any once else suffer with all these feelings! dont know whatsbringing on!
my dad suffers with fibro i believe and had changes in personality, one min ok nest min funny and agitated! feels like im going same way! i have read on the list that personality change for the worse is a symptom! xxx

dear april,
we all come to a cross roads in this when we have to choose a direction. my personality has blossomed and i am a better wiser woman for having a body that is not perfect. i had a friend who had the same stuff and more. she chose to let it rule her moods. i watched what that did to her family and decided it was not for me. there had to be a better way. i don't know if it is personal make up inside or if it is learned. all i know is i got a shrink and started learning how to be a joyous me inside this body at all times. i choose my mood not my body. the brain is an amazing organ. it is the only one that listens.
those moments of agitation still come. i feel them. i also accept them and they have their moment and leave. it was fighting it that made it last longer. it was the fear and anger that fed into those feelings. so now i just stop whatever i am doing and let it happen. after a few minutes of breathing slowly it passes and life continues. there are ways to train your mind.
hang in there. you can do it. there is nothing special about me, to my way of thinking so i figure if i can find a way you can find a way too. your own personal way so that your smile is not ruled by your pain.
peace,
bluelakelady

Bluelakelady, you are so right. There is anger, self-pity, frustration, the life just isn't fair thing. Just let it happen, it'll pass and things will improve after a while. I figure we are entitled to have these times, fight these feelings and they seem to grow stronger. Sometimes just griping for a while helps, sometimes we need to shed a few tears, maybe list, to yourself all the things you are blessed by. I read an article about some children who never feel any pain whatso ever. First thought, must be nice, then read it all way through. If you never feel any pain you may seriously injure yourself and since you don't feel it, know it, serious complictions may set in and endanger you life. We certainly don't have that problem, thank God. Fibro is debilitating but thankfully not life threatening, just life changing. And no matter what about it you are unhappy or upset with, someone on here has been through it or will at some point. Let the bad times come, don't fight it, just ride it out and it will get better, definetly not for good, maybe not soon enough to suit us, but they will get better.
April

Hi Apriltones-
Ahh, yes...I posted "Frustrated" a few days ago and know exactly how you are feeling. I'm hearing more and more- and I know it to be true- that we must readjust our thinking and not let our issues get the best of us. However, I also know how hard it is to do so. It's very easy to take the good things in life for granted and not know you're doing so until you're faced with something worse. I just finished telling my husband that I know my attitude has been bad- I have no motivation to do anything lately. Sometimes it's because I'm tired- other times it's just there. Couldn't tell you why or what provoked it. But you are not alone and somehow we will find the strength to see beyond our daily woes.
Take care!
Latte

Hi all,

I love this board because everytime I feel something happening to me I come here and lo and behold there is a thread on the subject.

Lately, in the last week, I am extremely agitated and getting wound up over nothing. I worry that this and that is going to happen and I cannot shake it. I am very down and do not want to talk to many people or see them. Usually I can pull myself together and pray and talk with myself to get over it. I am having a heck of a time.

I just started on Cymbalta and have been on it for 7 days and wonder if this is causing it. I have never felt this way. Like my mind will not stop and my body gets hot, my ears start to burn and I cannot sleep. This is not me. I went on Cymbalta since I had read many things on this board about it and most of it positive. There is also the weight issue and from what I understand Cymbalta is considered one of the anti-depressants that don't cause weight gain. I have been on other anti's and I know that it does take a while for them to work.

I am dealing with a lot of health issues besides fibro, I have major dental work to get done which freaks me out.

On a very personal note I have developed ulcers or ? on my perineum and anus. No doctor yet can tell me what it is which doesn't make me feel good. It is also very painful, I cannot sit and going to the bathroom is hell.

THank you to everyone on this board for giving me a place to vent and breathe a sigh of relief knowing that someone will understand lovingly.

Peace and love, Hangin

hi hangin,
it may be a good idea to contact your doctor. if this feeling is new and came on after starting the cymbalta, there is cause for concern. some anti's will drop you down into the bowels of hell. (pun intented) means it is not the one for you.
oh your poor bum. given the placement of your owie i am not going to offer to kiss it all better. giggle. i will wish it better and do some dancing for you.
i really am concerned with your mood dive. please call your doctor. if your pharmacist is a good one call there too.
i had a bad reaction the one time i tried anti's. what you describe sounds very familiar. please call your doc. no drug is for everyone. just because it helps so many of our family here does not mean it is for you.
i am going to send you a cloud so soft to sit on. poor bum.
love,
blue

Hi blue,

I did as you suggested and my doc told me to stop the Cymbalta and not take any anti-depressants for a week. I was on a major mood dive, never felt like that in my life. I was on Lexapro before but didn't like the weight gain. I gained 10 pounds in three weeks. In stopping everything for a week I will be able to tell if it is the Cymbalta or something else.

I did a llittle bit of research on why weight is gained on anti-depressants, it is that our metabolism changes and something happens to our liver enzymes (cannot remember at the moment, so very tired). :yawn:

I would like to not take any anti-depressants however, I found that I did feel better and had more energy when I took the Lexapro. I will see how I feel after a week and perhaps not use anything. Tell this body and spirit of mine that I am ok and all will be well. It depends on how difficult the treatment will be for my bum and the work on my teeth :eek: :eek:

Thanks for your insight into this. It was the first time I was alarmed at how I felt mentally.

The worse part is that Swingman doesn't seem to get it, what I am going through. This is a change for him. I haven't figured out why he is so distant with me. Maybe he is just sick of me being sick. Oh well, one thing at a time.

Take care of yourself dear friend.

Peace and love, Hangin

hi hangin,
perhaps he is afraid? men tend to distance themselves when they experience fear. especially when it is their tower of strenght, the woman they love. i remember many years ago my mom had to have emergency surgery. my dad was a basket case. i often wonder what would have happened had my sis and i not been there for him to be responsible to. i bet he would have camped out at the foot of moms bed.
few men have the gene to be nurses. the ones who do excel.
go give him a hug and tell him you will be back just as soon as the drugs leave your body. and you will be. altering your mind to ease pain is a big choice. maybe your body is trying to tell you something. worth taking a moment to look in and ask.
i am glad you called your doc. these meds are not to be taken lightly. i am proud of you girl!
love,
blue