I'm so sick of having an eating disorder!! I hate thinking about food and constantly plan what i am going to eat for the week etc.. I'm 5'4 and weigh 94lbs. I only eat low calorie foods and i'm so sick of it. But i can't seem to allow myself to eat more. I'll feel so guilty and think about it all day and night and get all depressed about it thinking i'll gain weight from the couple of sultanas i ate etc.. its so stupid i know.

When people tell me to eat something i'll pretend i ate and if they keep provoking me i'll get really angry. And when my parents buy like junk food i'll get peed off and tell them how bad they are etc... i just want to be like a normal person who's carefreeee and sometimes allow myself a treat!! ARGHHH....

I'm clinically depressed and really want to overcome this thinking that skinny is best!! I love the looks of the new nicole richie and hilary duff etc.. i know that i'm thin/thinner as them butt its really taking a toll on my life!!

Please post your eating disorders and if you have overcome them.. please teach me how you did!!

**I'M SO SICK OF LVING THIS WAY**I NO LONGER WANT TO SUFFER**

It is really great to see someone in a similar sitation as me. I hope all goes well for you. Goodluck!

Personally (and I know you won't see it this way!), Nicole Ritchie looks like she should be in a hospital because she is so thin. She looked sexy before she lost the weight; now she looks sickly, and not sexy at all. Also, remember that she also has/had a drug addiction!! And if that is part of the reason why she lost weight, you don't want to go there!
It is also important to remember that celebrities have PERSONAL TRAINERS and COOKS and a lot them eat only organic foods. So many stars are healthily thin because of their diet. You can mainitain a healthy weight if you eat correctly. I know your frustration! I have been bulimic for years. Starvation does not created a "pretty" or "sexy" thinness....that is just part of the illness. Have you ever talked to a nutritionist?? How about trying a new healthy diet?? Organic foods, foods in their natural state?? Are you in therpay?

Hi, thanks for your reply!!

Well i am not in therapy, i am trying to overcome it by myself and with the help of my family. But i think you're right, a therapist is probably needed!! I'm just so sick of this thinking of food and my obsession with restricting food etc.. I aint bulimic anymore, i don't binge or purge, i just restrict food. I've been on a 800 calorie a day diet for 9months now. I eat the same foods everyday, its bad iknow.. i'm trying to fix it. I mostly eat vegatables/fruits and rice and little bit of chicken and fish here and there. And i have cereal in the morning (no fat soy milk) so it isn't a total crash diet...

I'm just getting to the point where i know i should eat more portions but my brain juss won't allow me! If i eat more than 800 cals i'll obsess about it and get depressed!! Do you know if there is medications for these things??

Thanks!!

Hi, thanks for your reply!!

Well i am not in therapy, i am trying to overcome it by myself and with the help of my family. But i think you're right, a therapist is probably needed!! I'm just so sick of this thinking of food and my obsession with restricting food etc.. I aint bulimic anymore, i don't binge or purge, i just restrict food. I've been on a 800 calorie a day diet for 9months now. I eat the same foods everyday, its bad iknow.. i'm trying to fix it. I mostly eat vegatables/fruits and rice and little bit of chicken and fish here and there. And i have cereal in the morning (no fat soy milk) so it isn't a total crash diet...

I'm just getting to the point where i know i should eat more portions but my brain juss won't allow me! If i eat more than 800 cals i'll obsess about it and get depressed!! Do you know if there is medications for these things??

Thanks!!

I'm on Prozac (40 mgs.) it seems to work pretty well, but I also see a therapist that specializes in eating disorders. It's very important to see someone with knowledge about it. I'm not sure, but I think mine used to be or still might be somewhat anorexic. It's like she knows exactly how I feel. It's amazing.

Hey again

Honestly, I am 99.9% sure that if you only upped you calories to 1,000 a day you will either gain no weight or gain less than 2 lbs. Remember how many calories it takes to gain a lb of fat? A LOT! 1,000 is still a little low but it isn't outrageously low and many times I eat about 1,000 a day. Why not try and and see how it goes?? A couple extra hundred calories might actually make you a lot healthier. Make them healthy calories, some protein or yogurt or sting cheese, ect. And congrats on beating the bulimia part..I am on day 5 of bulimia-free and am hoping to atleast make it to 30 days this time. (of course I want to completely stop, but that thought it scary...) How did you beat it??

Thanks for your replies girls!~

Yes i think you're right, i will try to eat 1000 calories a day and try and not to get depressed about it!! -.-

Well with my bulmia.. i used to bingee alott!! just couldn't seem to stop and then i'll take like 50 laxatives a day!! (not joking) it was so bad, my heart will be all funny and felt like it was beating out of my body!! I'll throw up occasionally i mainly purged by abusing laxatives!

Well i went to the drs and they weighed me etc (i never weigh myself, as my parents won't allow me to have a scale..) and i gained weight from what i normally was. So all this purging i was doing (which i thought helped) was making me gain more weight. So eventually about a month after it took greattttt will power not to binge on foods! and so i juss started eating only healthy low calorie foods and after couple months later my appetite just shrunk and i didn't crave for junk food!

Congrats on you trying to beat your bulmia!! =) Its hard at first but you will overcome it hopefulli!! I have to try and overcome this killlerr of an eating disorder too!!

I'm on Prozac (40 mgs.) it seems to work pretty well, but I also see a therapist that specializes in eating disorders. It's very important to see someone with knowledge about it. I'm not sure, but I think mine used to be or still might be somewhat anorexic. It's like she knows exactly how I feel. It's amazing.

Hi kittywitty,

So prozac helps? Did it make you gain weight? like if it did make you gain weight... you didn't obsess about this little weight gain right since you were on prozac??

Thanks~ =)

I can feel your pain - sometimes I get so mad at myself for not being able to just eat like a normal person and not think about it/obsess over it/control it. However I have come so far -- I was SEVERE anorexic (down to low 80's and i'm about 5'5") and had to go inpatient. Since then I have been working w/ a nutritionist and therapist - both specialize in ED. I highly recommend getting help. I know very few people, actually none that I know, who beat this on their own. You need help, and NO their goal is not to make you fatten up so don't be afraid of them. About eating... PLEASE eat more. I promise it is worth it. If you don't, odds are you will start binging b/c your body can only restrict for so long. I was anorexic in high school, never got help, and one day got so fed up I decided to start eating. Well w/ no guidance, that turned into compulsively binging. At first it seemed healthy - I was underweight and suddenly wanted a lot of food... but I gained a TON of weight. Well this time I decided to get help. Inpatient, I gained about 17 lbs. They have you drink tons of weight gain shakes on top of a normal meal plan. Since being out, that was over a year and a half ago, I have been eating from around 1300 a day (when I'm not doing well) to up to 1800 a day now... and I have stayed that same weight - around 100 lbs. I'm so much happier, have more energy, have my personality back, look better, have fun doing things I used to enjoy, love to be with friends, I'm able to eat at restaurants, I feel so much more in touch with my body.... trust me I would NOT trade where I'm at now to where I was before. I had no idea I could eat this way and still be skinny. Not concentration camp skinny, but still really skinny. I'm trying to make myself gain a couple of pounds to try and get my period back - I'm about 4 lbs away from where I need to be and believe me the ED voice is scared of those 4 lbs... but I'm trying. I'm continuing to eat about 1700 a day. I will probalby have to go up a little more to get those 4 lbs -- 1700 kind of makes me maintain around 100 lbs. The bottom line is, trust me you can eat. You will not blow up. Eat balanced meals, and a couple of snacks. Start doing it mechanically - i.e. set a goal and a meal plan and stick to it no matter what. Typical meals might be a normal portion of cereal w/ milk for b-fast, a sandwich with turkey and cheese on it for lunch, 1/2 c cottage cheese for snack, chicken and a roll and veggies w/ cheese for dinner, and toast with peanut butter for a p.m. snack.... just to give you some ideas of things that are healthy and will give you good energy and be so good for your body.
Let me knwo what you think... trust me it is so much better once you start eating!!! It's still scary and I still think about it and I will NEVER let myself get fat... but it's SOOOOOO much better than it used to be. I have a "normal" life with friends and fun and energy and hobbies that aren't counting calories and planning meals.

Hi kittywitty,

So prozac helps? Did it make you gain weight? like if it did make you gain weight... you didn't obsess about this little weight gain right since you were on prozac??

Thanks~ =)

No, it hasn't made me gain weight, thank God. The day it starts packing the pounds on me, I'll definitely go off it. I'm terrified of gaining weight. I used to be heavier (175 lbs. at my height) and I lost a bunch of weight that truly needed to come off. But it soon became an obsession to lose more. When I was deep into it, I was 120 lbs. and dropping very quickly. All I could see was my stomach sticking out and I was determined to get it flat, even if that meant that the rest of me would be flat, too. I was seriously undereating and overexercising. At that time, I was on 30 mgs. of prozac. Things got a lot better with the increase to 40, but of course I still struggle. I'm currently at a healthy weight, but, like you, I don't eat that much. I'm afraid that if I do, that I'll gain back the weight and then some and be totally out of control and bigger than ever. Prozac helps me to a certain point, but it's by no means a cure all. It's important as I said before to see a therapist with a specialty in ED's. It's difficult to try to pull yourself out of it on your own because you've got this constant negative voice contradicting your every thought. Even though I'm at a healthy weight (5'7 130-135 lbs.), I still have major body image issues. I constantly obsess about my body, mostly my stomach. I've been anorexic and bulimic since before puberty and I'm 35 now.

I can feel your pain - sometimes I get so mad at myself for not being able to just eat like a normal person and not think about it/obsess over it/control it. However I have come so far -- I was SEVERE anorexic (down to low 80's and i'm about 5'5") and had to go inpatient. Since then I have been working w/ a nutritionist and therapist - both specialize in ED. I highly recommend getting help. I know very few people, actually none that I know, who beat this on their own. You need help, and NO their goal is not to make you fatten up so don't be afraid of them. About eating... PLEASE eat more. I promise it is worth it. If you don't, odds are you will start binging b/c your body can only restrict for so long. I was anorexic in high school, never got help, and one day got so fed up I decided to start eating. Well w/ no guidance, that turned into compulsively binging. At first it seemed healthy - I was underweight and suddenly wanted a lot of food... but I gained a TON of weight. Well this time I decided to get help. Inpatient, I gained about 17 lbs. They have you drink tons of weight gain shakes on top of a normal meal plan. Since being out, that was over a year and a half ago, I have been eating from around 1300 a day (when I'm not doing well) to up to 1800 a day now... and I have stayed that same weight - around 100 lbs. I'm so much happier, have more energy, have my personality back, look better, have fun doing things I used to enjoy, love to be with friends, I'm able to eat at restaurants, I feel so much more in touch with my body.... trust me I would NOT trade where I'm at now to where I was before. I had no idea I could eat this way and still be skinny. Not concentration camp skinny, but still really skinny. I'm trying to make myself gain a couple of pounds to try and get my period back - I'm about 4 lbs away from where I need to be and believe me the ED voice is scared of those 4 lbs... but I'm trying. I'm continuing to eat about 1700 a day. I will probalby have to go up a little more to get those 4 lbs -- 1700 kind of makes me maintain around 100 lbs. The bottom line is, trust me you can eat. You will not blow up. Eat balanced meals, and a couple of snacks. Start doing it mechanically - i.e. set a goal and a meal plan and stick to it no matter what. Typical meals might be a normal portion of cereal w/ milk for b-fast, a sandwich with turkey and cheese on it for lunch, 1/2 c cottage cheese for snack, chicken and a roll and veggies w/ cheese for dinner, and toast with peanut butter for a p.m. snack.... just to give you some ideas of things that are healthy and will give you good energy and be so good for your body.
Let me knwo what you think... trust me it is so much better once you start eating!!! It's still scary and I still think about it and I will NEVER let myself get fat... but it's SOOOOOO much better than it used to be. I have a "normal" life with friends and fun and energy and hobbies that aren't counting calories and planning meals.

Thanks so much for your reply!! All your replies guys thank you!! it has given me alot of hope for the future!! At the moment i am so miserable!! I have lost alot of friends because of my issues as i don't like to go out and hang out and eat etc... because they love eating and drinking etc... and i always try to avoid this and make up excuses!! I'm only 21 and i should be having the time of my life right now, but i'm always hybernating at home!! It sucks big time!!! And because of this eating disorder my skin has gonee terrribly OUT OF CONTROL!!! big painful cystic acnes!! and so that gets me depressed too!! did you have any skin issues aswell?? If so, what did you do?

Eating 1800 cals a day would be the day i would be happi because i'll be eating foods i love etc.. but atm i am so afraid to eat that much!! Like today i saw some people and they all were telling me i have gotten so skinnnny etc.. like they were saying it in a sort of disappointed kind of way, but i was happy inside.. like i feel i accomplished something and want to go further.. man...... it sucks having major body image issues!!

Its weird though you know.. in primary/highschool i was always teased of being so skinny and looking like a matchstick etc.. and i always wanted to gain weight but couldn't. In winter i'll wear like 4 stockings to look fatter and 2 jumpers etc.. but then once i went to uni, i gained like 7lbs and then i freakkkked out big time.. and just wanted to loseee ittt when all my life i wanted to gain weight.. its weird rite???... i don't get it myself!!

Now all i think about is fooooood and the calories it containssss... its just mentally so tiring!! I konw i need a therapist but they cost alot of $$ rite?? at the moment im kind of short in that department so i don't know...

For how long have you had an eating disorder??

Thanks so much for your long reply!! it gives me hope!

No, it hasn't made me gain weight, thank God. The day it starts packing the pounds on me, I'll definitely go off it. I'm terrified of gaining weight. I used to be heavier (175 lbs. at my height) and I lost a bunch of weight that truly needed to come off. But it soon became an obsession to lose more. When I was deep into it, I was 120 lbs. and dropping very quickly. All I could see was my stomach sticking out and I was determined to get it flat, even if that meant that the rest of me would be flat, too. I was seriously undereating and overexercising. At that time, I was on 30 mgs. of prozac. Things got a lot better with the increase to 40, but of course I still struggle. I'm currently at a healthy weight, but, like you, I don't eat that much. I'm afraid that if I do, that I'll gain back the weight and then some and be totally out of control and bigger than ever. Prozac helps me to a certain point, but it's by no means a cure all. It's important as I said before to see a therapist with a specialty in ED's. It's difficult to try to pull yourself out of it on your own because you've got this constant negative voice contradicting your every thought. Even though I'm at a healthy weight (5'7 130-135 lbs.), I still have major body image issues. I constantly obsess about my body, mostly my stomach. I've been anorexic and bulimic since before puberty and I'm 35 now.

Thanks for your reply!!

I'm 21 years old and its scary to hear that your 35 and going through this and have been going through it all your life! This whole body issue is such an evil thingg!!! i wish people weren't so judgemental in this world! but i guess for us women its all in our heads but still can't seem to help it!!

What exactly does prozac do? does it like relax and calm your mind or somehting?? I want to try to beat this drug free so i guess a therapist will help but i have major anxiety and i'm very obsessive compulsive aswell but never really went to a dr to discuss these issues as i am a pretty private person (except on the internet as it is anonymous). I always feel like people are watching me in a bad way.. like its stupid.. even on the train when i'm getting off, i feel like everyone is looking at me funny and i'll get all tensed up!! its so stupid i feel like i'm living my life in fear!! It sucks!!

But it helps alot that there are people who are like me, that are so paranoid with their weight and stuff!!

hi... to answer your question i have had an e.d. of some sort or another since about 9th grade (i'm 24 now) so 10 years. that's why i say get help. b/c i'm finally getting through it b/c i've been getting help for 1 1/2 years now. it has been a miracle. my long e.d. story short is that i was always really scrawny growing up, then i put on like 10 lbs at puberty and freaked out (i never wanted to grow up/wear a bra/shave my legs/all the other things girls look forward to) and i became really obsessive and perfectionistic about my eating - extreme "health conscious" well that took over and i dropped pretty low weight and basically isolated/no life stage of anorexia but not really on death's door that time (i was mid 90 lbs) then i kind of snapped and decided to start eating again b/c i was sick of feeling the way i felt - so melancholy/no energy/something was off in my life, well instead of eating balanced i got out of control and started binging - that went on for like 2 years and i gained a bunch of weight (b/c i was binging - that does not happen if you eat normally! i just want you to know that! and binging is not eating a whole sandwich and some pretzels - binging is like LARGE amounts of food... i don't want you to freak out b/c right now your perception of normal amounts of food is probably off) that lasted like i said for 2 years, i was depressed and miserable the whole time, and slowly regained control of my eating, starting losing weight again. i was at what others said was a great weight for me for a brief time, but then graduated college and got more obsessive about it. and anorexia hit me HARD again this time (just a note - i've never been bulimic) i got really REALLY bad. had to be in treatment. i mean it was bad. i looked like a skeleton, i had no energy, no life, i was miserable, i was pushed away from my family/my friends. nothing made me happy. it was a struggle to get through every day yet i couldn't stop what i was doing. it was awful. i could go on for hours about how awful living like that is, but i'm preaching to the choir. i got down to the low 80's. i went inpatient b/c i knew i needed help and knew i couldn't do it on my own. i highly recommend that as a jump start to getting better. i was in there for 1 1/2 months - got up to like 100 lbs there. i've been out for 1 1/2 years and still in therapy and doing SO MUCH BETTER. just to give you a glipmse of some of the stuff i've done this week that i would have never been able to do ---- i went out to dinner w/ friends tuesday night and had a blast - laughed and was really happy!! i feel close to people again. yesterday i had lunch with some co-workers, again that was so much fun to be able to be in that setting and think about what we're doing - chatting, etc and not about the food so much! this weekend i'm going out of town on a road trip with some friends. i'm taking a photography class now b/c i have ENERGY to be creative again.
about the therapy - it does cost money. are you a student? b/c your college probably has free therapy. if not insurance? or maybe there are local groups???? if not... keep coming to these boards every day!!!!!!! at least that's something.
oh and just so you don't freak out about gaining a ton of weight - like i said i eat like 1700 a day now. yesterday i had cottage cheese and a pita for b-fast; a turkey sandwich w/ cheese and a couple bites of stuffing for lunch; a cottage cheese for snack (i love cottage cheese!); a good sized pita stuffed w/ chicken and cheese and tomato slices for dinner and a little cauliflower; and 1/2 bagel with a good amount of peanut butter and cream cheese for night snack. and i still wear a 0. i just don't look SICKLY anymore.

GOOD LUCK. i know it's so much easier said than done. trust me it's never going to feel "okay" when you get started. you will always hate it and feel like you're doing the wrong thing when you change your ways. but just tell yourself - give it like 2 weeks. and if you hate where you're at in 2 weeks, you can go back. but if you've opened up your life a little bit and you're not this huge fat person that you fear you will become overnight, then maybe you'll keep trying. just take baby steps :)

Thanks for your reply!!

I'm 21 years old and its scary to hear that your 35 and going through this and have been going through it all your life! This whole body issue is such an evil thingg!!! i wish people weren't so judgemental in this world! but i guess for us women its all in our heads but still can't seem to help it!!

What exactly does prozac do? does it like relax and calm your mind or somehting?? I want to try to beat this drug free so i guess a therapist will help but i have major anxiety and i'm very obsessive compulsive aswell but never really went to a dr to discuss these issues as i am a pretty private person (except on the internet as it is anonymous). I always feel like people are watching me in a bad way.. like its stupid.. even on the train when i'm getting off, i feel like everyone is looking at me funny and i'll get all tensed up!! its so stupid i feel like i'm living my life in fear!! It sucks!!

But it helps alot that there are people who are like me, that are so paranoid with their weight and stuff!!

Yeah, it's been pretty rough for me. I'm just now starting to deal with the ed's because I've had a lot of other things on my plate (so to speak) in my life that had to be dealt with first. BTW, you may be able to find a therapist that can offer you a reduced fee. I only pay $30/session for mine. She normally charges $150.

I noticed in one of your previous posts that you said at one point you couldn't gain weight. I used to be like that as a child. For example, I weighed only 70 lbs. at age 11. I ate a ton, but could not gain weight to save my life. People teased me, too. My brother's friend called me, 'lizard legs'. Others called me, 'Olive Oil', etc. I really wanted to gain weight, but at the same time, I'd look at pictures of myself back then and say to myself, 'I'm fat'. Then I actually started to gain weight around 12 or 13. That's probably when the ed's really got going. Even though, looking back, I think I was still underweight. I got really upset about gaining and started obsessing and undereating bad.

Anyway, about the prozac, yeah, it does help to calm you down and helps to lift depression. It also helps me to not obsess so much about my body. I'm ocd as well. I also have anxiety, social anxiety, and severe depression. I don't blame you one bit for wanting to be drug free. If I could I would. I hate prescriptions. I've been on so many in the last eight years. I'm very sensitive to side effects, so you name it, and I've probably experienced it. I told my husband that if this craps out, I'm going to the vitamin store. No more scripts for me.

Thanks guys for your great long replies~!!!

It helps so much that there are people who actually understand my situation!! My family don't understand it at all... they just keep saying i'm so skinny eat.. etc.. and bring on this lecture about people starving in the world and things (which i know compared to my stupid situation is nothing even 1% close to what they are going through)... but when you have eating disorder that doesn't really register and so i get angry and then they'll leave me alone.. well i just found out that i have bipolar + obsessive compulsive disorder and so i think i'm going to start on meds.. and maybe that will help in relaxing my mind about food... Last night i felt so alonee... i was just crying for no reason and then all these images of food came into my head (sounds funny rite..) like all the foods i haven't eaten for so longg yett want to so badlli!!!.. I'm still in perfect control of my food intake but i somehow get the feeling that if i allow myself to touch like 1 'bad' food (like a peanut) then i'll go nuts and eat the whole thing... I feel like i'm starting to lose control in my head.. like mentally.. yet physcially i am in control at the moment..

Like 2 years ago i was in similar sitation except i ate heaps less then, but ate bad foods high in GI so i was always hungry. Now i'm not so hungry but i eat low calories.. anywayz 2 yrs ago after that.. i was bulimic! and now i'm afraid if i stop eating the way i have (same foods everyday) that i am going to loseeee control like before!! So i don't know what to do!

Kittywitty: Did prozac help you to not binge eat? I'm thinking to take this medication called 'topamax' which is for bipolar disorder but i read that it helps with people with bulimia and makes you lose weight. Do you know anything about this drug? I seriously feel sooner or later i'm going to start binging because i've been in this starvation mode for so longgg...

Like rew7632 said.. i guess therapy is needed!! Last night my emotions were out of control.. i wanted to cut myself (but do not have the courage to cut deep) so i juss cut a little on the surface to feel that tingling feeling and then i was calm again. I'm socially non existent.. i don't go out much.. because im afraid of what they'll eat.. and if i feel fat on the day i won't go out.. and then my acnee has gone so badd because of major hormonal imbalance! I get my period like everyday 2 weeks (but like little blood).. i have to go get my results for my blood test but it seems like i mite have polycistic ovarian disease... did you guys have this or still do?? Its common right.. for people with eating disorders to have this??

Thanks so much again for your replies!!~ Its good to know there is people here to listen!! =)

Kittywitty: Did prozac help you to not binge eat? I'm thinking to take this medication called 'topamax' which is for bipolar disorder but i read that it helps with people with bulimia and makes you lose weight. Do you know anything about this drug? I seriously feel sooner or later i'm going to start binging because i've been in this starvation mode for so longgg...

Like rew7632 said.. i guess therapy is needed!! Last night my emotions were out of control.. i wanted to cut myself (but do not have the courage to cut deep) so i juss cut a little on the surface to feel that tingling feeling and then i was calm again. I'm socially non existent.. i don't go out much.. because im afraid of what they'll eat.. and if i feel fat on the day i won't go out.. and then my acnee has gone so badd because of major hormonal imbalance! I get my period like everyday 2 weeks (but like little blood).. i have to go get my results for my blood test but it seems like i mite have polycistic ovarian disease... did you guys have this or still do?? Its common right.. for people with eating disorders to have this??

Thanks so much again for your replies!!~ Its good to know there is people here to listen!! =)

Prozac helps alot of the time. Tonight, however, was a bad night. I binged on brownies, then I went out to play pool with my husband. I thought drinking some water and 'peeing out the bloat' might make me feel better. Instead, I felt worse. I went to the bathroom twice while we were there to purge, but both times people came in. I told my husband that I really wanted to purge. He basically knew why I went to the bathroom, anyway. When we got home, he said he didn't want me to keep feeling bad, and to go ahead and do it if it would make me feel better. He would really rather I not do it, though. Of course, I told him that I couldn't do it while he was there, and that it's a secret. He said he'd put headphones on so he wouldn't hear me and told me I could run the water. I didn't do it, I couldn't. It's a private thing that has to be done in private. Anyway, that was about an hour ago. The bloat is going away and I'm feeling better, thankfully. Regarding the topamax, I always thought that was for seizures. That's what my best friend's mother took it for. She lost a lot of weight and had little to no appetite. Since you're already skinny, I really don't think that would be a good idea.