i've had such a horrible past few days.
my anxiety has driven me into a depression i think.
i am seeing a psych, but i just want to mention what i've been worrying about lately.

i guess you could say my main worry is going crazy or something.
sometimes i think about scary movies i've seen, and what could drive a person to do the things they do.
all day yesterday, all i could think about was the movie "the amityville horror", the newer recent one that came out earlier this year. i saw it in april, which is why i don't understand why this was even a thought in my mind.
i was bothered by the fact that the man killed his whole family. i wondered what could possibly drive a person to do that? were they so depressed that that's just what happened?
and i worried what would happen if i was ever in such a drive. i would NEVER EVER EVER kill my family! it's an absurd thought, which is why it bothers me why i'm even thinking of that!!! (i was later told that the guy killed his family because he was on heroin :rolleyes: ) i thougt of it all day at school and i felt liek crap all day, and when i saw my parents when i got home from school i almost had like a sick feeling in my stomach, just because of what i had thought of all day.

anyone ever have a similar experience?


edit: i should probably mention that i am going through A LOT of stress. almost every day i am faced with new and bad news about my aunt who has cancer (within the past 2 weeks ive learned she has ovarian, uterine, bone, lung, liver, and brain cancer), i stopped talking to one of my best friends, a lot has changed in my life, and i'm not one to exactly like change.

just bumping up

we all have bad thoughts thats one of the curses of anxiety and depression, i visualise things which can be really scary. Just know that the way you think is just the way you are, as you say you know you will never do anything like it you just think them.
Don't give yourself a hard time over it.
I used to watch wes craven films thinking he was some proper sick person, films are just peoples imagination running wild, a bit like ours with our bad thoughts. ;)

Why don't you want to tell your pysch about what you've ben worrying about, that exactly what s/he is they for.
You must tell people how you are feeling esp let the ones that are close to you know something or they won't be able to help you & won't be there for you because they won't realise they need to be.

Why don't you want to tell your pysch about what you've ben worrying about, that exactly what s/he is they for.
You must tell people how you are feeling esp let the ones that are close to you know something or they won't be able to help you & won't be there for you because they won't realise they need to be.


i definitely tell people close to me, especially my boyfriend.
he is very supportive and is always there for me.
i DO want to tell my pysch, this is just something that came upon me this week and i haven't seen her yet this week. i see her tomorrow and i will definitely be talkign with her about it

I went to watch "the exorcism of Emily Rose" and promised myself not to watch such things ever again. We worry about plenty of stuff and now i worry the devil will take posession of me... no thanks. Watch comedies, laugh always help.

Sweetie,what you are going thru,is EXACTLY what I went thru years ago,it is CLASSIC anxiety,with abit of OCD thrown in.I remember reading a book about a serial killer,and thinking,What could ever make him do such a thing?Then I started thinking,my god,whats to keep me from going in the other room and hurting my daughter,or myself?I was HORRIFIED at these thoughts,and they were repetitive,and they took on all sorts of different forms.Realise that you are not crazy,its just that you have a chemical imbalance in your brain which causes this to happen.Serial killers and the like are diseased in mind,BIG difference!After suffering for 20 years,I finally went on paxil and most of the time,the anxiety is GONE! I need to up my dose tho,I have been on only 5-10 mgs for almost a year,and I think I need 20mgs.
If your pysch isn't helping you,find one who will,this is an ordinary symptom of anxiety,and you're not crazy!

Sweetie,what you are going thru,is EXACTLY what I went thru years ago,it is CLASSIC anxiety,with abit of OCD thrown in.I remember reading a book about a serial killer,and thinking,What could ever make him do such a thing?Then I started thinking,my god,whats to keep me from going in the other room and hurting my daughter,or myself?I was HORRIFIED at these thoughts,and they were repetitive,and they took on all sorts of different forms.Realise that you are not crazy,its just that you have a chemical imbalance in your brain which causes this to happen.Serial killers and the like are diseased in mind,BIG difference!After suffering for 20 years,I finally went on paxil and most of the time,the anxiety is GONE! I need to up my dose tho,I have been on only 5-10 mgs for almost a year,and I think I need 20mgs.
If your pysch isn't helping you,find one who will,this is an ordinary symptom of anxiety,and you're not crazy!


glad to hear i'm not alone.
these thoughts are recurring, and i get upset when i see my mom for even THINKING these things!
i worry that i am going to go crazy :(
i want to go on meds if it will help me .. but i'm worried about all the side effects, and what will happen when i start to go off of them (addiction, withdrawal, etc)

i feel i have a hard time getting these things off my mind - it is practically always on my mind, and it gets me so down, because it bothers me so much to think of these things