I've battled the ocd monster for many years. Mostly in the form of intrusive violent thoughts, constant questioning and analyzing of the thoughts, and tons of anxiety. Here's the thing.....Before the thoughts were always the same. So, after quite awhile, I learned how to let them go. I had the thoughts so many times, the scary quality lessened. Now, when I have a obsessive thought, it's never the same. It's not as much of a direct action type thought. It's more vague, and always seems to start with "what if". I've had the whole "what if" a million times, but not like this. It's like I have a normal thought, and then a negative, ugly one that's the opposite of what I was thinking comes. And it always makes me worry that it's not ocd, and I'm really some dark-minded sick person. Just wondering if anyone else can relate????
Thanks,
Carla