Wow... where do I start?? My health anxiety I thought was getting better, but I now have some type of head cold.. and of course my mind is racing!!!Why can't I just believe the docs and be happy!!!!! This is so frusterating,,, my body is just weak at times... and I instantly think " Oh my god what is wrong with me?" Sometimes I can't wake up fully, its like my body feels like its giving up or something.

Just need some reassurance or someone who understands and has been there or felt this way...any advice on how to feel better?? Sorry to be a pain,, just don't know where else to go. Just feel so hopeless right now!! :confused:

JEN

Hi Jen:

You are not a pain!!!! Btw, did you ever take anymore Xanax? You sound like you are just endlessly in a panic that you are going to die. Think about it, whats the rush? You're here now, we will all die someday. I know all these weird symptoms are very unsettling, but the more you work yourself up the worse they get. I think you need to try and start thinking of things differently. What's the worst thing that can happen? So you have a cold, that's pretty normal. My father is 81 years old, and the doctors cannot figure out why he is still alive. He's been diabetic for 30 years, has extensive artery clogging, has had quadruple bypass, multiple angios, and now because of his diabetes he is on dialysis which has really messed him up. He caught a bug in the hospital which gave him a deadly infection and they removed his colon. His body has a very limited ability to absorb liquids, and he is antibiotic resistent. He has been in the hospital or rehab nearly half the year and had 5 leg/hip operations. He has lost nearly 100 pounds in the last year and a half. His health is beyond incredibly poor, yet he is not the least bit concerned about it, and keeps on going. It's hard to understand how he can still be alive with all the complications, but it just goes to show you that you can truly have many life threatening conditions and still live. My pains and symptoms seem awful to me, but when I look at him, it changes my view. Hell, he's still kicking, so our chances have to be a whole lot better! Ya know?

Hi youarenotalone

Thanks for your reply.... I couldn't take the xanax although I did try,, just didn't agree with me. But I am on ativan twice a day. I ended up admitting myself in the hospital beginning of the month. I just felt like I was going crazy.. I couldn't do anything but cry, Three different hospitals and my doctors office all said I was healthy, just anxiety, so the p doc during my hospital stay told me to take ativan twice a day, not just when needed. I truly started feeling better, but I ,missed a couple night doses and I am a WRECK again. God I just wanna feel healthy again. I have such a hard time believing that anxiety can make your body feel so out of it!! Am I making sense at all.
I am sorry to hear about all the problems your father is having, although I am happy to hear that he is still alive and kicking as you say ;) I know my way of thinking is irational and that I have to get ahold on it ,, just having a hard time finding the way. ya know?

JEN

i'm sorry you're going through that. i really can relate. stay strong xoxo

Hey Hopeful!

You make perfect sense! I know, it's very hard to think differently than what we've gotten into a habit of doing. Anxiety truely takes on a life of its own it seems, but I believe it started somewhere (you haven't always felt this way). I never in my life worried about being sick, and never have been, then after several years of unbelievable stressful situations, all these weird things started happening. I thought it had to be something bad because how could I feel this way and nothing physically be wrong? It's hard to imagine, but look at all the people who post on here that go to the doctors, the emergency room, and are actually very healthy. It is a reality that anxiety causes bizarre physical symptoms. What is most unrealistic is the way we think about things everyday carrying the whole world around on our shoulders, torturing ourselves. I know. I wake up and within a few minutes my mind is going, and it just seems to start up itself, and then I start feeling symptoms. It's very confusing and unsettling. I am better mostly than I was six months ago (with Xanax and Prevacid). I've tried to analyze trigger points. And some I've noticed are that I get worse symptoms when my dad has to go back to the hospital because they are not very safe places. Some days you get good care, others not. So it stresses me trying to keep an eye on him. That in itself triggered chest pain for me last week. So I am starting to get a picture of the problem and take note when it's at its worst, but I am far from feeling normal. I would just love to feel normal again. Both of my parents were hospitalized this summer (at the same time), and my mom was on a ventilator for two weeks. That's the short story, but I don't wonder why I am stressed, but if there was a way I could deal with all this and not stress so that I could get rid of these symptoms, I sure would do it. I am trying to look at it differently, but it's a long and difficult process. So I hear ya girl! I know it is so hard to believe that anxiety can cause you to feel so bad, but believe it, cause it does. We are living proof! Tell that to yourself over and over, until it sticks, so you don't get so scared at the symptoms. I've gotten to a point where I don't get scared with the pain anymore, so it's more of an annoyance. I still get it, but it doesn't escalate because I don't get all wound up most of the time. I am mostly over the fear of the pain, but I still can't stop the rest of it. Seems like it's coming from nowhere. Thanks for your reply about my dad, but I just brought it up to give you a different side of the coin. We're "healthy and worried" and he's in really bad shape and not the least bit worried. It makes me wonder about myself! You seem like a super person! I truly hope you feel better soon! Big hug!

Cathy

Thank you so much for your replys.. It means more to me than I can even explain.. Reading your reply brings tears to my eyes. Just knowing that I am not alone and that I finally found a place where people understand and LISTEN to me. THANK YOU.. and everyone else who reads this THANK YOU!!

Youarenotalone... I couldn't have explained it better myself..Its a daily struggle to get out of bed.. I do have good days, but more bad than good. :rolleyes:
I think the part that gets me the most is looking at my child. my 8 year old,, needs so much for me to be active and have energy,, and it just hurts to not be able to enjoy life with him the way I should and the way I want to. Ya know I am 26 years old, just shouldn't feel this way. I try not to let it get me down, I try talking myself out of it, but always ends up the same. The same question always lingers in my mind.. When will I feel healthy again,, normal again, When will I have my life back... I think that all this is making me depressed on top of it all. Sorry for going on and on.
Just know that I apreciate it SO MUCH!!! And wish you the best as well.

JEN

Hi Just wanted to say you are so not alone I have real bad anxiety about my health and have been like this for many years. Last year I realy didnt feel well for a good 7 months this went on I went to see my doctor so many times to be told its Anxiety guess what I had a blood test and had a call from my doctor only to be told i have a underactive thyroid,hashi's (Autoimmine Disease) now i am even worse about my health as my own body as truned againist me sorry about the bad spelling i am not to good with this take care .... Mandy

Thanks Mandy..
I have had blood tests done at three different hospitals and my docs office, all good. They all say its anxiety.. Just having a hard time lately..
But thanks for your reply.. wish you the best..

JEN

Hi Jen I hope you feel better in yourself soon, take care .....Mandy

im in the same boat as you all. about 4 or 5 months ago i just started having these random anxiety attacks for no reason. then i started getting abdominal pains right before christmas. last week i had an endoscopy done, and they found 2 small burns in my esophagus right above my stomach. dr said that theres not a whole lot to worry about and they should go away with the meds im on now within the next couple of weeks. unfortunately the anxiety is back again because of this even though its nothing serious, and will be fixed. i just have to get it in my head that everything is gonna be alright. im only 20 years old, and still have a lot to look forward to, and hopefully you can overcome this as well.

Jen, when I used to hear the term "Anxiety Disorder", I dismissed it arrogantly. I had this uneducated idea that they add the word "disorder" on everything so the doctors could find something new to treat, lol! Well, I have been seriously humbled. In my own defense, I would have occasional anxiety attacks, so I thought that was what they were talking about, but ummmm, I've learned different. I can truly understand why someone who hasn't experienced this would have no clue. It's just the most bizarre thing. I have had severe depression a good part of my life, but that I could somewhat understand. It is a chemical imbalance and it does feel that way, but for the life of me, I would have never imagined this. On the brightside though, it makes us more sensitive understanding people. As miserable as I have been, and as much pain as I've felt, I would not change it. It has made me a better person, and I know it has all of you. Don't feel bad to vent how you feel Jen, it's just the way to healing. Your posts have had a great impact on me and often made me feel better. So keep 'em coming g/f! Everything passes, the good times and the bad. Your 8 year old is lucky to have you as a mom! Hugs!

Cathy