threethings
11-29-2005, 11:32 PM
Ok...I responded to a post a little while ago with some comments but I thought i'd just directly come out and ask! :)
All through school I was considered disruptive, fidgety, etc. I talked non stop, never sat still, had a hard time doing projects ahead of time (did them all the night before they were due), had problems taking exams (every time I read the questions....they would never "sink in"), and the list goes on. Well, now i'm in my 30s and I still have odd habits. I constantly over analyze, over think, and over react. My brain always feel like it's a whirlwind. My body often feels like it's going crazy inside. It causes anxiety and ends up interfering with my relationships (esp intimate). I've become self conscious of it, I'm paranoid of getting hurt, etc etc. I always feel like the root cause is my constant thinking which seems to be caused by hyperactivity! Does any of this sound familiar to anyone else out there? I'm looking for a counselor for the first time in my life. I feel I need help controlling it as I sabotage and ruin every relationship I'm in (not friendships...those I have PLENTY of). Any ideas if this is possible ADD? I'm trying to figure out what kind of counseling I need. :confused:
All through school I was considered disruptive, fidgety, etc. I talked non stop, never sat still, had a hard time doing projects ahead of time (did them all the night before they were due), had problems taking exams (every time I read the questions....they would never "sink in"), and the list goes on. Well, now i'm in my 30s and I still have odd habits. I constantly over analyze, over think, and over react. My brain always feel like it's a whirlwind. My body often feels like it's going crazy inside. It causes anxiety and ends up interfering with my relationships (esp intimate). I've become self conscious of it, I'm paranoid of getting hurt, etc etc. I always feel like the root cause is my constant thinking which seems to be caused by hyperactivity! Does any of this sound familiar to anyone else out there? I'm looking for a counselor for the first time in my life. I feel I need help controlling it as I sabotage and ruin every relationship I'm in (not friendships...those I have PLENTY of). Any ideas if this is possible ADD? I'm trying to figure out what kind of counseling I need. :confused:
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seriousperson
11-30-2005, 05:21 AM
It's good that you're seeking help now, rather than in your 40's or 50's like me.
It does sound as if ADHD is a component of what is troubling you. Often there are several conditions that contribute to one another. For instance, you mentioned anxiety.
Don't you hate it when you have decided not to talk too much, and then you get home and realize you went on and on, unable to stop, with the next words trying to camoflage the idiocy of your last remarks?
Well, maybe that's not how it is for you, but it sounds like you experience life a lot like I do.
Keep pursuing answers, I am.
It does sound as if ADHD is a component of what is troubling you. Often there are several conditions that contribute to one another. For instance, you mentioned anxiety.
Don't you hate it when you have decided not to talk too much, and then you get home and realize you went on and on, unable to stop, with the next words trying to camoflage the idiocy of your last remarks?
Well, maybe that's not how it is for you, but it sounds like you experience life a lot like I do.
Keep pursuing answers, I am.
threethings
11-30-2005, 08:09 AM
Uh oh. Haha. Yes! I always say that I "like to hear myself talk" because I ramble on sometimes. It's very strange. Yak yak yak yak.
I also forgot to mention that I am unable to organize. I look at my house....it has slight clutter....and I feel it's a mess. Problem is, I attempt to get started on organizing it / putting things away and I have no idea where to begin. I go around in circles. I go from one room to the next.
The other issue....I can't organize thoughts a lot. It screws up my decision making. Sometimes it takes me forever just to decide if I want to buy something. That's what is really screwing up my relationships. I just broke it off with someone and I am going back and forth in a vicious cylce of "what's right....what do I want". Ugh. This is really getting to me at this age. I become a little obssesive over things because it's hard to make a decision I think is right. Oh boy. I called a therapist the other day and she never called back. I will try a different one today.
I also forgot to mention that I am unable to organize. I look at my house....it has slight clutter....and I feel it's a mess. Problem is, I attempt to get started on organizing it / putting things away and I have no idea where to begin. I go around in circles. I go from one room to the next.
The other issue....I can't organize thoughts a lot. It screws up my decision making. Sometimes it takes me forever just to decide if I want to buy something. That's what is really screwing up my relationships. I just broke it off with someone and I am going back and forth in a vicious cylce of "what's right....what do I want". Ugh. This is really getting to me at this age. I become a little obssesive over things because it's hard to make a decision I think is right. Oh boy. I called a therapist the other day and she never called back. I will try a different one today.
cbeavers
12-01-2005, 04:51 PM
this is my first time to be on this site so im a New B. any ways i was diagnosed with add a month ago and everything you described is exactly what i had im on adderol now and my life is totally diff. i cant tell you how much better you will fill if you get help, im more organized, i can study in front of a tv without even taking a glance, i always fill like i need to do something productive ( cleaning studying excercising) i dont feel worthless at all anymore. I dont talk as much but sometimes i talk to my friends about stuff that is totally off the subject we are talking about but im working on that.
i have a question for you. do you ever feel like you cant be yourself around people?
because before i sure did, now i can be myself
i have a question for you. do you ever feel like you cant be yourself around people?
because before i sure did, now i can be myself
threethings
12-01-2005, 08:21 PM
Hmm...sometimes i feel like people won't like me. So if i'm at a party or something, i'm social...but i feel like people think i'm an idiot. I have many other "symptoms" too. for example i feel like a bad friend because i drift off during conversations. i thought that would get better with age but nope...it's worse. I'm constantly thinking. i've been calling my doctor every day for a recommendation of a therapist but she hasn't gotten back to me. i will try once more and if i don't hear back...i will seek one on my own.
the only problem is...i'm kind of against taking medicine. i want to be me..i don't want to change entirely. i'm afraid i guess.
the only problem is...i'm kind of against taking medicine. i want to be me..i don't want to change entirely. i'm afraid i guess.
cbeavers
12-02-2005, 09:00 PM
yea i kinda feel like people think im an idiot but after taking the meds i feel a little better.
but good luck with whatever direction you go.
but good luck with whatever direction you go.