Im starting to feel the old anxiety again, every second that ticks by I seem to have the thought of being infected on my mind, I try to reassure myself, Ive delt with this before, came out stronger because of it, I just dont think I got off as lucky as last time, some of you may know last year I had unprotected sex, a stupid thing to do, I learned from that and after testing negative a 7 months I was confident, I would never have to worry about it again. A little before new years, I had protected sex, until the condom broke took me a good 10 seconds to realise it, I had a few nicks on the base of my shaft from shaving(sorry for being so graphic), and a small sore near the top. its been a month Ive been having some muscle aches lately, plus last night I got a rash(in the same spot i got one last year after being infected with herpes go figure). I keep telling myself not to be afraid, I know what anxiety can do, but I dont know if this is anxiety I feel some what more calm than last time, I feel the aches right now as type, I dont know what to do I cant imagine what I am going to feel like when I go to the clinic to get my results back this time.

I know the feeling dazed and my thoughts and prayers are with you!
I'm waiting for my first test to come back and am on pins and needles waiting and have so much anxiety built up.

Take care and keep us updated!
Hugs!

Well it was vaginal sex, protected sex I had condom on till it broke,it took me about 10 seconds to realise it. Im not sure of the womans sexual history. This is the second time im going through this. I thought it would be easer but I feel just as bad as I did last year, to add to that I have just gotten an outbreak, and its pretty bad. I keep telling myself, you have no fever, no other symptoms aside from muscle aches, a rash, and a bad OB, it has to be Anxiety, but then I freak out again. first Month is up, first test is tommorrow, I wanna believe im negative, I know what the light at the end of the tunnel feels like, but right now all I see is darkness. Soveryscared Ive been following your story as well, an my prayers are with you too

Thank you Dazed... I should have the results tomorrow but I know even if everything is negative I am still not out of the woods because the possible exposure was between Dec. 28-31, so I still will have 3 more mths of this to go through.
I appreciate your thoughts and prayers and please know that you are in mine!!

Hugs!

Hey, I'm here too...and you DID do everything right...and it always seems like it's our "last chance", but no matter how much we learn from a situation, there's always so much more to learn...perhaps you've learned that sex in general isn't worth it unless it's with a trusted partner...you would not have learned that had it not been for this experience...PS-HIV doesn't fare very well on the skin, and I would assume that with the fragility of the virus, that the lubrication from the condom may have helped inhibit the virus..it's just a hunch, but im here with ya
-S-

Its seems more and more im leaning towards the same opinon on sex, in general it seems just better to be with a trusted partner than some one whom you arent so sure of. Im testing today, I think this new place is also a two week wait, its only been a month, but I figure if all goes well its a good sign of what I might be like in 3 months maybe I will be able to calm my nerves a bit

Finally went and got my results today, It seems Im negative, at least for now, still have another test to take in 2 months. I can rest easy for a little while at least

Good news hun!!! :bouncing:
I'll pray that results remain negative in 2 mths!

Hugs!
Tracy