Oh geez well this just isnt going so great, its like.. all i can think of is food and what im going to eat and what im not going to eat and if ive been good or if ive not, walk past the mirror so many times and each time i do i swear if got bigger its so stupid cos i cant of! i no i cant of but for sum stupid reason.. its funny, well not funny but its odd how looking in the mirror and steping on the scales determins my mood for the entire day i can look in the mirror after i get up and am dressed and showered etc and think oh yeah im ok and then 5 minutes later i see a reflection of myself and go oh GROSS :S and thats it, my days turned to crap, i get moody and shout alot and argh.. i was going to throw away the diet pills but i didnt i thought well i just tuck them away and the first day was ok and then i dunno i just felt so paniked like if i dont have them i WILL put on weight and i dont want to i want to be healthy but i wont be if i just pile it on so i did i panicked and got out the creidt card and orderd more cos in end i ran out and now what am i gunna do? take them or not? waste of money i dont have :( theres got to be an upside sumwhere.. sorry

WHY are you SORRY!?!?!
Hi, I'm Lynn..... :)

You have no reason to be sorry. ED gets the best of most of us. and you sound like your on the right path, you wanted to throw away your pills but didn't because your head got ahold of you.

Have you considered talking to someone? A Thearapist? Your doc?
Are you on any kind of antidepressant? it may help you.

I don't know your past, I don't know you, however, I've been dealing with ED for the past 12 years, i'm 29 now. And after being in 7 hopsitals, I've found that having the right anti-depressant to level my own head has helped greatly. Not cured, but just made life easier to manage.

Sorry if i've offended, if so not intenionally and my apologies. But I just think it would be good to talk to someone. everyone needs help, especially when they don't want it is when they need it the most, that sux huh? :)

i applaud you for trying to throw away your pills because that though was there! wehter you did or didn't, well, was up to you.....no, not you...ED. Ed sux. if you want to be helped, then maybe you should look outside yourself and talk to a doc, any doc.

hope this was ok....

Lynn