Well to start off my very best friend who i spent 5 out of seven days with has passed away. I have never cried so hard or as much in my life i actually felt my heart shatter. I spent the best of three weeks helping her elderly parents and husband sort through things offering support in everyway. Then once the funeral was over and everyone went back to their homes i fell into a hole but managed to keep on autopilot only my husband knew where i was.. after two weeks he advised me of his worry and that my family needs me. Thats great but ive still lost my friend. Tears flow in streams down my face and i am not angry just so very very sad that i cant have her to share my life with.. but you know on the other hand i know how truly blessed i have been to have her in my life. but i cant help crying for my loss.. Why is it all the special people get taken first? our birthdays are coming we were born a day apart and i just want to be with her. i cant share my feelings or thought with anyone cause i am sure they dont wont a blubbering idiot around so i wait till night time when everyone is asleep and cry cry cry.........
through the day unless i have to talk about her i am fine i just work work work. so to the land of the living Thankyou

I'm so sorry to hear about that..... how long ago did this happen?

She only passed away 2 months ago but everyday it feels like yesterday.

Greiving can take months, even years. But it does fade. I promise. As a 24 year old who has lost a dad and 2 brothers, I promise you it does. Not completely, But enough. I like you must just stay busy, busy busy to keep from falling apart, and that is ok, as long as you give yourself time to grieve. I remember when my brother Josh died reading a book, and one of it's chapters was,Your Life will go on. And as cliche as that seems, It is so true. You have to keep functioning day to day, You still have to be mom, and a wife, and do normal things like make dinner, Fold laundry, Take the kids to practice. And all these things will help you put this hard time into a much less tender spot in your memory, WHere instead of falling apart all the time, It's just when you hear that certain song, or see that special movie that reminds you of that someone. ANd then slowly all the things that make you cry cause they remind you, Some will start to make you laugh or smile, Cause the pain is not quite so sharp. It all just takes time. - Kelli

words of wisdom and of truth ..reality is harsh. grief is harder and life goes on.Does it make you stronger if you loose loved ones more often how do you cope? my best friend has been enough for me!!! normality must be like a black hole . thankyou to everyone for sharing and caring :angel: