FuzzySlippers
11-28-2005, 07:34 PM
Good Evening Everyone,
I found this sight last night and read a lot of your posts. I have battled depression since I was 16, almost 20 years. Sometimes I've had therapy combined with meds, sometimes just meds and sometimes I've just dealt with it and pulled myself out of my dark place.
My current situation is that I'm single, live alone with my dog and have only 1 friend that I would even consider telling this to but she is going through her own personal drama right now and I want to give her some space to deal with it. My son lives with his father and we have never been close. My step mom and I, whom I have considered my mother since I was 16, haven't spoken since the beginning of the year. My dad,who means the world to me, would be very upset if he knew how badly I've been depressed and for how long. I don't want to put him through that again.
This current depression started as a "situational" depression last summer. I found a lump in my breast and didn't have health insurance. Then I was hit with 2 hurricanes. Then the holidays came, which were not that great anyway, not to mention the huge cloud hanging over me. I finally got insurance at the beginning of the year and it took over 3 months to get the final diagnosis. I was fine but the damage had been done. I was in a full blown depression. I was also having an extremely stressful time at work and considered quitting my job and moving out of state with no money and no home to go to. I just wanted to run away.
Today I took my first dose of Wellbutrin. It wasn't prescribed for my depression. It was prescribed because I wanted to quit smoking. Forget quitting - I need to get myself straightened out again. I'm really scared about the potential side effects and haven't told anyone I started it.
Because I am so isolated and I don't want to burden my dad or my friend at this point, I was looking for a safe place to come and share my experience and my daily thoughts with a group of people who would understand what it means to be in the midst of this beast and to possibly offer some support of my own.
Thanks for reading and hope to hear from someone,
Fuzzy
I found this sight last night and read a lot of your posts. I have battled depression since I was 16, almost 20 years. Sometimes I've had therapy combined with meds, sometimes just meds and sometimes I've just dealt with it and pulled myself out of my dark place.
My current situation is that I'm single, live alone with my dog and have only 1 friend that I would even consider telling this to but she is going through her own personal drama right now and I want to give her some space to deal with it. My son lives with his father and we have never been close. My step mom and I, whom I have considered my mother since I was 16, haven't spoken since the beginning of the year. My dad,who means the world to me, would be very upset if he knew how badly I've been depressed and for how long. I don't want to put him through that again.
This current depression started as a "situational" depression last summer. I found a lump in my breast and didn't have health insurance. Then I was hit with 2 hurricanes. Then the holidays came, which were not that great anyway, not to mention the huge cloud hanging over me. I finally got insurance at the beginning of the year and it took over 3 months to get the final diagnosis. I was fine but the damage had been done. I was in a full blown depression. I was also having an extremely stressful time at work and considered quitting my job and moving out of state with no money and no home to go to. I just wanted to run away.
Today I took my first dose of Wellbutrin. It wasn't prescribed for my depression. It was prescribed because I wanted to quit smoking. Forget quitting - I need to get myself straightened out again. I'm really scared about the potential side effects and haven't told anyone I started it.
Because I am so isolated and I don't want to burden my dad or my friend at this point, I was looking for a safe place to come and share my experience and my daily thoughts with a group of people who would understand what it means to be in the midst of this beast and to possibly offer some support of my own.
Thanks for reading and hope to hear from someone,
Fuzzy