ckjk5
01-12-2006, 06:17 PM
I'm hoping someone else can relate to this. I'm so afraid of being or becoming schiz. I worry about it all day. I fear hearing voices. Heck, I fear that I already hear voices and don't realize it yet. I just can't let go of this one. I used to worry about bipolar, but easily dropped that one. I always have the violent ones there, but know in my heart that they aren't true. They bother me and I go through an ocd cycle, but it ends for awhile. This schiz thing won't let up. I fear that I'll start hearing voices telling me to do the violent thoughts that I have. And, that I will follow through because I'm psycotic. I constantly watch what I say, think, do and how I do them. I've tried to research it to ease my mind, but that didn't work. I don't understand schiz. And, on sites it said women usually show signs around 25 to 30. Well, I'm 28. So, my ocd thinks "Well, there's still time". Does anyone have any advice or anything that has worked for them. I've gotten so much of my ocd under control, but this one I can't seem to get a handle on.
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basal1999
01-12-2006, 09:30 PM
is this too funny....
remember crazy people don't know they are....they
think everyone else is....
my mother is bipolar and i worry one day i will become depressed
but i am 37 and have never felt depressed, i really can't relate
to depression, not even over jason, (my 5yo son with cerebral palsy)
i really don't think my makeup is going to change. i really beleive
psychotic people had interesting childhoods if you know what i mean.
i worry about acquiring depression b/c severly dep. people (moms)
commit suicide.....and hurt children.....hmmmm
like i said jason is disabled and i wonder, i'm OK now but what if
in 15 years i can't take it......it all comes down to "will i ever go
crazy!!" i know i've said this to you b/f but it's true :)
it's ANXIETY, i promise!! it is the PITS!!
this is the WORST thing i've gone thru, and i've had
my share.
why did you drop the bipolar thought so easily?
kris - think about what you would tell me..
remember crazy people don't know they are....they
think everyone else is....
my mother is bipolar and i worry one day i will become depressed
but i am 37 and have never felt depressed, i really can't relate
to depression, not even over jason, (my 5yo son with cerebral palsy)
i really don't think my makeup is going to change. i really beleive
psychotic people had interesting childhoods if you know what i mean.
i worry about acquiring depression b/c severly dep. people (moms)
commit suicide.....and hurt children.....hmmmm
like i said jason is disabled and i wonder, i'm OK now but what if
in 15 years i can't take it......it all comes down to "will i ever go
crazy!!" i know i've said this to you b/f but it's true :)
it's ANXIETY, i promise!! it is the PITS!!
this is the WORST thing i've gone thru, and i've had
my share.
why did you drop the bipolar thought so easily?
kris - think about what you would tell me..
mishkaaa
01-13-2006, 08:13 PM
i can 100% relate. i went through a 2 week period where EVERY SINGLE DAY i thought exactly what you are thinking. it got so bad. but with the help of my therapist, i'm through that. those 2 weeks were the longest ever! you will get through it though!
turner
01-18-2006, 06:04 PM
Know what you are going through. I'm the same at the moment. I spent a very long time on the internet last night looking at the symptoms of various mental illnesses and concluded that I have ocd, bdd, gad, and bpd. I've been thinking about all this for a long time and it's made me feel weird and like I don't know who I am anymore, if I ever did! Perhaps I want to have all these things I don't know. I can be quite self destructive at times and confused.
Work, activity and distraction does help.
Take care
Work, activity and distraction does help.
Take care
mochi*
02-01-2006, 05:58 AM
yes, I have absolutly had this problem, whenrevr my OCD acts up, I start worrying if I am becoming scizophenic or am crazier than I realize. It is very scary, I even have done researh to find out if I was scizpherenic instead of obessive-compulsive...
I think that when it gets bad enough, you can feel totally that way......
well, doing research hasn't helped you, that helped calm me down a bit, however you unfortunatly can't rationalize with OCD, that's what makes it so bad....
well, I can tell you this much, if you were showing symptoms of scizophernia, you wouldn't wonder if you were crazy, becasue it's the nature of the disorder that you can't seperate reality form fantasy, you don't doubt that what you are seeing or hearing is real or not....
see what i mean.
i'm sure you're ok,
what you need to focus on is that your worry about scizo. is just an OCD thought, talk to your doc about it....
I think that when it gets bad enough, you can feel totally that way......
well, doing research hasn't helped you, that helped calm me down a bit, however you unfortunatly can't rationalize with OCD, that's what makes it so bad....
well, I can tell you this much, if you were showing symptoms of scizophernia, you wouldn't wonder if you were crazy, becasue it's the nature of the disorder that you can't seperate reality form fantasy, you don't doubt that what you are seeing or hearing is real or not....
see what i mean.
i'm sure you're ok,
what you need to focus on is that your worry about scizo. is just an OCD thought, talk to your doc about it....