Hi everyone,I need to tell you my whole story i have been trying to taper off hydrocodone for the last 2 weeks and it was going good for the first week, the only problem is my fiance is taking them too and he has been taking 120mg a day and he won't taper with me so it's been very difficult for me. I have gotten down to 5 a day and can't seem to get past that. I'm still trying though i guess i should just try jumping off them but it is so difficult when he doesn't support me. :rolleyes:
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Hi Phil, I'm taking the 10mg pills, I'm at 50mg right now and about 5 minutes ago my fiance came home from work and asked me for some more pills and i got really mad at him i said how do you expect me to try and taper when you won't. I told him he was in denial about his pill addiction. He gets 150 pills a month and i get 240 pills a month from our Dr. He gets them for his back pain and i get them for pancreatitis and kidney stones. But i know both of us are just abusing them and the amount we get every month still isn't enough we always run out way before we are supposed to. I am trying so hard to get him to stop them with me but he won't do it until he is ready all the complaining in the world isn't going to do anything until he is ready to quit so i don't know what to do from here.
Pam :confused:

What's more importnat your recovery or him? You might have to face this issue if he won't join your recovery attempt. Ultimatly though you have to do this for yourself and on your own. It will do you no good trying to change him and/or blaming him. It's up to you!

Out of curiosity, what does he say he thinks about your attempt to start tapering? And how did he respond when you told him he was making it difficult for you? Is he totally against it or do you think he is just dragging his feet a little? I agree with everyone else that it is going to be very difficult for you to stick to your plan when someone that close to you is still using on a regular basis. I don't think it would be impossible, but definitely more difficult. I know it would be for me!

I agree with Phil. We go to any legnths to feed our addiction..we must be willing to also go to any legnth to stop. I'm not sure it can be done if there is a constant supply. It definitely plays a role. To be successful I had to cut off my sources and cut anyone out of my life that wasn't ready to accept and support my decision.

I know it sounds tough. But when you get sick and tired of feeling sick and tired you'll do whatever it takes. You sound like you really want to stop. I know the situation is making it much much harder.

Hey Pamela20, :wave:

I'm in total agree with the others post. You need to take care of you. You can't save your fiancee. We as addicts can't even save ourselves. But with the help of others, you can go down the right path. I too was living with my boyfriend (of 8 years) who wasn't willing to get off drugs with me. I tried and tried for many, many months. But I was sinking deeper and deeper into hell. I finally had to make that choice - me or him. I left him over 80 days ago. I'm living with friends, while he continues to live in MY house. We are currently in the legal process to get him out. I can tell you if you continue to try to taper and get off drugs while in the home with him, it will only become a bigger issue, bigger fight/argument with every passing day. In my humble opinion, it will

Addiction is a nightmare. Recovery is work. I work everyday day to stay clean and have been happier in this last month or so than I have been in many years. I have many good days mixed in with a bad day here and there. Life does't change, problems still exist. It's how we deal with them that has to change. Many here live with lifelong pain issues which is very hard for addicts. We want the pain to go away. That pain may be physical or it may be mental.

You need the support of family, non-using friends and recovering addicts. I encourage you to seek out help. The 12 step program works well for many. It works because we've all been exactly where you are. And many of us are exactly where you want to be. Reach out for help. This board is a great source of support, but there's nothing like face to face support. I have to run for now, but will check back in later tonight. Hope you have a good day.