MKLowTone
01-31-2006, 12:52 PM
OK So here's me - November 2003 I had my first panic attack - they lasted on-and-off for about a year and since the I've been relatively panic-free, but always really quite anxious
I haven't had a job since then - and because I did virtually nothing for that year I still find it hard to get back into shape, both mentally and physically (I gained a fair amount of weight, after actually losing a lot in the first 6 months - but I put on more than I lost)
I also have an issue with my ribs, whereby they don't line up with my spince entirely correctly. This causes discomfort and occasionally minor pain in my chest - not fun when I already went through the "I'm dying" phase during my panic attacks
so anyway today I've been feeling a lot of the old feelings; weak/tired/useless/lightheaded etc and it's really thrown me out of whack, especially with the extra weight I'm now carrying around
I just want to feel 'normal' again. I've been making progress but days like this just make me feel like I don't have the capacity to do the things I want to do, to be the man I want to be - especially when I think to myself what I used to do and not even think on it, and now walking to the shops leaves me physically shaking sometimes, let alone the effect it's having on my happiness levels. It sometimes just feels too much, trying to sort out 2 physical problems (the weight and the ribs) as well as this latent anxiety that can just rear its ugly head and take a bite from time to time
AAARRRGGGHHH!!!
I haven't had a job since then - and because I did virtually nothing for that year I still find it hard to get back into shape, both mentally and physically (I gained a fair amount of weight, after actually losing a lot in the first 6 months - but I put on more than I lost)
I also have an issue with my ribs, whereby they don't line up with my spince entirely correctly. This causes discomfort and occasionally minor pain in my chest - not fun when I already went through the "I'm dying" phase during my panic attacks
so anyway today I've been feeling a lot of the old feelings; weak/tired/useless/lightheaded etc and it's really thrown me out of whack, especially with the extra weight I'm now carrying around
I just want to feel 'normal' again. I've been making progress but days like this just make me feel like I don't have the capacity to do the things I want to do, to be the man I want to be - especially when I think to myself what I used to do and not even think on it, and now walking to the shops leaves me physically shaking sometimes, let alone the effect it's having on my happiness levels. It sometimes just feels too much, trying to sort out 2 physical problems (the weight and the ribs) as well as this latent anxiety that can just rear its ugly head and take a bite from time to time
AAARRRGGGHHH!!!