heatherjoy11
09-27-2005, 05:29 PM
Hi there!
My name is Heather and I am a 31 year old wife and mother of two boys (3 and 9). I have had OCD since high school, and at times, it has been severe. I am going through a moderate period right now. I often obsess about diseases (whatever is in the news -- West Nile, SARS, whatever).
Right now, I am TERRIFIED of the bird flu. I check on it many times a day and am trying very hard not to look it up. Seeing "reports" that it will kill millions is causing my anxiety to get a little out of control. In the past week or so, I have been so anxiety-ridden and depressed, I have forced myself out of bed.
I just wanted some people to talk to, people that understand what I am feeling and going through. I often feel so alone, like I am losing my mind and I am the only one feeling like this. (I know I am not, by what I have read already on the board.)
-Heather
My name is Heather and I am a 31 year old wife and mother of two boys (3 and 9). I have had OCD since high school, and at times, it has been severe. I am going through a moderate period right now. I often obsess about diseases (whatever is in the news -- West Nile, SARS, whatever).
Right now, I am TERRIFIED of the bird flu. I check on it many times a day and am trying very hard not to look it up. Seeing "reports" that it will kill millions is causing my anxiety to get a little out of control. In the past week or so, I have been so anxiety-ridden and depressed, I have forced myself out of bed.
I just wanted some people to talk to, people that understand what I am feeling and going through. I often feel so alone, like I am losing my mind and I am the only one feeling like this. (I know I am not, by what I have read already on the board.)
-Heather
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bkm4673
09-27-2005, 05:36 PM
your not alone im a 32yr old single male i have ocd but i dont worry about disease much but remember people care.........
brainchild
09-28-2005, 12:43 PM
Hey,
I totally understand what you are going through, one of my major ocd's is about fear of contamination and spreading of disease and at some points it can completely take over my life and have a knock on effect which causes me more ocd worries!! sometimes its not so bad and i can bear it but i would say for the last 6 months it has probably been the worst it has ever been and i really really hope it will get better again and this is just a bad phase!!
I also completely understand when you say about worrying about things in the media- i do the same thing and pick up on and obsess about whatever things that are pushed in my face the most by looking at the news etc then they are the things i will worry about, especally if they suit my stupid ocd!! i convince myself i have these diseases or problems, or dwell over incidents where i could of got them, its weird cos although i totally convince myself that i DEFINITELY have this disease i will still worry about catching it!! totally crazy sounding i know!! and then i worry about passing it on ad basically it goes round and round in a cycle!! :-s
I know that there are plenty of people on these boards all wit totally different forms of ocd, some i understand as if it was me typing those words, other peoples situations i dont understand but others do, but it is a really good place cos its so reassuring to have contact with other people who understand how you feel and are going through similar, if not EXACTLY the same thing, and it helps to make you realise that this IS just ocd!
So i hope you get lots of help and support here when you are feeling bad cos i know i have and many others too!! :)
Laura x
I totally understand what you are going through, one of my major ocd's is about fear of contamination and spreading of disease and at some points it can completely take over my life and have a knock on effect which causes me more ocd worries!! sometimes its not so bad and i can bear it but i would say for the last 6 months it has probably been the worst it has ever been and i really really hope it will get better again and this is just a bad phase!!
I also completely understand when you say about worrying about things in the media- i do the same thing and pick up on and obsess about whatever things that are pushed in my face the most by looking at the news etc then they are the things i will worry about, especally if they suit my stupid ocd!! i convince myself i have these diseases or problems, or dwell over incidents where i could of got them, its weird cos although i totally convince myself that i DEFINITELY have this disease i will still worry about catching it!! totally crazy sounding i know!! and then i worry about passing it on ad basically it goes round and round in a cycle!! :-s
I know that there are plenty of people on these boards all wit totally different forms of ocd, some i understand as if it was me typing those words, other peoples situations i dont understand but others do, but it is a really good place cos its so reassuring to have contact with other people who understand how you feel and are going through similar, if not EXACTLY the same thing, and it helps to make you realise that this IS just ocd!
So i hope you get lots of help and support here when you are feeling bad cos i know i have and many others too!! :)
Laura x
heatherjoy11
10-01-2005, 07:33 PM
Thanks, I appreciate it. It is somewhat comforting to know that I am not the *only one*...because it so often feels that way.
;) Heather
;) Heather