gonna try the lexapro again this weekend and see how it goes, my only concern is the orgasm issues but ive NEVER had a problem w/that before so i figure it wont be a prob..u know if i saw u opening your drawers allthe time i probably wouldnt think its a big deal at all just so u know....hope your evening goes good bgrl............

BostonGirl44
10-11-2005, 06:05 PM
Hey bkm,
Don't know if the issue with bf is resolved anymore. We were talking last night and he was in a pissy mood and hung up on me (I've been sick for the past couple of days and I think I was at the end of my rope). I tried calling back but he wouldn't answer his phone which in turn pissed me off. So I called this morning to apologize and he hasn't returned my call. I don't know if his anxiety issues are acting up again. I hear that he's been upstairs all day so I don't know what's going on. But anyway, let me know if you do decide to try the lexapro again this weekend. Don't worry about the orgasm issue. I know it can be frustrating but as long as you have an understanding partner, you can work through it. BF had that issue at the beginning but now he doesn't have any problems. I'm glad to know that if you saw me opening and checking my desk drawers you wouldn't think I was strange. :) Sometimes I feel like everyone knows but they just don't ask what in the world I'm doing!

bkm4673
10-11-2005, 10:54 PM
bgrl whats up....i had a bad ocd day it sucked even gave me anxiety and i dont usually get bad anxiety...idk ocd is stupid but i have it...i hope all goes how u want it to w/your bf...luckily im single now so when im on the lexapro i dont have to get to concerned about the orgasm issue..........its always good to hear what u have to say take it easy k ................bye .....Brandon

BostonGirl44
10-12-2005, 10:39 PM
Hey bkm,
When I was pretty much trapped in the house because of being sick, it was so hard not to want to check and recheck things. I only checked things once a day...I honestly don't even know how I was able to limit myself because it got pretty overwhelming for me. I haven't felt that in a long time. I think a combo of having nowhere to go because I was so sick and the rainy weather contributed to it. OCD sucks! Right after I wrote that last message to you, I considered calling bf again. I heard him upstairs all day, walking back and forth....when he does that, I know his anxiety is acting up again because he constantly paces when anxious. Turns out, he was cleaning and taking the ac out of the windows. He surprised me by making dinner and dessert and I knew that was his way of "returning" my call when I apologized. Anyway, I really do hope that you don't have to deal with too many of the side effects when you get back on lexapro. Aside from the orgasm issue, bf started sweating badly (he started in summertime, though, but we'd be sleeping with the ac on full blast and I'd be wrapped up in blankets, freezing my butt off and he'd be sweating like he had run a marathon). He also got real tired because of the meds. He works 11 p.m. to 7 a.m., but sometimes he'd pick up extra shifts during the day so that often screwed up how he felt. I hope you're doing well!

bkm4673
10-12-2005, 11:37 PM
hey bgrl not much to say here today but still wanted to say hello and glad to see u r ok, yeah when im sick im not so concerned about the ocd issues i just wnt to get better. im also taking vitamins and have been for a while since i excersize they do help me feel slightly better i also heard b complex was good w/ocd so im gonna try that vitamin to hey if it doesnt help at least my skin,hair and nails will look healthier...lol....cya, also ur cool...

BostonGirl44
10-13-2005, 12:29 AM
Hey again bkm,
So we're opposite when it comes to that....when I'm sick, my ocd seems to come out in full force. I feel much better today and finally went back to work and didn't check my desk drawers at all! I think it's because I had so much to catch up on that I didn't have time to check. I've also heard that b complex was good, but I never tried it myself. If you do try it, let me know how it goes. I think that I need to start doing something to lessen my ocd since lately it seems to be acting up again. I really hope it doesn't get any worse. You're cool too. :)

bkm4673
10-13-2005, 03:00 PM
hey bgrl at least ur ocd wasnt bad at work thats a plus, mine is always worse at work..im getting back on the lexapro hopefully tommorrow and im gonna take the b complex too and i will definitely let u know how they both work..what do u do for work?

BostonGirl44
10-13-2005, 03:25 PM
Hey bkm,
I feel like I haven't worked in forever. Holiday on Monday, called out sick on Tuesday, and I had a vacation day planned for today anyway. Getting paid for all that...not too bad. :) I'm a paralegal...which I tell people means I do all the dirty work for the lawyers and they get the big bucks. :) Keep me updated with the lex and bcomplex.

bkm4673
10-13-2005, 06:02 PM
isnt that the truth u do all the work and they get paid...go figure...........i will keep in touch...my parents just left for boston for court they hate going there because of my brother being murdered there....

BostonGirl44
10-14-2005, 10:00 PM
Today has been a complete turn around for my ocd from the past few days. I was so busy at work that I barely had any time to think about checking. I was so happy about that! Anyway, I hope your parents make it through the whole court issue without too many problems. I'm sure it's so tough for them but I hope everything turns out okay. :)

bkm4673
10-15-2005, 11:42 PM
thx bgrl for your sincerity i am takingh my lex on monday after work , uh oh we will see how it goes....ur ocd seems like u can control it somewhat when u need to.. im tired and gonna goto bed i have a hangover u take care k, bye.

BostonGirl44
10-16-2005, 12:43 AM
My control over my ocd has definitely improved over the past few years. I really never thought I'd get to this point though. I used to be constantly frustrated by it and at one point decided that I'd just have to accept that I'd check things 50 times a day. I didn't check at all today...and believe me, I wanted to badly. Anyway, hope you get over your hangover quickly. :)

bkm4673
10-17-2005, 12:29 AM
hey there bgrl i am feeling a lil better today lol...i am actually excited to take my lexapro because my ocd is nuts lol.........how are you.? my parent are in boston now for court.. today i went with my sister to my brother Billys gravesight it is peaceful there and the weather was nice out here..well u take care im still tired from the other night...bye bgrl

BostonGirl44
10-20-2005, 12:37 PM
Hey bkm,

Sorry it's taken me so long to respond. BF and I were having big problems and we're kind of broken up right now and I've just been having a rough time. Anyway, I hope everything went well for your parents while they were in Boston for court! How are you doing?

bkm4673
10-20-2005, 12:55 PM
hey bgrl nice to hear from you im kind of blah.. lately but oh well..court went as we thought he is still incompetent to stand trial thats what happens to just about everyone at bridgewater state hospital, they actually let the guy who murdered m brother out with the general population again and he tried getting some people together to murder someone else its so horrible its like that place didnt learn after my brothers death its as if they dont even care he died there or that hes dead..the only way they will care is from our federal lawsuit in which is for millions and we will win we also have a great atty there in boston so sucks that they dont care about the other inmates...well my ocd is the samekind of crappy i actually didnt goto work the last 2 days because of anxiety just from everything and im not really an anxiety type person i can usually keep it under control myself with excersize and vitamins...so how are you bgrl? sorry tio hear about you and your bf, hows that going?write back k....bye Brandon.

BostonGirl44
10-20-2005, 11:59 PM
Hey Brandon,
I can't believe they let the guy that murdered your brother out into the general population! That's a frightening thought! I hope that everything can be done so that justice is finally served. I'm sorry that the attorney isn't that great (believe me, I work for attorneys so I unfortunately know what that's like haha). I am doing much better. I was walking home from the drugstore last night and BF, ex BF, or whatever he may be right now, drove by with his daughter to get some dinner for them. We waved, said hi, and I went in the house. He called me a couple hours later after he dropped his daughter off at home and we hung out for a while before he went to work (I used to always keep him company before he went to work and before I went to bed so it was like old times) and we did that again tonight. His therapist thinks he may have jumped into a relationship too fast after his divorce (which is what caused his anxiety to get so out of control in the first place) and he's afraid that he's going to screw things up. So I have no idea what's going on with us. I'm just glad him and I still talk because I care so much about him. Plus, it would be awkward not to since he lives right above me. :) Anyway, I hope you're starting to feel better. I'm sorry to hear that you were having issues with anxiety. Let me know how you're feeling. :) Have a good night.

bkm4673
10-21-2005, 12:34 AM
hey bgrl im glad u r doing better w/ your bf...............i must have messed up on what i said earlier but our atty in boston is very very good hes actually one of the best so we r in good hands.......ocd is still ugh , oh well nothing else to say but stay cool...................

BostonGirl44
10-22-2005, 11:14 PM
I'm still a little frustrated with the situation but I know things work out the way they're supposed to. We've been talking everyday and he came to take my ac out of the window. My mom was over and they've never met before and hit it off today. It's too bad things can't go the way I want right now. :) Anyway, I didn't realize I misunderstood what you said about your attorney in Boston. Most I know are morons so I just assumed. :) Hope you're feeling better! :)

bkm4673
10-23-2005, 06:06 AM
thx bgrl hey by the way whats your name? im feeling a lil odd from the lexapro like different than i normally feel but oh well whatever i want to see if it helps we will see...how r u w/ your ocd? u r so so with your man huh? hope it works out how u want it to.....stay cool bgrl..........

BostonGirl44
10-23-2005, 08:00 PM
Hey Brandon,
Sorry to hear you're feeling the way you do because of the lexapro. I've never taken anything like that before so I can't really tell you when it might pass, but I hope you're feeling better soon. My ocd hasn't been acting up and I've actually done really well the past couple days which I'm really happy about. Things are okay with my guy right now. It's weird because we'll act like we are together and do things that most friends don't do with each other, if you know what I mean haha, but I just don't know where things stand. Anyway, we'll see what happens from here. He's just got so many issues to deal with and he needs to work through all that first. Hope you're feeling better. :)

Oh, and to answer your question, my name is Lori. :)

bkm4673
10-24-2005, 06:52 PM
hey lori whats up? i know what u mean about doing thing w/your friend that most friends dont do w/each other ive had some friends like that in the past but not now , oh well...i just got home from work i felt a lil up and down i think it could be the lexapro but who knows...lol.....well i got to go shower i feel dirty you take care lori........................bye .......Brandon oh yea glad your ocd is in check good job lori..lol................

BostonGirl44
10-24-2005, 09:10 PM
Hey Brandon,
I'm sure it's the lexapro that's giving you that up and down feeling. I had such an urge to check things when I got back into my house but I didn't. I just busied myself making dinner and talking on the phone with some friends. It's nice to be able to have that distraction sometimes! I've even taken up knitting so that if I feel the ocd coming on, I can just pick up the knitting I've been doing and keep my hands busy. Anyway, I hope you're feeling better after your shower! Take care! :)

Lori

bkm4673
10-27-2005, 02:37 PM
hey lori whats up? how are you? my ocd is still in effect just as much as when i wasnt taking the lexapro but i like the lexapro at times and then i dont at other times i guess i have to give it more time...by the way im not getting any sexual side effects so far........THANK GOD huh........lol........well u r obviously doing well with your ocd keep it up lori.........,i think i understand your ocd the urge drives you nuts till you start going thru the drawers ................bye take care

BostonGirl44
10-28-2005, 12:25 AM
Hey Brandon,
I'm doing pretty good today. I just got back from a hockey game and my team won, so I'm in a very good mood. :) My ocd was acting up earlier today but luckily I was distracted with work and other things. I have tomorrow off of work and I'm afraid my ocd will be really bad then! Hope you're feeling better! Take care!

bkm4673
10-28-2005, 01:24 PM
u play hockey? or is it a team u like?

BostonGirl44
10-28-2005, 11:10 PM
Reading over that last post, I made it sound like I play hockey, but no, I don't. :) Just an avid hockey fan and my favorite team won. :) How are you feeling today?

bkm4673
10-29-2005, 01:13 AM
im doing so so how about u lori? im in a hurry i'll write again soon take care.........

BostonGirl44
10-30-2005, 10:07 PM
I'm doing well today. I was out of the house helping my friends move from 8 am to 6 pm and I'm exhausted! If I owned as much junk as they owned....oh, my ocd would be out of control. I have never seen so much clutter in my life and they think they need to keep all of it! :) They moved into a smaller apartment so I have no idea how they're going to make this work. Anyway, after seeing their stuff being moved, and knowing I have half of half of half of that, my compulsion to check has practically diminished tonight. Or maybe I'm just too tired to care. :)

bkm4673
11-01-2005, 07:06 PM
lori you ae funny....how are you...im ok a little better at times but my ocd SUCKS. its embarrassing when i use a napkin/paper towel to open doors...i would NEVER do it on a date though lol....sounds like u were bvusy moving friends huh ive done that 4 xs this last yr..........hope u r doing good.............bye Brandon

BostonGirl44
11-02-2005, 12:46 PM
I don't think you should be embarassed when you use a napkin or paper towel to open doors. I mean, I do that at work when I come out of the bathroom or when I go shopping, I try using my sleeve or go through a door that someone else already has open. I just don't like getting sick. :) Anyway, my poor muscles have recovered from helping with the big move. I think seeing all their junk made my ocd die for a few days too! The feelings are definitely still there but not too overwhelming. Hope you're doing well today! :)

bkm4673
11-02-2005, 02:13 PM
thanks for saying i shouldnt feel embarassed but my father when im around him it bugs him bad. good to hear your ocd is ok for now...talk to u later lori...

BostonGirl44
11-02-2005, 02:56 PM
Hey Brandon,

I try so hard to hide my ocd so I never know how other people may react to it. I swear that my mom has ocd tendancies because she's even more anal when it comes to organization than I am. Although, she can put something away and not check it 80 times a day like I feel I have to do. Anyway, I think another reason why my ocd hasn't been that bad is because I've been dealing with a bad headache for a couple of days (coffee withdrawal sucks) and I don't feel like doing anything that gives into my ocd. I think I'm going back to coffee tomorrow. :) Have a great day!

bkm4673
11-02-2005, 09:07 PM
hey lori, my mother i think has ocd too she cleans and cleans and cleans my parents house everyday that shes not working and if theres nothing to clean she will find something....u take care k

BostonGirl44
11-02-2005, 09:38 PM
I always wondered if it was a genetic thing. My grandmother and mother are cleaning fanatics but I think they're just neat people, not obsessive about it like I am. Who knows. Have a great night!

bkm4673
11-03-2005, 12:40 PM
hey lori im about to goto work how are you? i was using a napkin at work the other day to open the door and this guy says whats that for? i said oh the door is greasy he said oh, .....whatever ocd is just lame.....see ya

BostonGirl44
11-03-2005, 07:45 PM
Hey Brandon,
Nobody seems to question me when I do things like that. Hey, it's flu season, I'll use that as an excuse. I rarely get sick so I don't want to start now. :) Today was very busy for me at work since our receptionist's husband passed away this morning, I had to cover for her. It was not a good day, hearing about that, but I just hope she's okay.

bkm4673
11-03-2005, 08:35 PM
hey lori how horrible that your receptionist husband died...im gonna use your excuse its flu season thx..lol.......im in a hurry im going to the gym take care..............

BostonGirl44
11-03-2005, 10:11 PM
Yeah, it was horrible to hear that this morning. It was unexpected which makes it even worse. I mean, all I can think of is yesterday we were talking about tvs because her and her husband needed to get a new one and were going to get one last night and then this morning, he dies. I hate hearing about stuff like that. Nobody close to me has died and I'm lucky. But there's going to be a time when it does happen and nobody's ever really prepared for that. Anyway, definitely use my "flu season" excuse if anyone questions your ocd. It sounds like something anyone would do!

bkm4673
11-03-2005, 10:50 PM
just got back from the gym , just wanted to say hi , stay cool lori.....

BostonGirl44
11-03-2005, 11:56 PM
Hope the gym was good. I used to go to the gym 5 days a week, religiously every morning before work. It got to be too expensive and I lost all motivation for waking up that early. :) My friend that moved last week gave me her old gazelle that she bought because she has no place in her new apartment for it. It's up against my living room wall and I swear, I will someday have the motivation to use it. :)

bkm4673
11-04-2005, 12:14 AM
lori what is a gazelle? if it is an excersize epuipment the thing is you cant think about doing it you have to just do it, whenever i think about the gym to much i dont want to go so i just get up and go no thinking, then i put my headphones on and tune out and workout..well i hope you give it a try soon it makes you feel better..........bye lori........

BostonGirl44
11-04-2005, 09:52 AM
I can't really explain it....it's kind of like you're skiing. I don't know if you've ever seen those annoying commericals for it with that Tony Little guy. I figure, free exercise equipment, absolutely! The first time I used it, I put the tv on and just went for it. Helps keep my mind off the time.

bkm4673
11-04-2005, 02:46 PM
glad to hear you may use your gazelle...........im going to the dog race track w/ my father and uncle and cousin ill be drinking and betting hopefully i win...you take care lori ..........what are you doing tonight?

BostonGirl44
11-06-2005, 01:08 AM
The gazelle was up against one of the walls in my living room, reminding me to use it. I couldn't stand that it was "out of place" (to me, at least), and I put it under my bed. I just got back from my friend's house. Her husband was out with his friends and she was bored...she's the one that moved last week and she has no cable yet, so I kept her company haha. I'm ready for bed now! Hope you had a good time at the dog race track. :)

bkm4673
11-06-2005, 09:08 PM
hey lori , i did have fun at the dogs, i went to a bar that has a big fire pit outside afterwards and hung out w/ my cousin and had more drinks and listened to a band play...get the gazelle out from under the bed and use it..lol...it will prob make you feel better the more you use it.....bye lori..

BostonGirl44
11-06-2005, 09:56 PM
Hey Brandon,
Glad to hear you had a good time. :) I went crazy and cleaned out all my closets. I had 4 trashbags full of clothes and shoes I never use anymore and donated them to the Salvation Army this afternoon. It felt like a good cleansing. Last night was not good for me because of the ocd. I was checking things way too much! Anyway, I'll see if I get motivated to use the gazelle tomorrow. :)

bkm4673
11-06-2005, 11:20 PM
hey lori your ocd might have kicked in during the cleaning session you had, 4 bags thats alot , also nice of you to donate them i do that too whenever possible...good job thinkin about the gazelle its good for you....hope the ocd gets less bothersome for u.................bye lori

BostonGirl44
11-07-2005, 10:38 AM
I don't know what came over me on Saturday night. I was out with my friend on Friday and we just made nachos, drank beer, and watched a dvd (she STILL doesn't have cable after her move because the company cancelled her appointment without telling her and rescheduled to next week) and I wanted to have a quiet, relaxing night on Saturday. My friend called and wanted me to go out with him and some friends but I was tired. Apparently, not tired enough to clean for a couple hours! Even though it was a bad ocd night, at least I did something good by donating stuff I don't use anymore. I'll just look at it that way. :) I have to work both of my jobs today, so I don't know how motivated I'll be to use the gazelle. I'll do my best though. Hope you're having a great day!

bkm4673
11-07-2005, 08:38 PM
well at least try the day you dont work both jobs keep up the good work lori......hows the bf thing going?

BostonGirl44
11-07-2005, 09:05 PM
I'm not using the gazelle tonight...just way too tired! The whole bf thing has been over for about 3 weeks now. We haven't spoken in about 2 weeks. From what I hear of him upstairs, he's been working a lot so he's probably still under stress. I figure, I'll let him be and if he chooses to talk to me, I'm here.

bkm4673
11-09-2005, 04:01 PM
wow that sucks 4 u about the bf thing i figured you 2 were tight, well i still wish you the best......the gazelle yea its sometimes tough to get going on excersize but it could also help you in dealing w/ stress over the bf and anything else....just trying to give encouraging advice......see ya lori....

BostonGirl44
11-09-2005, 09:39 PM
Hey Brandon,
Yeah, the whole ex thing does suck. I remind myself that at the end of our relationship, he basically treated me like crap and I deserve better than that. I saw him walk by outside a few times and it just sucks that he's so hot. :) Anyway, I keep feeling better everyday and have other things to preoccupy my mind. :) How have you been doing?

bkm4673
11-09-2005, 09:54 PM
ive been doing alright just relaxing right now....thats good that you are doing other things to keep your mind of the ex.....thats not cool when people in relationships start treating the other bad............well i guess im gonna go u take care k......bye lori, try the gazelle...lol

BostonGirl44
11-10-2005, 03:47 PM
I'm over him...I don't know how I'll feel when we run into each other, which is going to happen what with living so close to each other, but I'll be strong. :) Maybe I'll use the gazelle tonight when I watch the hockey game. :) I really am running out of excuses to avoid using the gazelle! Take care, Brandon!

bkm4673
11-10-2005, 04:45 PM
your funny lori..lol.... i considering moving to san diego, ca. one of my best friends lives out there and wants me to go there and relocate....idk yet though.,................thats good your getting over the boyfriend thing you seem like a strong person...........bye lori

bkm4673
11-10-2005, 04:49 PM
your funny lori..lol.... i considering moving to san diego, ca. one of my best friends lives out there and wants me to go there and relocate....idk yet though.,................thats good your getting over the boyfriend thing you seem like a strong person...........by the way just curious what do you look like ive talked w/u for a while and i was just curious...........

BostonGirl44
11-11-2005, 02:51 PM
I've thought about relocating (not because of the ex lol). I visited southern California about 5 years ago and I loved it out there. I can see myself living there. :) My one last single friend and I are planning to go into the city either tonight or tomorrow night so maybe I'll find a nice guy. :) To be honest, I'm not really ready to rush back into anything again. The relationship with the ex was very stressful at times because of his anxiety and I don't know if I'm ready for anything right now. I love my freedom too much right now too! :) To answer your question...I'm 5'3, 110, brown hair, blue eyes...

bkm4673
11-12-2005, 12:46 AM
lori thats good you should enjoy being you for awhile and that sucks your relationship was stressful cause thats not how a relationship should be your suppose to relieve stress from each other and comfort each other..............u e njoy habgin with your friends the right guy will come along.............bye the way you sound sexy with or without the gazelle................bye Lori

tjmaxxaholic
11-12-2005, 03:08 PM
I have been on Lexapro for almost 3 weeks. I have felt no effect whatsoever.. My biggest worry is weight gain. But I want to feel better so bad! :bouncing:

bkm4673
11-12-2005, 09:02 PM
i havent gained a pound...........

BostonGirl44
11-13-2005, 02:16 AM
Hey Brandon,
In my relationship with the ex, when he was having a good day, we had the best times together. On the days that weren't so good for him, I liked being there for him and doing what I could to make him feel better. It stinks because I think about all the times he told me he was so glad to have me and how I made things better for him. Not to be conceited, but I don't think a lot of people can understand what he's going through and, more importantly, want to deal with the whole situation. It was tough a lot of the times. I thought I did a good job. Oh well, we all have to move on, I guess. Being single right now is what's important to me. No need to rush, I'm young. :)

BostonGirl44
11-13-2005, 02:18 AM
I have been on Lexapro for almost 3 weeks. I have felt no effect whatsoever.. My biggest worry is weight gain. But I want to feel better so bad! :bouncing:

My ex didn't gain any weight on lexapro either. He continued exercising a lot anyway because it relieved stress so that could be a factor too. I hope it starts working for you, though, and that you do feel better soon! :)

bkm4673
11-16-2005, 06:33 PM
hey lori how r trhings going with you? hows your ocd? mine is still bad even on the lexapro................bye Brandon

BostonGirl44
11-17-2005, 10:53 AM
hey lori how r trhings going with you? hows your ocd? mine is still bad even on the lexapro................bye Brandon

OCD has been baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been checking and checking and rechecking and rechecking. I can't get it out of my head that nothing has changed and that nobody's moved anything but I keep going back to make sure that that's true. I haven't felt this awful in terms of OCD in almost a year. I'm sorry to hear that your OCD is bad even on the lexapro. Ex BF hasn't been taking his lexapro either because he was in the hospital for a few days last week (not because of anxiety, but because he had a nasty bug and became very dehydrated). Anyway, I hope you're feeling better soon!

bkm4673
11-17-2005, 07:16 PM
hey lori that SUCKS your ocd is very bad, idk mine is too lol.......i just got home from working out i tell ya whenever i take more than 3 days off from the gym my ocd gets worse...hope all gets better lori bye..............

BostonGirl44
11-17-2005, 09:53 PM
I've felt much better since I got home. I haven't checked anything! It's still in the back of my mind but I haven't given in to the feeling.

bkm4673
11-18-2005, 07:52 PM
good 4 u lori.......im just stressing a bit lately and idk why either it sucks , it seems like my ocd will be here forever...oh well huh......

BostonGirl44
11-19-2005, 01:07 AM
Today has been much better for me. Still checked a few times but nowhere near a much as I did yesterday. I'm not sure why all of a sudden my ocd has come back in what seems to be full force but I'm not going to let it get out of control again.

bkm4673
11-19-2005, 02:47 PM
good 4 u lori, im suppose to go out and meet an old female friend tonight after i watch the fight, believe me i can control my ocd then..lol.....have a good one..

BostonGirl44
11-19-2005, 11:11 PM
Hey Brandon,
Hope you have a great time tonight! :) I'm sure you'll keep your ocd under control.

bkm4673
11-20-2005, 05:13 PM
hey lori whats up ? yes my ocd was fine....the weather here in az. is soooooo nice u can wear shorts its like 85 degrees...ikd why i just told u that lol................im off to take a nap hope all is well w/u........

BostonGirl44
11-20-2005, 10:00 PM
Glad to hear your ocd was fine. :) Mine hasn't been too bad today....just checked once! I think it's because my allergies have been acting up and I've been too exhausted to check anything! Anyway, you are so lucky it's nice and warm there and you can wear shorts. It was actually warm for us today for this time of year...55 degrees! It's going to be getting colder the rest of this week though. I hate winter. :)

bkm4673
11-20-2005, 10:14 PM
ugh lori i couldnt deal with winters like that i think the less the clothes the better..lol...but the winters here are great the best times of the year here r now its just too gorgeous outside to be indoors.....stay warm lori......

BostonGirl44
11-21-2005, 12:26 PM
I'm starting to be able to deal less and less with these winters! I would love warm weather year round. Maybe someday I'll move but I'll miss everyone here. :) My hands are really cold right now....I hate winter. :) You're probably warm enough for both of us! OCD is under control this morning. Hopefully it stays that way for the rest of the day!

bkm4673
11-22-2005, 11:17 PM
hey lori , i laughed a lil not at u but w/u when u said my hands r cold right now....im sorry its cold there ud love the weather here but yeah ud miss all your friends, family, and old bf..lol.....the winters here is why people live here we have no snow and you can literally wear shorts yr around but at night it gets a lil chilly but not bad nothing like u get.....take care lori ill stay warm 4 u 2 ...bye
Brandon

BostonGirl44
11-23-2005, 12:58 PM
Hey Brandon,
My hands are still cold! It looks like it could start snowing at any second! If I moved someplace warm, I'd definitely miss everyone here...maybe not the ex-bf, though! :) Hopefully, I'll get out of work early today and then go home and turn the heat up! If I don't hear from you, have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

bkm4673
11-23-2005, 07:04 PM
thaks lori you have a great thanksgiving too.......your a sweet person i hope everything goes well for you in life............bye, and stay warm

Brandon

BostonGirl44
11-26-2005, 07:25 PM
Thanksgiving was very nice....I'm still full after eating all those leftovers for the past 2 days! Hope it was nice for you too. :)

It's starting to snow here! So much for staying warm.....

bkm4673
11-26-2005, 09:21 PM
thats good lori your turkey day was good your still full, lol.....wow snow that does sound chilly, i like snow but i like visiting snow then going back to warmth but a snowy christmas would be cool..my thanksgiving was good , have a good one lori.....bye

Brandon

BostonGirl44
11-27-2005, 07:30 PM
Glad to hear you had a good Thanksgiving. A snowy Christmas is nice but I'm not a cold weather person so I'm looking forward to spring already! :) OCD has been relatively good the past few days. I went out on Friday and stayed over my friend's house and as soon as I got home yesterday, I had to go meet another friend so I didn't have time to check anything. I just got home a little while ago and am leaving for my friend's house in about an hour, so no time to check. :) Hope everything is going well for you!

BostonGirl44
11-29-2005, 12:45 PM
Hey Brandon,

Hope you're doing well. It's warm here today! I can't wait to get out there during my lunch break. :) I'm glad some people don't think I'm odd when I'm constantly checking. I only checked once today although I really want to check again. If I ever do visit Arizona, I'll find you haha.

bkm4673
12-01-2005, 09:37 PM
you definitely look me up when u r ever here........i think i have the flu it sucks............take care lori...........

Brandon

BostonGirl44
12-02-2005, 03:23 PM
Hey Brandon,

Oh, I hope you're feeling better! There's nothing worse than that gross sick feeling. :) At Thanksgiving dinner last week, half my family was sick and I was convinced I'd get something. Luckily, I haven't. I've had a very busy couple of weeks and the last thing I need is to get sick.

bkm4673
12-02-2005, 11:37 PM
hey lori, luckily i wasnt sick during turkey day...........how are you? the holiday season just seemed to show up way to fast you know......my ocd is doing ok these last few days so thats good.....im really not sure if the lexapro is doing so much but im still taking it with no side effects which is good.........well ill say it again you stay warm there cause im sure its really cold, too cold for me lol.............bye lori.......

BostonGirl44
12-04-2005, 04:27 PM
hey lori, luckily i wasnt sick during turkey day...........how are you? the holiday season just seemed to show up way to fast you know......my ocd is doing ok these last few days so thats good.....im really not sure if the lexapro is doing so much but im still taking it with no side effects which is good.........well ill say it again you stay warm there cause im sure its really cold, too cold for me lol.............bye lori.......

I woke up this morning, pulled the shades up, and saw that the snow was coming down fast! I hate winter so much. :) OCD has been fairly good. I did check things once this morning but I'm going to be out for the rest of the day so I know that there's no chance I'll backslide until I at least get home. Hope you're doing well!

bkm4673
12-04-2005, 05:54 PM
hey lori, does your ocd really bother you? because if i just checked things id be glad about that..lol..........u take care, damn the snow sounds a lil nice though, but it does sound cold brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr............

BostonGirl44
12-04-2005, 09:58 PM
Yeah, my ocd does bother me. Certain days more than others. There are some times where the thought in my mind goes over and over saying "check again, check again, check again" even though I know nothing has been moved. Some days I'll check once and the feelings go away. I wish I didn't have to do this at all. The snow was really pretty but I had to drive to NH to visit my cousin and that was no fun to drive in. :)

bkm4673
12-06-2005, 08:56 PM
damn lori your ocd can get ugh,,,,,,,,,that sucks but u r good at controlling it from what i see.................new hampshire sounds like a fun lil drive or is it a long drive?

BostonGirl44
12-06-2005, 11:14 PM
OCD has been fairly under control today but I checked 3 or 4 times. The fact that I keep telling myself in my head to check is what really annoys me most of all, not the checking itself. Checking everything only takes a few minutes. The thought of it just lasts for hours sometimes. I have this thing where I can only check at certain times, 4, 6, 8, 10, or 12. Notice a pattern? :) I allow myself to check at 8 am before I leave for work, but I stayed over someone's house last night (I met a new guy, yay!) so I couldn't check at 8. I allow myself this one time because I think if I get it perfect in the morning, I won't think about it all day. Well, it was stuck in my head all day.

Anyway, the drive to NH wasn't bad. I live about 20 minutes from the NH border and my cousin lives about 20 minutes over the border. We were supposedly supposed to have some big snowfall today but I woke up this morning and saw nothing on the ground. The weather forecasters in the northeast overreact big time. :)

bkm4673
12-07-2005, 07:16 PM
hey lori, is your checking kind of like if u dont check u feel alot of anxiety until u check? and then u keep doing it over and over...wow u r close to NH thats cool........well good luck w/ your new guy hopefully hes cooler and treats u better then the last one...i just started a 2nd job as a server at a sushi and japanese rest it is stressful....................my ocd has been ok there so far......bye stay warm...

Brandon

Brandon

BostonGirl44
12-08-2005, 04:46 PM
Hey Brandon,
Yeah, that's exactly it. I have a lot of anxiety until I can check and then the anxiety subsides (unless, of course, I feel like I didn't check "just right"). I have certain patterns for every room I check or every closet. It's insane and I want to stop so badly but I've gotten better over the years. Anyway, I do hope Sam is better to me than Peter. I've been out with him twice in the past week and so far, he's been nothing but a sweetheart. :)

I'm sorry to hear that your 2nd job is stressful. There's nothing worse than job stress (I have 2 jobs, so I know how you feel). Hopefully you'll feel better soon!

bkm4673
12-09-2005, 07:29 PM
hey lori whats up, your ocd is wild ive had very very small issues like that w/ocd but nothing to bad no checking like u at all. i have to go im actually gonna ride a bike to my gym instead of driving...........glad your new bf is being good to u..............take care and hopefully u stay warm......

BostonGirl44
12-12-2005, 11:37 AM
I haven't checked anything in 2 days! On Friday, we had a pretty nasty snowstorm so I decided to stay in. I went in-freakin-sane with cleaning. I got rid of 4 bags of clothes and videos and just stuff I don't use anymore. I had the Salvation Army coming by on Saturday to pick up my old living room furniture because I just bought all new stuff so I figured they would pick up my 4 other bags of stuff. I then realized I couldn't really check anything because I had gotten rid of so much. It was a good feeling. I'm sure it won't last for long but I feel good right now. I go through these periods of cleaning and don't feel the need to check for days. Too bad I can't always feel this good dealing with my ocd! I hope you're doing well!

bkm4673
12-12-2005, 08:01 PM
hey lori im glad to hear you are doing well w/ ocd probably a good i dea to clean out your furniture so u dont have to check as much....my ocd has been great at work but not at home...idk i dont have much to say lately idk why either just a lil blah........u take care.......

BostonGirl44
12-13-2005, 11:13 PM
Hey Brandon,
I haven't checked in 3 days! Well, I checked once at work this morning, but it wasn't a repetitive thing where I check my house and office. It's still in my head that I got rid of so much stuff so it's not like I need to make sure everything is still in its place. I hope your ocd starts to get better at home like it has at work. Sometimes I wonder why I can't just be normal and not care about this like most people.

bkm4673
12-14-2005, 12:50 PM
thats the ocd lori...................u r doing good though.............

BostonGirl44
12-14-2005, 01:20 PM
I have been feeling a lot better. It's nice to finally feel this way. How have you been doing?

bkm4673
12-14-2005, 07:51 PM
hey lori ive been ok..christmas is not he same w/out my brother he made everything alot more fun. i just got off from work im gonna actually ride a bike to the gym fun huh .......i havent been out looking for a female friend lately so that sucks , i have a few women who are much so interested in dating me but i dont feel the same about them...oh well, whatever thanks 4 asking how im doing ..........arent you cold? :wave:

BostonGirl44
12-15-2005, 11:44 AM
Hey Brandon,
I'm sorry to hear that Christmas isn't the same without your brother.

I hope the bike ride to the gym was a good one. I would love to be able to do that but it's so cold outside right now. We're supposed to get another snow storm tomorrow (we had one last Friday and it took me almost 2 hours to get home when it normally takes 10 minutes....I hate New England winters).

I'm sorry to hear that you're not interested in the woman that are interested in you. That's usually the way it works for me too but things have been going well with Sam. :) He even put up with sitting on the floor in my livingroom since I don't have my new furniture yet. :)

bkm4673
12-28-2005, 06:07 PM
hey lori sorry i havent been around ive been very busy along with our computer was down for over a week.......i hope u had a good christmas...i got an ipod nano i love it.................u take care..............Brandon :wave:

smurfett
12-29-2005, 12:12 AM
I took lexapro for about 3 months,but had to stop taking it because for some reason it lowered my already low blood pressure. Even though I wasn't taking it very long I had no problems(other than the light headedness caused by low blood pressure).I di not make me loose my passion for anything. And I even lost some weight while on it-I don't know if that is an issue for you or not? Anyways, I loved it ,if I could I would still be taking it, it made me feel alot better about things:)

bkm4673
01-01-2006, 11:00 PM
lori where r u???????????? :bouncing:

BostonGirl44
01-02-2006, 11:57 AM
Hey Brandon,
I'm still here. :) Very busy with Christmas/Hanukkah/New Years and all that good stuff. How was your New Years?

BostonGirl44
01-06-2006, 03:01 PM
Not sure if you're still around, Brandon, but I wanted to share with you that I haven't given into my ocd since January 1. That was my new year's resolution...to not give in. It's been extremely hard going cold turkey but so far, I've been able to do it. I haven't gone 5 days without checking in I don't know how long. I've checked everyday for the past 14 years and I've certainly never gone 5 days without checking. Hell, going 5 minutes without the thought entering my head is unheard of for me! I don't know how long this will last but once I get past my times that I allow myself to check (which before my resolution was only at either 8 a.m. or 8 p.m.) I feel a lot better. I see the clock and realize I passed the time, I get a sense of relief that everything is still okay even though I didn't check. It's a really good feeling.

I hope all is well with you! Take care.

stillhopefull
01-06-2006, 04:29 PM
Brandon,,
Just wondering how lexapro was doing for you? I was just perscribed it!! Kinda nervous

Jen





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