It's been awhile since I've posted, but not much has changed. I was fired from my job at the end of December, and that was pretty terrible for me...I am still unemployed at this moment. I lost the job due to having depression, basically, and being on meds, being sick, etc. Some people I know, along with myself, thought it was discrimination, so I filed a complaint with legal services. They took my case, but I'm still waiting to hear from them. I've been looking for a job for the past few months, but no one has called...and the few that have called were too far for me to get to. I've decided to go back to college...but that won't be until the summer. So my days have been extremely uneventful. I don't really go anywhere or do anything, and it makes me feel all the more worse. I just hate having no life...I feel like there's something wrong with me. I've been depressed for about 8 years, but the last two have been the worst...I'm just not sure what to do anymore. I'm tired of being like this...

Hi Tristessa!


So nice to hear from you, but bittersweet, as you're having probs.

Going back to school sounds nice. Are you leaving your home at all? You on any meds- seeing any shrinks/therapists?

I'm trying terribly hard to think of things other than my illness. It's so hard, because I've always felt this way and I identify myself as being this way. The same old thoughts come to me, as if by habit..

I'm trying to change my way of thinking..trying not to see myself as a 'mental patient' all the time. I'm trying to see myself as happy. I'm trying to see myself as someone who cleans her house http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/wink.gif Someone who takes out the trash in the light of day...somone who changes her kitty's litter more often...someone who goes to the laundry room on a regular basis..someone who does not try to wash towels in the dishwasher because she is scared to go down a few floors to the laundry room.

BTW- never try to wash towels in the dishwasher.


I send you love and if you feel like writing, please do.

Love,
Delphi

PS. Maybe you'll get a huge settlement! http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

Delphi

Hi Tritessa,

I'm new here, but I've been posting a good bit. This board is such a great place to share with others.

Awfully sorry to hear about your job. I'm currently unemployed as well. I gave up my job in February because I couldn't take the hostility of the place. I got fired from a job several years ago because I couldn't keep up with the work load; I couldn't keep up because I was on anti-depressants, and the side effects made me unable to do my job. That was the beginning of the end of my days on anti-depressants. I've tried a few in the years since, but, never found anything that didn't make me feel sicker than I already felt.

I try to stay involved with other people, helping them out whenever I can. I often have to push myself out the door just to get going. It's not all that easy to find people to be around, so sometimes I hook up with some kind of support group (such as Al-Anon) just to have some company.

Note to Delphi: Towels in the dishwasher must work at least as well as dishes in the clothes washer. http://www.healthboards.com/ubb/smile.gif

Hi Tristessa...I too am sorry to hear about your job loss, and I don't think it's right that they fired you for being depressed and for bein on meds. Congrats on going back to college!! I'm sure your going to do great. As for your days being uneventful, and not having anything to do, I may not have the best suggestions in the world here, but I've started reading a lot of books that have absolutely nothing to do with my life or reality. It kind of gets me out of myself if you can understand that. I also took up cross stitching which believe it or not..when your concentrating on counting teeny tiny squares on a piece of cloth, you can't think of much else. This kind of stuff is working for me, maybe it'll work for you too until you get into school.