guys, im doing so good with the whole recovery thing. i gained like 10-15 pounds, i look normal, and, for the most part, im pretty happy with myself. however, my mother and two younger twin sisters are like so obsessed with fat and weight and such that they're driving me CRAZY. and i swear, my sisters hardly eat ever (they claim they're never hungry) and i honestly think one of them is losing a lot of weight. she was skinny to begin with tho (about 5'4.5" and 106 pounds!) and seeing her lose weight without anyone else mentioning it is causing me to become extremely jealous and spiteful. i feel like such a damn pig because ill come home from school HUNGRY like a normal freakin teenager and stuff my face and my sisters just stare at me and my ED brain makes me think that they're celebrating my weakness. tho knowing them, they probably really are.
not that my mom's any better. although she does eat like a normal person occasionally...ill give her that much. but then, take yesterday for instance. we ordered a couple of pizzas, i had 3 slices (they're a bit smaller and thinner then normal triangular pizza) and so did my mom. sisters, of course, didnt eat any. then my mom goes "oh god, now i have to go walking and i wont be able to eat anything for dinner". and then she sees me looking at the pizza and shes like "you're going to eat more? but you were doing so well" (as in with managing my weight and keeping it down). meanwhile 2 months ago i was too freakin skinny for her!. IM SICK OF ALL OF THEM! they frustrate me to tears and really make me want to go starve myself.
sorry, just needed to vent to people who understand better than anyone else would.

Hi,

I had much of the same situation when I was still living with my parents, or even when I visited them after I married. They all went on diets, and there was this sickening competition, my mother trying to fit into my clothes, my father refusing to eat anything but salad and shrimp and talking at the table all the time about how many calories were in foods.
Then, yeah, they got furious at me when I got very thin.
We don't get these EDs from nowhere, often I think it's in the family, and yes, they probably ARE jealous of you. Which is totally anti-recovery for you.
I guess, don't count on them for support, and try to get some counseling help to help you with what seems to me to be actually cruel words to you. They should be praising you.
I knew someone with bulimia whose mother was chronically bulimic and an at times, too. My friend finally just had to stay away from her mother's critical remarks altogether.

You're in a good place, they have problems.

Hoping this helps just a bit,

Seaturtle

thanks for your reply. ill guess ill just have to look elsewhere for support and help.