Well I write to this board again,my hubby went to see his ocologist and he believes that the cancer is once again active in his chest,my hubby will go for another CTscan tomorrow.
My hubby is still going thru WBR for 14 plus mets to his brain,his onco was in a different"space"today,I believe that we are reaching the end of the road and my hubby knows it too!!
At times I wonder if per chance his cancer is back in his chest is another round of chemo worth it,I mean in reality is what they're doing helping??
I just do not want my hubby to suffer as the end comes,I do not to prolong the enivetable only to have him suffer and be in pain!
Thanks to all who have replied to my postings ,you have been a source of inspiration to me.
God Bless :angel:
Karen44

Karen,
I am so very sorry to hear your news. You and your husband will be in my prayers!
Lucy

Karen,
Sorry about your bad news. I will be praying for peace for you and your husband during this difficult time.
Jax

Karen, hang tight. I am holding you up each day. There are so many of us in this lousy boat. Do you ever feel like you are on the Titanic? Me too. Look up, look ahead. My hubby said when he gets to stage IV, he will no longer take chemo or any other kind of needle inflicted therapy. Can I blame him? NO WAY. If it were my body, I think I would do the same. When and if the time comes, I will agree with his decision. Karen, I see your marriage as a strong one, like mine and Bud's. This is a difficult time of year to deal with all of this especially since you have small ones. If you ever need someone to talk to...I wish you could write me or call me but I know we are not allowed. I will check here often and see how things are with your and your hubby.

Lots of thougts, prayers and love coming your way...

Jan

Jan and Karen...
I feel so much heartache for what you are going thru at this time. I know I am going thru the same, but I just hate to see other people hurting during the Holiday season too. Jan, when my husband was diagnosed he already had StageIV sclc, but he did go thru chemo, but has opted not to do whole brain radiaiton at this time. It is hard for me to be happy during the Holidays, but I am so lucky to have him right now so I do cherish those moments. Karen, you sound so strong but know you are aching and sure you wonder...why? Just know you two are in my thoughts and prayers....We even bought a new video camera to cherish the moments we have together. Hang in there....Kim

Thanks to all who have responded,I appreciate your kind words and especially your prayers!!
My hubby has decided he will go ahead and if in fact he does have activity in his chest again he will do chemo,this is his choice and I will respect it,he wants so much to live even though he knows the odds are stacked against him!!
This Christmas will be so hard for me ,I know this will be the last,and come hell or high water I will not cry and I will put a smile on and make it the best Christmas ever,my oldest daughter is planning a big christmas party similar to a family reunion of course her dad doesn't know this but she wants to make it special with lots of pictures and memories!!
I just hope he can make it until our only grandson will be born in march,he has been waiting for a grandson,to take fishing,I hope he will get to meet him!!
Once again thank you for all your responses,it helps so much just to be able to talk to someone with similar experiences
God Bless :angel:
Karen44