Hi everyone

Just decided to register today after a lot of thinking about it..

I'm not sure what I really want to say just yet but a little bit about me.

I'm 30, had BN since I was about 15. Tried the old AD's but they didn't do anything for me so gave them up, tried counselling - didn't prove successful either.

I'm not getting any better but I guess I'm not getting any worse.. :confused:

Hope to get to know you all a bit :)

Hey!
Good call. You have certainly come to the right place! Im 19, a student and just starting a treatment programme for my bulimia...things are really really not going well at the moment so I need lots of friends on here too! Anyway, I hope to chat to u more but right now i gtg write my essay!!!

Suzanne
xxx

hey angel, welcome on and i'm glad you've decided to come here. you'll find tons of girls of all different ages with all different issues, and i find it's really awesome to know that you're not at all alone with this stuff. for me, that's what has helped the most. this site and these girls motivated me to be brave enough to get help (i've been anorexic for a little over 2 years, but in the last year i've developed this terrible binge eating problem, so i'm tackeling both in therapy right now). anyway, this is a great place to vent, ask questions, get advice, laugh (i remember when i found out i wasn't the only one who had dug food out of the garbage to binge on! lol! sometimes it's so refreshing to just laugh at yourself.)

well, just wanted to say hi and let you know that i'm always here to talk. let me know a little bit more about yourself. like how are you doing right now?

talk to you soon!

Hi everyone

Just decided to register today after a lot of thinking about it..

I'm not sure what I really want to say just yet but a little bit about me.

I'm 30, had BN since I was about 15. Tried the old AD's but they didn't do anything for me so gave them up, tried counselling - didn't prove successful either.

I'm not getting any better but I guess I'm not getting any worse.. :confused:

Hope to get to know you all a bit :)

Welcome :) :)
I am a nine year bulimic in search of recovery.
I think you will find we are all welcoming here, and you are free to discuss most anything with us.
Would like to know more about you!! Write back

Hi everyone :wave:

Wow, how sweet you all are!!

More about me. Erm, well.

I'm not really sure what turned me into a bulemic. I can only ever remember always being the biggest girl in school (or felt like it!) and desperate to do something about it. I went through the anorexic phase, one slice of toast and an apple a day. Didn't work so changed to binge eating and purging.

Guess it's not helped either! I'm still over weight!

I got to the depths of despair with it last year, I weighed the least I had done in year and was finally that dream size 10/12 but still so unhappy. Friends I made on the WW board convinced me to get help so I went to the doctors. So traumatic. The initial assessment was awful.

The doc said he couldn't see why I had a problem, diagnosed me as bulemic, anorexic and body dismorphic. Gave me ad's and said i'd hear from someone.

Finally got to see an outpatient doc who said there was only one way and that was to stop bingeing and making myself sick.. I knew that!! :rolleyes:

Then onto a counsellor they sent me. Unfortunately I found it too difficult to deal with. All the usual questions about my childhood came up and I just felt like a naught school kid having to account for every morsel I ate and everything I did. I called it a day back in March time. She asked me to contact her again in 6 months to a year...

But, here is me, still bulemic, now 30, married to a guy who has no idea and couldn't cope if he did know.

Pretty grim really!!

Oh - and yes! I have also been through the trash to find something to binge on!!! How low can life get sometimes!! :eek:

I sounds like you have not had very good help!!
I can't say that therapy has ever helped me...but it sounds like you didn't even get the chance to see if it would help because of your sub-standard medical care. A really good doc or an eating disorder specialist would not never say "I don't see why you have a problem" and they would NOT act like bulimia is no big deal! And they would definitely not just prescribe you AD's and send you out the door. AD's are poison to some people (me!) and the person needs to be monitored carefully. Have you ever been to a place that only treats eating disoders??
Honestly, I don't see how you husband could not know that you are throwing up. I am sure he has heard you vomiting or seen you go into the bathroom after eating. Lots of time families are just in denial,or afraid to say anything.
Do you throw up everything you eat?? Throw up every day?? I personally go from not throwing up for 3 days,or a week, or 2 weeks, or a month, and then I go back to throwing up every day. Scared to death of dying of heart failure, although I had an EKG recently and everything was OK (knock on wood). I make sure I drink a glass of OJ after each binge to get potassium.

I have had ONe major health problem I never expected to get: Chronic Fatigue syndrome. I know my years of binging and restriciting caused it. I got mono, couldn't get over it, and now I am so tired all the time I hardly do anything. I feel like hell, and bulimia makes me feel worse, but throwing up and food is my only coping mechanism. I wonder if I ever will get well. :eek:

sounds like you ran into a bunch of people who weren't helpful...
how about trying again?
There are many many people out in the world who do not understand ED's, do not want to or even worse cannot stand people who have them.
About therapy - well they do talk about it all, including the childhood because we develop patterns and habits early in life that lead us to certain things, like eating disorders. And we do feel naughy, that is called shame, eating disorders are very shameful. It sounds like that counselor/therapist wasn't truly aware of the full extent of your ED.
Just a few thoughts from someone who at 14 started with ED and at 43 is still hanging out with it. I have only been getting serious ED help for about 1 year and believe me it is a long hard road to travel but no worse than where I have been with ED. INcluding, throwing up into a plastic grocery bag when the water was turned off at my house for a day b/c I HAD to purge, similiar to eating out of the trash. I can't say I know anything about bingeing, eating normal and purging, or restricting and purging that I know more about that I want to most days....