Ok, I need to vent. My life is a mess.
I have a husband, but does he understand? NO! he thinks I am an idiot. All my probs are coz of me.
I feel like i want to hit something, but what?
acording to him..its my fault.
I'm at the end of my teather

Time to take control of your life...your not an idiot and should not be subject to verbal abuse. Close relationships are about supporting each other, loving, lifting and helping your mate to reach new heights. :)