has never helped me. :( Nothing has. What if nothing ever does? I try so hard....but anything good is good and then it...isn't. Doesn't last for more than a split second. and I feel really really terrible....like indifferent. numb. whether on meds or not. I'd try to help myself, but I can't try anymore. I've tried and tried. Everything makes me end up feeling this thing in my throat all the time, just deadly numbness. Like when someone talks to me and all I can do is sit and look down. . . or pretend.

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