I Am So God**** Angry. I Just Want To Slam Something Into A Wall. God, I'm So Angry. I'm Tired Of Apologizing About Everything. I'm So God**** F***ed Up, They Need To Just Understand It And Move On....i'm So Tired Of Them!!!!

I understand you 100% I'm feeling much the same today, well actually being honest, I've felt like this for a few days now.
I'm fed up with making the hugest effort in the word to control my anger and frustration, only to get nothing in return from the people who I am contolling my anger for.
I have tried so hard...and for what? I litterally act like a stepford wife as far as my husband is conserned, he says something or does something to tick me off and instead of errupting like i used to do, I take many deep breaths, then speak calmly to him or let the whole thing slide altogether.
I've had enough now though. Why should I bother? I'm the only one who is even bothering to make an effort. To hell with it all. I had an easier time when i used to speak my mind and get angry.

Yes, I'm just so tired of it when people hurt my feelings then when I get angry with them, I get accused of being the one who did the wrong-doing! So I'm laying in my bed crying while they lecture me about how it is all MY fault, even though I'm the one who's feelings are hurt. I just feel so abandoned, so mentally abused....I don't know what to do!!! I feel like everyone's against me!!!

A lot of people just try to get you angry so they can feel better. And it's always someone else who may get a stir or two out of you, however, I believe most anger hovels in frustration. At one situation or two there is a problem, until you find the solution maybe get rid of whateve it is that upsets you then your free and it's probably what the Gods wanted anyway.

Yes! I have a HUGE need to speak up for my rights, but then I get labelled as "negative" or an agitator. People come to me because they know I will stand up for them, but then they back down and leave me swinging! When people are rude or totally inconsiderate - I'm the one that gets yelled at because I stand up to them. "You don't have to get angry!" Even in a store, the sales clerks can be jerks, but I'm the one that gets told off. Right now, my ex husband is sending me e-mails because he thinks he is the victim in his relationship w/our kids. He's blaming me for all kinds of things and I'm so mad I can't see straight. I'm hoping that I can calm down and say just the right thing to p*** him off, but usually when I get mad I cry. Boy, does that really lose the position. I haven't been able to "let it go" - I guess I need to know that I'm right. I want them to know it too!

My problem is I've been pushed around my whole life and I've "let things go," my whole life. I'm so tired of letting people walk all over me, I'm tired of letting people make me feel like crap. I'm just tired of it all, and I'm not going to let this happen anymore. I've put up with this crap my whole life and I'm tired of being treated so badly, all it does is build up and make me feel like dying. I've tried to kill myself several times because I need to "control" my emotions, and quite frankly I'm tired of it. I don't know I'm just tired of it!!!!

Gee Dark Angel 28 and others posting here I so understand your feelings. I too feel so hurt when I feel Im the one who cares bUT thats it...because your feeling angry and hurt its because you are a caring sensitive person or you be on the otherside like them ,the hurters....Life and dealing with people can be so frustrating but you know what ,YOUR learning to be stronger with this anger..there is an underlying issue when we feel trodden on or that we show we care and do the right thing but others see it differently and choose to tread on us. Its a learning point so go with it BUT not the suicide part because then your letting these people that anger you win,DONT do this...you win in the long run by feeling hurt and anger because from this you grow........Im not into god but Im into whats right and wrong in life and I get so P***** off also from how others ,even our politicans can be so uncaring.. I dont understand some people and Im buggered if Im going to try and understand people who have no feelings...they are the loses in the long run,remember this...For me I have learnt through anger and hurt from others how to teach my kids not feel so hurt.To be stronger but caring so I have used my anger to heal the future ,I hope as I could have rebellious teenage boys but they having a caring mum and they will go out caring also...but they expect the hurt now which I was never taught from my parents....goodluck to you all...debbieoxxxc

I Am So God**** Angry. I Just Want To Slam Something Into A Wall. God, I'm So Angry. I'm Tired Of Apologizing About Everything. I'm So God**** F***ed Up, They Need To Just Understand It And Move On....i'm So Tired Of Them!!!!

OK, I'm a little confused....who is "them"? And why do YOU apologize for everything?

DarkAngel

iam so sorry that this is happing to you,have you ever sat down with who ever you are upset with and told them that your feelings are hurt ,don't yell ,don't take their wrong doings ,you are now crying in your room they have won you backed down .tell them what you see them doing put it back in there lap.and walk away.don't yell don't cry just tell them what you see and feel .
CJ



AND Lola51

sounds like your ex- husband likes to play game with you he knows you will get bad so he plays mind games with you that is called a controler men like to do that,trun the tables on him play the game with him ,he is blaming what he has done on you learn to play the game.when he knows that nothing is going to get under your skin he will stop play with your head,been there done that ,iam a great game player now lol.

CJ