I have been suffering from anxiety/panic disorders for 11 years and i cant do it anymore.Have been on many meds,currently on valum,paxil,topomax and ativan,which control my symptoms as long as I dont face certian social settings.
Have been to therapists,councellors,psycologists and am currently on my 2nd psychiatrist,I feel soo hopeless. I now also suffer from clinical depression and have to fight to get out of bed every morning.My days are spent curled up in a ball hopeing noone calls or comes to my house,I don't want to associate with anyone anymore I am just tired.
I managed to be able to hold a job through this but recently the company downsized and was layed off now I am faced with a nightmare of job interviews and a whole new enviroment.I had an interview and had an anxiety attack soo bad that I had to call and cancell it.I got phsically sick just thinking about it,couldnt sleep,chronic diahrea,pounding heart,shaking etc.
I dont cant live like this anymore.I hate the way the medication makes me feel,if I increase it then I am unable to function with the brain fog and drowsiness.I want to work,that was the last thing I had through all of this that made me feel like I had a chance of being somewhat normal.
I just exist now,take up space.I am drowning and I cant tread water for much longer,I dont see a rescue boat coming for me,how I wish I would be rescued from this cold hell I have been living the last 11 years.
This pain is unbearable.

how many milligrams of paxil are you on? also, how old are you, are you female maybe going through hormonal changes? i would like to know these answers and write you back

to soo sad
sounds like the paxil isnt working at all, this sometimes does happen, maybe try at a higher dose
its a pity the professionals havent been of help to you but that doesnt mean you cant get better, its been my long experience that these people are usually surprisingly bad at actually helping, they seem to lose interent once having made a diagnosis

I am on 60mg of paxil a day.I just turned 31.My attacks started when I was 20.

ok, more questions:

are you on regular paxil? and have you had hormones and thyroid checked?

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yes I am on regular paxil.Had everything checked cant find anything wrong.Just had another round of blood work done in the summer.

Soo sad.....There's nothing physically wrong with you. You know it's all in your head for lack of better words. You control your thoughts. Nothing will change until you decide to change it. Hang on, hang on, hang on.

i know how you feel. even before my hysterectomy i had panic attacks, but worse afterwards. taking estrace(hormone) and paxil have helped a whole lot but so has keeping faith in god, prayer, self help books, and the determination this is not going to end my life. i have heard of people taking more than 60mg, how long have you taken it? sometimes if we learn to except things, it gets easier. i know now i can sometimes have the panicky feelings and it still feels awful, but i am not going to let it get me! i wish i could give you a hug right now. but i will pray for you, trust me.

ajs
:angel:

also, look at the menopause board, there are ALOT of people on there going through the same thing! i know your young, but i was about 28 when mine started. are there any group therapy meetings in your area?