I am typing this hoping I'd get someone to listen and understand me. It seems like there is never anyone around me when I need them. Today is not a nice day for me at work and my personal life as well. I feel overwhelmed. All week, I deal with childish co-workers, who seem to have not outgrown their infantile behavior while family-wise, I am looked at to support my sister and her baby even if I no longer live with them and my parents. I feel like everywhere I go, there is nothing good. All I do is work and take care of people. Sometimes I like doing that, but there are days I just want to scream. It makes me feel as though I am here to understand others and help others, while there is no one out there to help or understand me. Everybody is tied up with something while some choose to disregard my feelings and only make me feel worst. This is terrible. Everdy day I think how nice it would be to share some of my thoughts and to find even one person who would actually listen and understand me for being me. I suffer from depression and I guess that makes it harder from others outside to actually emphatize with me or they are too busy to deal with me. There are so many things bothering and causing me to feel that empty hole. I know most of you know what I mean. I know I cannot change other people; but how do you deal with not having anyone to actually talk to about your concerns or your issues, no matter how little or big it is? How do you deal with people who are so narrow-minded about so many things? How do I go on if I have no one to talk to? What do you do? I am so tired.

Hi and welcome to the board :wave:

Sorry to hear you are going through a rough time right now. I found this board when I felt I had no one to talk to either. We may all have different issues and problems but we do have at least one thing in common. There are a lot of really supportive folks here, always ready to listen and offer support. It helps knowing that there are other people who do understand.

It sounds like you have a lot of responsibilities. Are you taking care of yourself? You said you were so tired.

Good luck and let us know how you are doing.

Marcia
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Hi Marcia. I appreciate your post.

I am so tired because I have myself to take care of (I work a lot to support myself bec. no one else will) plus other people who are probably not able to support themselves right now. My so called family just won't be there when something happens to me so I have no choice but to do all I can to survive. Now my sister who lives with my parents just got here where my parents and me reside. While I live on my own, she and her baby are with my parents. Sometimes I get jealous coz at least she does not have to worry so much about a lot of things. I take care of her as far as giving her transportation and baby stuff. I do this because I think it is good to help out but there are days when I just could not understand the way things are. I can never talk to anyone. When I am feeling the cycle of depression, the more I get depressed because no one else understands. Sometimes I stay inside for days because I am so tired of the same old thing. Some say just do other things, or to snap out of it. Wow, words of wisdom there, like I did not know that. Or sometimes, they'd choose not to listen and change the topic. Sigh. I am seriously hurt by all these and wish I could just severe all my connections to them. It is all one way. I am there when they need me, but never there when I need them. My problem is when I feel so alone like these, I do things I would not normally do-- sleep around or obsess about someone. But I want to stop that. I am finding that difficult because I am so afraid of isolation and I do not know how to be in control of my emotions. All I want is to be understood. With the way things are, it seems like that will never happen. I want to know, how do you deal with things just as is? To not have that expectation from the others and yet live a functional life? I don't know if I sound like a mess in here. Expressing myself has not been my best talent unfortunately. I just wanted to vent.

Hi tillwemeetagain,
My question is where do you live?
If you are in Australia, you can ask your GP for a referral to a counsellor that bulk bills. There is also a seperate system in place now under which a GP can refer you on to a variety of treatments deemed to 'for the better health' of a patient.
I too suffered depression and like yourself (and so many others) put everyone else before me. The hardest part is learning to say 'no'.
Speaking to your GP is the best start, and a referral to a counsellor will assist.
I think sometimes when you are suffering like you are, people tell you what they think you need to hear/what they would do in your shoes etc....but when you see a counsellor, they will give you their undivided attention for the duration of your visit. They don't judge and will offer some practical solutions (or at least strategies) to help you resolve some of the issues.
Best of Luck,
Myshy