I miss so many of you that I used to talk with. I have been so caught up in playing out my eating disorder that I have had little time to come and see how you are doing.
Anyway, I think of you all every day. I send you much love and many hugs, and hope that you will continue to fight your eds. Life is precious, especially all of your lives.
H xoxo

:wave: We will think of you too.

Hey!! i second that!! how are you doing? hope all is relatively good
Suzanne xxx

Well.... this is a recovery board... so ... my therapy part of recovery is going well I think, although it is hurting like hell. But when it comes to actually giving up my eating disorder... not as well. I think I NEED it too much to let go. As a result my health is deteriorating again.
Do you ever feel like you are running in circles, that is how I feel.
Anyway, keep fighting. It is the only choice we have, never give in and let it steal your life.
With love, H xoxo

Hey Aurora!
Ive been absent from the board from a while- I guess u could say Im drifting in and out of this place once again. Im glad the therapy is going not too bad, although I can understand that it's a painful time for you. And, I definitely feel like weight etc is a whole huge circle- going through phases, thinking you're doing alright, having a rubbish time...it's annoying when you've been round it for years and years!

But...Im sending you all the good luck and best wishes in the worldx

Love
Caroline

Hey Aurora!
I'm really glad to see you back! It's been a long time. I'm glad the therapy part is going well too. I hear ya about having a hard time deciding if you want to give up your ED. It becomes a part of you and giving it up is absolutely terrifying. Where would we be without it? I know that we would all be a lot of places, and most of them good. But that doesn't mean we don't think it would be the end of the world as we know it.
I know that I do a lot of fighting with myself because there's a part of me that wants to give it up more than anything in the world but the other part of me is terrified because I don't know what that would mean if I did. Would I lose all control over everything? Yet I don't want to let go of one of the things that makes me most miserable. God it's an awful cycle and I can completely relate to what you're saying!
When you said "do you ever feel like you're running in circles?" I nodded wholeheartedly! I was just saying that to my therapist yesterday. How I feel like a hamster in one of those wheels and no matter how fast or slow I go I just keep going around and around and making myself dizzy and nuts. How it's really hard to figure out how to get out of the wheel without completely falling on my face and not getting back up.
Well, hang in there and I'm really glad to see you back. Just keep working at it and like you said don't give up.

Take care
Lauren

Been missing you, too, Aur. Have been worried about you! Happy to hear that the therapy is going well, but you DO get to talk about your ED here, you know! Keeping it to yourself, not venting when you need to, just isn't good, dear. Very worried about your health, Aur, and praying for the day when you will realize you don't need your ED. You keep fighting, too...hear?

Megahugs, my friend.

Char :wave:

aurora, i remember you from way back...i wish you the best of luck with everything.

Hey Aurora,

I have missed you so much since I haven't been on the boards. It sounds as though you are getting better, however slowly, and it's great that you are sticking with the therapy. I was too chicken to go - cancelled the appointment - so I'm really glad you found the strength to stick with it. I'm sure it's worth it once you've found the courage to go. Continue the fight darling because the alternative doesn't bear thinking about. Many, many big hugs are being sent your way!

Has anyone seen Sumi around? I'm guessing the baby is due/has been born? If you're there Sumi, let us know how you are :)

It's good to see some of the old faces on here and to hear how you're all doing. I wish you all the best of luck with your own battles, I want so badly for no one to have to suffer like we do...

Love and hugs to you all,

J*L xxx