mspence
10-08-2005, 08:08 PM
I'm 48yr. guy w/bulimia. Had this lousy condition for 16 yrs. Is tearing me up. In therapy trying to get a handle on this . My question-For many years I kept my wt. down while Bulimic.Still Bulimic but gaining wt.This is hurting my recovery. Have intense fear of being obese again. When eating properly,I still gain!Have I ruined my metabolism?Very frustrating. Also have major depression & alcoholism(4mon.sober)Medical attn. is a problem (no ins./cash) Feel like I'm losing it!Any input would be appreciated. Thanks, Mike
tired and angry
10-09-2005, 04:01 AM
Hey!
Im so sorry ur having such a hard time. I dont really know what to say coz im no expert at recovery but one thing i do kno is that when u do eat normally, yes there may seem to b a little weight gain at first but its just ur body adapting and if u stick with the eating normally ur body will adjust before u know it so it is only slight and only temporary. Also, when i eat normally i always feel like im soooo much heavier but really its just having to get used to having food in my stomach and letting it be digested. Just think to urself- the only way u can achieve a stable healthy weight is through eating properly. Like u said u may gain with bulimia - it controls u so take control back with sensible eating.
If u have managed to start overcoming the alcohol when u have all this to deal with then I KNOW u DO have it in u to recover. Just look at the quitting the drink as such a huge step and just slowly progress. U have already proven u have the will and strength to suceed!
Maybe, instead of only focusing on weight, write down all the ways in which ur life will b better when ur recovered and it may put the gaining issue into perspective a little. (I kno this is so hard even when u know it deep down).
Have u been to see a nutritionist?
Sorry i can't b much help really but keep posting coz the stories on here can b inspirational at times and everyone is always here to help and offer support along the way.
Suzanne
mspence
10-09-2005, 06:42 PM
I sure appreciate your response. You did help. I think your suggestion of writing down the good that would come w/ recovery is a great idea.It's hard for me because I have such low self-esteem I tend to be negative. I wish I could just eat when I need to & not drive myself crazy. The ED voice in my head has such a grip on me. Thanks again & I hope things are good in your world. Mike
