tired and angry
11-07-2005, 07:51 PM
Hey guys,
dunno the purpose of this post exactly but just sitting here feeling very rubbish and need to rant. Tomorrow I am starting on Prozac and a course of antibiotics, the following day I am going home for my grandfathers funeral. He was run over last week by a man who should not have had a licence because he only has tunnel vision and even now he is refusing to hand over his licence! I am the only one of his 17 grandchildren who is not back home yet. My eating is just at an all time worst and now i also have a throat infection which i need to sort out coz im supposed to b singing at the funeral. Because of the eating being bad and just starting therapy, i was already behind on work. Now i have missed a whole load of deadlines and classes. This is just the very very basic outline of my crap week. Other than that, there have been problem with friends too. I just feel so so miserable, confused and hopeless and I really dont know what to do or who to turn to. I turned to alcohol at the weekend but took it way too far and to cut a long story short, ended up passing out and it went downhill from there. At least I actually did sth though...havnt been out at all lately...but i know that drinkin was NOT a good idea. I feel so alone annd desperate. I never envisaged this all happening ever. Its like people know im having a bad time but i dont think anyone can really see how bad. Like i said, dont know what this is for really but just need to say it.
:confused:
Suzanne
xxx
dunno the purpose of this post exactly but just sitting here feeling very rubbish and need to rant. Tomorrow I am starting on Prozac and a course of antibiotics, the following day I am going home for my grandfathers funeral. He was run over last week by a man who should not have had a licence because he only has tunnel vision and even now he is refusing to hand over his licence! I am the only one of his 17 grandchildren who is not back home yet. My eating is just at an all time worst and now i also have a throat infection which i need to sort out coz im supposed to b singing at the funeral. Because of the eating being bad and just starting therapy, i was already behind on work. Now i have missed a whole load of deadlines and classes. This is just the very very basic outline of my crap week. Other than that, there have been problem with friends too. I just feel so so miserable, confused and hopeless and I really dont know what to do or who to turn to. I turned to alcohol at the weekend but took it way too far and to cut a long story short, ended up passing out and it went downhill from there. At least I actually did sth though...havnt been out at all lately...but i know that drinkin was NOT a good idea. I feel so alone annd desperate. I never envisaged this all happening ever. Its like people know im having a bad time but i dont think anyone can really see how bad. Like i said, dont know what this is for really but just need to say it.
:confused:
Suzanne
xxx