Hi. I'm new to this board, but hopefully I can recieve some help from someone somwhere.
I am 19, I have suffered from Bulimia Nervosa for 3 years, and I feel that I have exhausted eveything in trying to help myself stop.
I have been prescribed fluoxetine (sp?) which is a anti-depressant (Prozac). This did absolutely nothing for me, and I was also not forewarned about the side affects of these types of medications. By chance, when in the library one time, I came across a book about Prozac, and other similar drugs. I randomly opened it and started reading, and became engrossed in it. There are SO MANY messed up side effects that these drugs have, and I was so shocked and worried, that I immediately stopped taking them (which isn't advised, you're meant to come off them slowly, but I was on a low dosage at the time). I am really anti-chemical anyway, and medicine is the last resort for me.
I've also (and am still currently) having 'therapy' weekly. Once a week, I see a lady who specialise's in this field. Some times she gives me written excercises t complete, sometimes she gives me things to think about for the next time we meet, etc.
I've even got a documentary that I'd video'd, that was recently shown on TV in england on channel two: Bingers; Battling Bulimia. Where mother (Bulimic for 28 years) and Daughter (Bulimic for 3 years) showed you the real side of bulimia.
At first it made me wake up a little, and I managed to stay straight for 3 days, but then the weekend came...and I hate weekends, from a Bulimic P.O.V. that is. And the weekend time ruined eveything. Then although I picked myself back up on the Monday, I started slowly slipping back, and am once again in full-flowing Bulimic state.
I have a LOT of food intolerances, and so when I overeat, I do it with things that i am intolerant too. Resulting in physical problems aswell as the usual emotional ones. Wheat especailly, has not only a physical side-effect (extreme bloating, upset stomach, extreme lethargy, etc) but them emontional/mental ones that it gives me are overwhelming; Extreme depression; to the point of contemplating suicide and near suicides. Lack of motivation, extremely short temper along with sarcasm, easily aggravated, lack of will power, and a general lack of will to live or do anything.

I reaploy feel that It is becoming unbearable, and I don't know how muhc longer I will survive at this rate.
Can somebody please help me, or suggest anything that might help? even the smallest things, or things that you feel insignificant, as it may make the whole world of difference to me.
Thankyou for your time.

Tattooed xox

Hey!

I am in a bit of a rush but just wanna say wellcome to the boards. Posting on here is one thing you can do to vent when u feel stressed out or desperate and everybody can empathise with you. Sharing your thoughts on here can b a big release and the support u get from others on here is great. Anyway, there are many many more things and you WILL find a way out of this and I will have to post again later but for now, i just wanna say not to lose hope and that I am here. I know what u are goin through- believe me! Im there too so I dont have all the answers but Ill try and help u as much as i can. Ur not on ur own with this and the fact that u are trying all those possibilities and seeing a therapist shows u have guts and the will to recover, thats what it takes and u have it!!

Keep posting

Suzanne
xxx

Hi. I'm new to this board, but hopefully I can recieve some help from someone somwhere.
I am 19, I have suffered from Bulimia Nervosa for 3 years, and I feel that I have exhausted eveything in trying to help myself stop.
I have been prescribed fluoxetine (sp?) which is a anti-depressant (Prozac). This did absolutely nothing for me, and I was also not forewarned about the side affects of these types of medications. By chance, when in the library one time, I came across a book about Prozac, and other similar drugs. I randomly opened it and started reading, and became engrossed in it. There are SO MANY messed up side effects that these drugs have, and I was so shocked and worried, that I immediately stopped taking them (which isn't advised, you're meant to come off them slowly, but I was on a low dosage at the time). I am really anti-chemical anyway, and medicine is the last resort for me.
I've also (and am still currently) having 'therapy' weekly. Once a week, I see a lady who specialise's in this field. Some times she gives me written excercises t complete, sometimes she gives me things to think about for the next time we meet, etc.
I've even got a documentary that I'd video'd, that was recently shown on TV in england on channel two: Bingers; Battling Bulimia. Where mother (Bulimic for 28 years) and Daughter (Bulimic for 3 years) showed you the real side of bulimia.
At first it made me wake up a little, and I managed to stay straight for 3 days, but then the weekend came...and I hate weekends, from a Bulimic P.O.V. that is. And the weekend time ruined eveything. Then although I picked myself back up on the Monday, I started slowly slipping back, and am once again in full-flowing Bulimic state.
I have a LOT of food intolerances, and so when I overeat, I do it with things that i am intolerant too. Resulting in physical problems aswell as the usual emotional ones. Wheat especailly, has not only a physical side-effect (extreme bloating, upset stomach, extreme lethargy, etc) but them emontional/mental ones that it gives me are overwhelming; Extreme depression; to the point of contemplating suicide and near suicides. Lack of motivation, extremely short temper along with sarcasm, easily aggravated, lack of will power, and a general lack of will to live or do anything.

I reaploy feel that It is becoming unbearable, and I don't know how muhc longer I will survive at this rate.
Can somebody please help me, or suggest anything that might help? even the smallest things, or things that you feel insignificant, as it may make the whole world of difference to me.
Thankyou for your time.

Tattooed xox

First of all: Prozac can cause many of the symptoms you are decribing, including suicidal thoughts, anger, irritation extreme depression, ext. How long have you been off of it?? If you just stopped recently you could be going through withdrawls. I went through effexor withdrawl and it was sheer hell, although not as bad as the experience of being on effexor.

I have been bulimic for nine years, and have had dark days where I was almost suicidal also; mostly I just thought of death all the time. But you have to HOLD ON- to life;to hope; if you are seriously suicidal, please seek help asap.

Please write back more, I and others would be happy to chat with you.

Thanks for the replies.
Tired_and_angry, you said a lot of things that made sense. Thanks :)
And NatashaW, I have been off prozac for nearly a year. The depression and feeling suicidal is due to my food allergies. Ones of the side affects to wheat is depression. I have felt better that last few days, things have felt a tad more in my control, and I hope it continues enuugh for it to get better. thanks a lot for you posts and help :)
xoxox

Thanks for the replies.
Tired_and_angry, you said a lot of things that made sense. Thanks :)
And NatashaW, I have been off prozac for nearly a year. The depression and feeling suicidal is due to my food allergies. Ones of the side affects to wheat is depression. I have felt better that last few days, things have felt a tad more in my control, and I hope it continues enuugh for it to get better. thanks a lot for you posts and help :)
xoxox


I had no idea that a food (wheate) allergy could cause depression. Thanks for teaching me something new today. I read that lots of people have food allergies they are unaware of. Have you talked to a nutritionist, or maybe one that deals with organic foods/cooking? Is it hard to "avoid" wheat, seeing as it is in so many products??

NatashaW;
It' snot that hard to avoid wheat, well it wasn't before bulimia. Once you get used to it. Thing is, i'm also allergic/intolerant to the alternatives to wheat! I have spoken to a nutritionist who was aware of my disorder etc. And I have to take protein pills etc.
Here's a list of my allergies and intolerances, just to get you in the picture a bit more;
Wheat
Gluten
Barley
Maize
Rye
Oats
Corn
Millet
Buckwheat
Sago
Tapioca
ALL GRAINS (except for rice, but I hate rice)
Starch
Malt (including malt extract and malt flavourings)
Yeast
Chickpeas
Lentils
Soya
Soy
Tofu
Beans
Legumes (except garden peas)
Strawberries
ALL Nuts
ALL Pulses
ALL Seeds; (including;)
Hemp
Flax
Sunflower
Pumpkin etc etc (I'm sure you get the jist)
Cocoa
Caffine
Monosodium Glutumate (MSG - Flavour enhancer)
Orange Colouring.....
The list goes on.

Also I refrain frm eating ANY animal or produce of, and I do so through own choice, for animal rights.

So I'm pretty limited! But being bulimic, I don't always steer clear of foods that i'm intolerant too. But I do keep away from the meat and produce of animals etc

Oh my goodness!!

How terrible! I can't imagine one person being allergic to so many things! I didn't even know it was possible. You must not even be able to eat in a restraunt?? Did you always have these allergies? Do you have an allergic reaction if you eat any of those foods, or just digestive disturbances, things like that? (I can't imagine being allergic to coco..I would die without chocolate. Even if I was, I would still eat it during a binge because it is my #1 binge food).