doraluma
10-17-2005, 03:04 PM
someone explain to me
how is rectal bleeding and a rectal bulge obstrucing my whole rectum 'all in my head'
when they wont even examine me?
gp said my cervix was normal
but *for me* it wasnt
i have an abnormally high cervix. usuallky.
they use an extra long speculum and still have difficulty getting to it.
now, i can touch it with my finger.
that isnt normal for me
but gp said its normal
it also feels a different size and shape.
i am scared
maybe tomorrow i wake up and cant move my legs, or am blind, or incontinent.
gp's only see the psychiatric diagnosis. (hello???? isnt it possible that my med-unresponsive psych issues might be neurological?)
it gets worse each day
i complained to PALS
gp was sooooo apologetic and charming
he said i refuse to let him examine me
********
i asked him to and he wouldnt. he was rude and nasty and awkward.
but i cant prove that.
and iwth my psych history.....
not one of the gps i saw in the lst 3 weeks put my symptoms on the coputer file.
my registered gp didnt even have my notes availible when i saw himn for a scheduled app.
he denies this.
i have such a bulge in my rectum i cannot pass waste without pusing it back with a finger. and then there is blood and mucus.
no one will examine me.
'panic attack' i was told today
i think my uterus or rectum has prolapsed due to the random numbness and weakness i have experiebnced.
my bf is sbeing horrid.
says i should be admitted to the psych ward.
***?
doesnt the dsm say that you should rule out organic causes first?????
i am nt crazy
right now
i have been in the past
but these problems are real
and the BMA and NICE say a gp cant be prejudiced because of a medical condition.
but they are
they are
it seems psychiatry isnt counted as a medical condition.
PALS were on his side. they believed him. i cant prove otherwise. i didnt tape our app.
i feel so ill
i am bleeding and in pain and have numb spots and short of breath
and i give up
here
and now
my bf thinks i should be sectioned
my mother is in a competition. no one else can be ill. she is the victim and the ill one.
my step dad thinks its all in my head
i cant see a specialist without a gp referral
gp's wont refer me
they say i am malingering and my symptoims are unrelated
but i have read about alot of things, not least lupus ms and lyme and they could well be related
but id i sugest anything they get even more mad
frankly id be happy if i didnt wake up tomorrow
im fed up of being told i am crazy
when no one will even frigging examine me
tonight y bf has left me cos of my moodawings ad personality changes and lack of sexual response (its often numb down there)
family history of ms
last 3 weeks complained of intention tremor, vertigo, visual jerking, itching, pins and needles, numbness in various parts, dropping things, moodswings, joint and musclle pain, shooting pains, twitching, chest pain and heaviness, sudden urges to urinate and defecate, constipation, bulging in cervix and rectum, vginal numbness, rectal bleeding and mucus, short term memory problems and lapses, outbursts of rage that are totally uncharacteristic, difficulty understanding speech and much difficulty speaking. i can write what i think, but when i try to speak the words elude me.
im sorry
i think i am as low as it gets right now
my bf suggested i be admitted to a psych ward!!!!
but i have had psych probs. psychosis etc. and i always recognised it. and it doesnt feel anything like that.
how the hell am i faking rectal bleeding and obstruction?????
but thats what they tell me (withoiut examining me)
i contacted MIND but all they could suggest was contacting PALS
andPALS believe my gp not me
but honest to god i am not making this up. he didnt not offer to examine me. he was nasty to me. bitchy.
once he shouted at my mother so much she left in tears.
he hasz repeatedly misdiagnosed her.
but PALS told me if i change gp they will probably be nasty and ask why i changed surgery and agree with my old gp.
there are NICE guidelines on the treatment of psychiatrioc illness. but nothing at all on the discrimination in genral practice against people with psych dx.
its like people with psych problems shouldnt have physical problems.
even if i get refered to a neurologist, there is a nine month wait for urgent mri's.
i want to go private, but my gp insists its all in my head an wont refer me.
what am i supposed to do?????
everyday i get worse
i am losing 1lb a day now.
and have more problems
im starting to wish thy would lock me away and drug me into stupor.
then i wouldnt feel bad or know anything about it.
i know its odd, but my nails seem to be peeling away from the skibn of the nail bed
its painful
my bf is meant to be coming over tonight
but afger what he said, i dont think i want to see him.
another person who thinks i am insane.
*** for goodness sake... family history of ms, hello??????? ********
i dint know about that till i told my mother my symptoms and she told me
lots of adoptions in our family
xxxxx
i give up
xx
how is rectal bleeding and a rectal bulge obstrucing my whole rectum 'all in my head'
when they wont even examine me?
gp said my cervix was normal
but *for me* it wasnt
i have an abnormally high cervix. usuallky.
they use an extra long speculum and still have difficulty getting to it.
now, i can touch it with my finger.
that isnt normal for me
but gp said its normal
it also feels a different size and shape.
i am scared
maybe tomorrow i wake up and cant move my legs, or am blind, or incontinent.
gp's only see the psychiatric diagnosis. (hello???? isnt it possible that my med-unresponsive psych issues might be neurological?)
it gets worse each day
i complained to PALS
gp was sooooo apologetic and charming
he said i refuse to let him examine me
********
i asked him to and he wouldnt. he was rude and nasty and awkward.
but i cant prove that.
and iwth my psych history.....
not one of the gps i saw in the lst 3 weeks put my symptoms on the coputer file.
my registered gp didnt even have my notes availible when i saw himn for a scheduled app.
he denies this.
i have such a bulge in my rectum i cannot pass waste without pusing it back with a finger. and then there is blood and mucus.
no one will examine me.
'panic attack' i was told today
i think my uterus or rectum has prolapsed due to the random numbness and weakness i have experiebnced.
my bf is sbeing horrid.
says i should be admitted to the psych ward.
***?
doesnt the dsm say that you should rule out organic causes first?????
i am nt crazy
right now
i have been in the past
but these problems are real
and the BMA and NICE say a gp cant be prejudiced because of a medical condition.
but they are
they are
it seems psychiatry isnt counted as a medical condition.
PALS were on his side. they believed him. i cant prove otherwise. i didnt tape our app.
i feel so ill
i am bleeding and in pain and have numb spots and short of breath
and i give up
here
and now
my bf thinks i should be sectioned
my mother is in a competition. no one else can be ill. she is the victim and the ill one.
my step dad thinks its all in my head
i cant see a specialist without a gp referral
gp's wont refer me
they say i am malingering and my symptoims are unrelated
but i have read about alot of things, not least lupus ms and lyme and they could well be related
but id i sugest anything they get even more mad
frankly id be happy if i didnt wake up tomorrow
im fed up of being told i am crazy
when no one will even frigging examine me
tonight y bf has left me cos of my moodawings ad personality changes and lack of sexual response (its often numb down there)
family history of ms
last 3 weeks complained of intention tremor, vertigo, visual jerking, itching, pins and needles, numbness in various parts, dropping things, moodswings, joint and musclle pain, shooting pains, twitching, chest pain and heaviness, sudden urges to urinate and defecate, constipation, bulging in cervix and rectum, vginal numbness, rectal bleeding and mucus, short term memory problems and lapses, outbursts of rage that are totally uncharacteristic, difficulty understanding speech and much difficulty speaking. i can write what i think, but when i try to speak the words elude me.
im sorry
i think i am as low as it gets right now
my bf suggested i be admitted to a psych ward!!!!
but i have had psych probs. psychosis etc. and i always recognised it. and it doesnt feel anything like that.
how the hell am i faking rectal bleeding and obstruction?????
but thats what they tell me (withoiut examining me)
i contacted MIND but all they could suggest was contacting PALS
andPALS believe my gp not me
but honest to god i am not making this up. he didnt not offer to examine me. he was nasty to me. bitchy.
once he shouted at my mother so much she left in tears.
he hasz repeatedly misdiagnosed her.
but PALS told me if i change gp they will probably be nasty and ask why i changed surgery and agree with my old gp.
there are NICE guidelines on the treatment of psychiatrioc illness. but nothing at all on the discrimination in genral practice against people with psych dx.
its like people with psych problems shouldnt have physical problems.
even if i get refered to a neurologist, there is a nine month wait for urgent mri's.
i want to go private, but my gp insists its all in my head an wont refer me.
what am i supposed to do?????
everyday i get worse
i am losing 1lb a day now.
and have more problems
im starting to wish thy would lock me away and drug me into stupor.
then i wouldnt feel bad or know anything about it.
i know its odd, but my nails seem to be peeling away from the skibn of the nail bed
its painful
my bf is meant to be coming over tonight
but afger what he said, i dont think i want to see him.
another person who thinks i am insane.
*** for goodness sake... family history of ms, hello??????? ********
i dint know about that till i told my mother my symptoms and she told me
lots of adoptions in our family
xxxxx
i give up
xx