Well, I really don't hate, the actual holiday, but I hate all the candy that I buy and all the candy that I eat. I seriously watched myself throw 15 candy wrappers away last night,(then scooping them up out of the garbage, and throwing them in a different trash, so my husband wouldn't suspect my binge) I watched them go down into the garbage...I felt the candy into my stomach,...I could feel every ounce of the candy just sitting in my stomach as guilt poked and poked into my thoughts, until I was consumed with regret. But the thing is...I cannot stop myself from going to the cupboard and taking one more piece of candy. I know my stomach will hurt, and I know I will regret eating it, but I cannot stop..it's like I am in a trance. Maybe it's not just the candy...I find myself taking a piece of candy, eating that....looking in the fridge, eating food out of there,...going back to the candy-all in a trance. Then I wake up. It's then that I face reality of what I just did, how much I ate, and the regret that sits and suddenly reveals itself. I hate waking up, and feeling the way I do. Does anyone else feel the same way, or go through these feelings during the holidays? I am scared of Thanksgiving and Christmas....it shouldn't be this way.
Novblis

oh baby, i know what you're talking about! those tiny candies are a killer! you just eat "one more" and "one more" till you've had 20 and you feel like you're gonna barf.

my advice: GET RID OF THEM. seriously. i used to keep them around because i didn't want to be "weak" and not be able to have the little chocolates, etc. in the house, until i realized how stupid i was being. it's not like i'm some average person who feels bad cuz she always eats too many candies and she wants to stick to her diet. i am someone with anorexia with serious binge eating problems and having them in the house was just stupid. i would binge on them nearly everyday, no matter how hard i tried not to. so yeah, dump them. if anyone asks, say you brought them to work cuz everyone was bringing treats, whatever. it's really not worth it to keep them in the house. good luck!

ps - now that i've gotten my binging more under control, i can and do have the little chocolates in the house. so don't worry, it's not forever!! it's just to help you get over the hump!

i agree. get rid of 'em. don't convince yourself you can resist them, of justify keeping them by telling yourself it would be a waste of money to get rid of them (i hear that excuse a lot from bingers and bulimics, but is it really a worse use of money than cramming yourself full of them and being miserable?). just make them GONE.