I am just so sad. i do want to cry. i have the blankets pulled over me. i just do not want to go to work tommorrow. not because i am lazy - just because i need to be home so bad. i want to be under tha blankets. i don't want to face anyone. i try so hard to be perfect and even though i KNOW it is impossible to be perfect i keep trying. And after i while i can'tdo anything but hide and cry.

CityKittie http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/angel.gif

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Cry. Cry your eyes out. It's sooo okay to cry, and I'm sure you know what. Just have a good cry and let it out. I know how you feel... I've felt like that soooo many times before and I was feeling like that lately too...the only big thing that has "stopped" me from not wanting to go to work and all that junk is that I get to go on a trip on Thursday. That's the only thing that is motivating me! But hang in there hun...you'll get through this. Take care.

Lilmissme http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/heart.gif

lilmissme is totally right,cry and let it all out and relize whats making you feel this way and try and do little things to eliminate some of the stress you put on yourself if you can. Don't try to be perfect for anyone,be perfect for yourself and I'm sure if you take a good look inside you are already perfect and is all that matters is how you feel and right now I know your not feeling very good,but just remember you are you and that doesn't have to be good or bad for anyone else,your opinion is the one that counts....take care http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

Do you have comfortable blankets?
My room does not have any heat so I have a ton of blankets and pillows.
I can hide there pretty well
Lately, I have been thinking a lot about feather beds.
If I am going to sleep 14 hours a day and hide in bed I am thinking that I want a feather bed.

I know what you are saying… try as hard as you can… fail…..Then feel trapped, hopeless and like crying.
That is my life.