giiiii21
11-08-2005, 07:08 PM
Hi,
All my life i've been really skinny and i been teased all the time at highschool for being like a matchstick!! And i always wanted to gain weight but never could.. and in winter and sometimes summer i'll wear like 4 paids of stockings to look fatter and like 2 jumpers etc.
But then when i was a freshman at college and i was having bad acne and so the dr put me on Diane 35 and it raised my appetitite so i kept eating and stuff. The dr told me one of side effects is you gain weight... (i was actually happy to hear that) but then when I gained like 5lbs i freaked out enormously!! Isn't that weird??
And then i began to starve myself etc eat little. And then i became bulimic.. always binging and purging and gettin depressed etc.. I have recovered from that. But now i'm on a diet which is no carbs, no fat, only fish or lil chicken, and mostly veggies and fruits. I aint too bad in my eating disorder as i am 5'4 and weigh 94lbs. Like now i am so obssessed about food and what i eat, I can't stop thinking about it. I have a set time for lunch or fruit time etc.. its just so hard to deal with.. but i can't help it. If i don't do that then i feel like i'm losing control and i'll get depressed about it and constantly think about it. Is there any medicationss to help ease my mind with this stupid eating disorder~????
**its causing so many problems!! I don't go out much because i'm scared friends are going to eat at like some italian resturant etc.. so i try to avoid that** and when there's a party on, i'll eat no dinner so i can drink alcohol (as it has alot of calories)** AND my SKIN IS GETTIN outta control!! cystic acneeee!!! ARGHHH...................just so depressing!! Is anyone in a similar situation like me~???????????
All my life i've been really skinny and i been teased all the time at highschool for being like a matchstick!! And i always wanted to gain weight but never could.. and in winter and sometimes summer i'll wear like 4 paids of stockings to look fatter and like 2 jumpers etc.
But then when i was a freshman at college and i was having bad acne and so the dr put me on Diane 35 and it raised my appetitite so i kept eating and stuff. The dr told me one of side effects is you gain weight... (i was actually happy to hear that) but then when I gained like 5lbs i freaked out enormously!! Isn't that weird??
And then i began to starve myself etc eat little. And then i became bulimic.. always binging and purging and gettin depressed etc.. I have recovered from that. But now i'm on a diet which is no carbs, no fat, only fish or lil chicken, and mostly veggies and fruits. I aint too bad in my eating disorder as i am 5'4 and weigh 94lbs. Like now i am so obssessed about food and what i eat, I can't stop thinking about it. I have a set time for lunch or fruit time etc.. its just so hard to deal with.. but i can't help it. If i don't do that then i feel like i'm losing control and i'll get depressed about it and constantly think about it. Is there any medicationss to help ease my mind with this stupid eating disorder~????
**its causing so many problems!! I don't go out much because i'm scared friends are going to eat at like some italian resturant etc.. so i try to avoid that** and when there's a party on, i'll eat no dinner so i can drink alcohol (as it has alot of calories)** AND my SKIN IS GETTIN outta control!! cystic acneeee!!! ARGHHH...................just so depressing!! Is anyone in a similar situation like me~???????????